A portion of this one may feel familiar to those of you, who've read it on the WOTW thread.. π But, there's a lot added stuff as well.. π Here's the most awaited confession! Hope I've managed it well.. π
She heard the girls whisper and disperse slowly and turned
around.. Her heart skipped a beat at the sight of him.. He looked absolutely
breath-taking in the crisp all-black three-piece suit..
He walked into the
room and locked the door behind him..
She looked around, not being able to
withstand his heated and piercing gaze and ultimately lowered her lashes in
anticipation..
Arjun crossed his arms across his chest and walked towards
her with his eyes fixed on hers.. She walked backwards, clutching her veil
until her back hit the wall..
He stood in front of her and blinked his eyes a couple of
times, taking in her beautiful form.. She looked absolutely stunning in the
bridal lehenga..
Precious pearls and gold adorned her ears, forehead and her
neck.. Yet, he felt something amiss..
And now that he reflected upon it, he
knew what it was.. Her eyes!
Her eyes had always spoken volumes.. He loved they
way they twinkled whenever she laughed at Shree and Chottu's antics, when she
did something special for him and especially when he set his eyes on her..
He silently vowed to himself to bring the twinkle back..
Riya waited for him to speak up and was heart-broken when
she saw him gazing at her like she meant the world to him..
Her heart wanted
her to let go of everything and melt in his arms..
While a soft voice at the
back of her head reminded her that it was too late.. She could never be
his..
She gently shook her head at that thought; correction, she
will always remain his..
Arjun saw tears welling up in her
eyes and gently lifted her wrist adorned with heavy blood-red Choora bangles in between them..
She gulped her tears, not wanting him to see her cry..
He sighed and finally spoke up,
"Four years back, I lost Roshni and a part of me died with her.. Phir bhi main
saansein le raha tha.. Roshni ko insaaf dilana meri zindagi ka maqsad ban gaya
tha..
Lekin zindagi se rooth gaya tha.."
She looked on as he slowly led to the
bed and made her sit on it..
Her brain warned her of the
consequences of this conversation.. But she couldn't get herself to stop him..
She'd waited three long years for this day.. And now that it had finally arrived,
she couldn't help but pity herself..
He tugged at her fingers lightly,
alerting her.. Their eyes met and he spoke up once again,
"Phir ek din, I met
you.. I used to find you annoying and would often wonder ki koi insaan itna nosy
kaise ho sakta hai..
But it was only months later, that I realised, that it
wasn't you that was annoying me.. Having led a reclusive life, I was finding it
difficult to adapt with you being around me..
Your presence was enough to light
up a room, when you were around.. Your smiles would erase everyone's frowns..
Your jest for life would make me want to give life a second chance.."
Riya glanced at their entwined hands
resting in her lap and dabbed her face with a tissue, almost every two
seconds..
Arjun looked up at her and she saw traces of moisture around his
coal-black eyes.. She immediately looked away, as her heart broke into pieces
at the sight of him crying..
He cleared his throat and resumed
speaking,
"Jaise din aur mahiney beete, mujhe ehsaas hua that you weren't nosy,
you simply cared for me..
Each time, you ordered a tea for me, or looked out
for me while we were on a case or even asked me to stay safe, I was reminded of
Roshni..
Aur mujhe yeh gavaara nahi tha.. Main tumhe Roshni ki jagah nahi lene
de sakta tha.. Main Roshni ki yaadon ke saath dhoka nahi kar sakta tha..
Isliye, main tumhe apne aap se door rakhne laga..
Lekin main galat tha.."
He felt her fingers curl around his
palm and entwined his fingers with hers.. She blinked her eyes, signaling him
to continue..
She saw a small smile playing at the corner of his lips and
wondered what he was thinking..
He shook his head and spoke up,
"Main galat tha, Riya.. Tumne meri life mein apne liye ek khaas jagah bana li
thi.. Bina Roshni ko wahan se hataye.. Lekin phir jab Roshni ne khud mujhse
aakar kaha, ki ab main usse azaad kar doon, tab mujhe iss baat ka ehsaas hua,
ki tum mere liye kya maaine rakhti ho.."
Riya bit her lower lip and sighed,
to keep her sobs in check.. She knew what was coming up next.. Arjun grazed his
thumb along hers,
"Uss raat conference room mein humare jhagde ke baad, jo
hua.."
He saw her blush and look away and
couldn't smile at the memories of their first kiss.. It had been impulsive and their piled up frustrations and feelings had been vented out.. They both couldn't help but chuckle inwardly at the memory.. There had been nothing romantic about their first kiss.. It had been laced with desperation and possessiveness..
