hey i am starting another one, sorry couldnt resist... missing virman like hell these days
Chilling cold winter night and its raining too... all i want is to absorb these tiny drops in me...
I used to love winter nights, i would not say that i am not liking it but i all i want is to be lost in the fog...
i choosed a busy street for walk, what i like about it that no one cares about you there... every one busy in their own lives, racing with each other.. and these days i am liking to be lost in bunch of people, STRANGE PEOPLE... Few years back, whwnever i used to get upset, all i want was to be alone but today i want to be lonely even... i just want to be LOST...
may be bcoz that i know that being lonely i would not be able to control my feelings and i dont want to be weak... I CANT EVEN
Strange thing, yesterday my neighbour advised me a lot of things, though she dont know me for more than a week but she said that I dont deserve to be alone.. she told me a fact, a fact that,
"No one in the world can make you, its only u who can do this for yourself, if you wanna be happy then try to be happy, only this could help you"
I smiled at her, and just asked her,
"Who said that I want to be HAPPY, i just want to be LOST"...
She gave me a weird look and then went away... GOD i am so mysterious these days...
YES I "MANVI CHOUDHARY" HAVE LEFT "VIRAT SINGH VADHERA"
yes i left him alone, whom i used to say that,
I wouldnt be able to live without him ever
But i left him... but i was not wrong,
I AM NOT LIVING MY LIFE NOW... I am just dragging it... Dragging because i dont have courage to end it, NOT becoz i am afraid of death, just becoz I CAN STILL FEEL HIM... YES I CAN... and i dont want to end this feeling... YES I AM SELFISH ABOUT ANYTHING RELATED TO HIM
All around are telling me that she is gone... But i dont believe them, HOW COULD I..
i can see her in front of my eyes, so why should I? stupid people... She keeps me teasing all the day, GOD sometimes she is so childlish AND I LOVE HER...
But whats wrong with other people... Why cant they see her? BUT who cares...
BUT wait a minute, AM I HALLUCINATING?
No ofcourse I am not, even in the morning, she waked me up by brushing her hairs on my face... BUT why she is not talking to me these days, all she do is just smiling and smiling... AND HER SMILE... it mesmerizes me everytime...
And how could she leave me alone, ofcourse she could not, bcoz she told me that she would never be able to live without me
AND NEVER WOULD I
But i havent told her this ever, but now i think that I SHOULD...
Chapter 2: pg2
Chapter 3: pg4
Chapter 4: pg6
Chapter 5: pg7
Chapter 6: pg9
Chapter 7: pg11
Edited by crazyvirmanians - 03 January 2013 at 7:29am