I think she herself doesn't know what she really wants cause her mind and heart are clashing (also like when her verbal and nonverbal language are not saying the same thing). I think she's also making too many vaachans like everyone else, without actually thinking about possible (positive AND negative) consequences of those vaachans. She's forcing herself to do and believe a lot of things in moments of emotional bursts that actually she is not ready
I think her heart wants Vikram, but her mind doesn't. And also since there are too many high stakes now if she were to decide to be with Vikram, even though Vikram might say to forget what anyone else would say, she can't do that.
Perhaps she's making and looking for reasons to hate him. Perhaps she's taking for granted that he's chasing after her, and believes she really wants him to stop, but isn't it sometimes said that you never know something's worth until it's gone? She's been preoccupied as of late with thoughts of hating him and all, but now those opportunities to hate him might be gone (unless the CVs make him come back with portrayed even more negative :( ... Nooo!)
I really don't think she actually wants to be with Aditya. They are all focusing and pointing fingers at Vikram for all of this. Now that Vikram is supposedly gone, what's the use of them getting married? (Maa Thakur's happiness and expectations, perhaps... reputation?). But I don't think they truly realize they are now supposedly partners for life. And, then again - she also determinedly handed the sindoor out to Aditya that time in the mandir because she saw a "sign" from God as the flowers and such were blown away as in God wanted their marriage?
Everyone is making vaachans here and there without thinking things through
vaachan to mend another vaachan or action.