Arjun had been mad at her for having gone alone with a suspect and landed herself in trouble.. He had grabbed her and pinned her to the facts board, the moment she had set foot into the deserted conference room.. She had been shocked out of her wits at first but had complied once she lost herself in the heat of the moment..
The end result had been more confusion and hurt on both ends..
He tightened his hold on her fingers as he spoke,
"Tab I got carried away..
And ended up hurting you.."
She frowned and sighed at his
naivety.. Her brain wanted to yell out to him, 'You didn't hurt me, duffer..
You kissed me thoroughly!'
She saw remorse written all over his
face and the ignorance on his part after that night haunted her yet again.. But
now, she knew it wasn't remorse for having spent an intimate moment with her..
He heard her unspoken words,
"'I've
never regretted any moment spent with you.. But, it dawned upon me that I was a
broken man, incapable of giving you what you so rightly deserved..
Mere saath
rehkar tumhe sarf dard, takleef aur aasoo hi milte.. And that is when I decided
to let you go.."
Riya's eyes widened as the meaning
of his words registered.. She looked up into his eyes expectantly; Does that
mean he..??
Arjun smiled at her innocence and
lifted their entwined palms to his lips and kissed hers softly.. The muffled
sobs escaped her lips when she realised that he had loved her all along..
She'd been a fool to let go of
him.. She should have latched on to their love.. She should have fought for
them, both..
One glimpse at her henna-decked palm
and she was jolted back to reality.. It was too late..
Arjun felt her stiffen and looked up,
"Lekin aaj jab tum mujhe chodkar jaa rahi
ho, toh pata nahi kyun, mujhe bohot dard ho raha hai, Riya..
Iss baar agar mera pyaar mujhse
chiin gaya, toh main she nahi paaonga.."
There it was! He had said it'
She
gulped and clenched her eyes shut, as fresh hot tears ran down her lightly pink
tinted cheeks..
She had just made up her mind to free their fingers from his
grip, when his next move numbed her..
He rested his head on her lap and whispered,
"Mat jao na, Riya.. Please don't go.."
She felt a hundred shards of glass
pierce through her entire body; maybe that pain would even be bearable compared to what she
felt at the moment..
Every single cell in her body, screamed aloud to forget
everything that was happening around.. the wedding.. Prateik.. everything!
All
she wanted to feel was Arjun.. being with him.. close to him.. never having to lose him!
However, one look at herself in the
mirror and she realised she couldn't be selfish..
She couldn't risk her
family's honour.. Now that she had taken a decision, she had to abide by it..
Or else, the consequences would be terrible..
She slowly freed her fingers from
his and cradled his head,
"Sir.. Baarat pohonchnewali hogi.."
Arjun's head shot up and he stared at her bewildered.. She slowly parted from him and walked to the mirror..
He
saw her dab her face with the tissue and realised that she had made up her
mind..
She saw him looking at her in the mirror and turned around,
"Aapne bohot der kardi, Sir.. Main apne parents ko disappoint nahi kar sakti..
Agar yeh shaadi nahi hui, toh unn dono ki bohot badnami hogi.. I can't let them
down.. I have to do this.. Aur Sir, mere faisle ki wajah kahin na kahin aap bhi hain.."
His eyes looked into hers questioning her.. She shook her
head slightly and took a step towards him,
"Aaj agar maine shaadi se inkaar kar
diya, toh sab aapko blame karenge.. Aap par ungliyaan uthayenge.. Aur yeh, main
hone nahi doongi..
Aap mera guroor hain, Sir.. Aur main aapka insult hote hue
nahi dekh sakungi.."
Arjun's brain sensed her resolve and he quickly covered the
distance between them.
He held her by her arms and pulled her closer, nodding
his head in negative, "Riya'"
She blinked back her tears and cupped his face,
"I have to
go.. Lekin aap vaada kijiye ki aap tootenge nahi.. You will live Sir.. Aap
jeeyenge.. Iss desh ko ACP Arjun ki bohot zaroorat hai.. Promise me, ki aap
haar nahi manenge.. Please Promise me.."
She paused for a while, catching her breath..
"Main aapko kabhi nahi bhula paoongi.. Aap humesha meri
duaon mein rahenge.. Aur main aapki, hai na?.."
His heart was thudding wildly by now.. Her words sliced
through him and he drew her closer nuzzling into her neck,
"No Riya.. You can't
do this to me.. to us!"
She felt his tears on her skin and slowly parted from him,
cupping holding him by his shoulders,
"Please Arjun Sir.. Mere liye aur
mushkilein mat badhaiye.. I have to go.."
And before he knew it, she had sprinted out of her room
towards the prayer room..
He slumped on his knees, defeated!
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Edited by mohabbatgirl - 11 years ago
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