Posted: 15 September 2012 at 8:55am | IP Logged
Folks, I was in liv-in with one gal for three years, Her mom was not ready for the marriage because of cast issues. Well we both were trying to convenience her mom, Even i had a lot of pressure from my family side, So around one year back I asked her to move out of my house and let me move on. She agreed but when i started seeing other gals, she came back again n she said she cant live with out me, Even I never wanted to leave her wounded so after a 2 weeks of freedom she comes back to my place again.. Well things did not changed much coz whenever i use to ask her whats her worst case decision she always kept quit, and if i push same question more on her she would again shift to her PG for a week, n she would come back again once my anger is down. Well other than this topic we were really happy with each other. I use to cook for her in the morning. get her ready for office, i treated her like a baby. she use to say I take care of her more than her mother. Once when i went to see a gal, she cut her wrist only to make me and my family believe how much shez involved into me.
it was around one year back, I saw one sms on her cell. some guy was waiting for her call at the airport. When i asked her she said its her relative, like a fool i did not ask any more questions coz i really trusted her. Next day again some guy calls her, she ignores the call.. This time my brain started working n after checking her mails n chat logs, I asked her whats going on.. she told me she met on guy for marriage n she said yes to him, and her mom forced her telling if she says no she ll commit suicide n all, I was in shock, but i was okay with this because i had no other option. I droped her to the bus stop. but cudnt sleep in the night. She called me n said shes missing me very badly. i was about to loose her.. so i meessged that guy about us and how its forced on her. Some how that topic ended. she came back n thanked me for breaking the marriage and again continued staying with me. this episode is one year back.
Now last month, we wakeup as usual, I prepared tea n ask her to get up. dropped her to office n went to my office. i saw one of her relative posted congrats on her wall. but that comment my gf deleted so i pinged her n asked about it. Again she told me she met one guy and she said yes to him 4 days back. Man i got totally pissed. i called her back home ASAP, after coming back home lot of drama happened, fights/sorry n all. at the end she told me she has to do it otherwise her relatives will kill her mom. I was not ready for it.. I told her shes my wife since we are staying together for 3 yers.. but she din listen she said she has no option. then again i said okay. askd her when is the engagement, she said 2maro tht guys parents are coming to visit her house and after that they ll decide about engagement. I was really pissed because she made me feel its forced on her. so in front of her i messaged that guy same thing as last time. after my message she started crying and made me send a another message saying my love was one sided and i got shock so I sent the message.
Well while shez on her way to her native, she msgs me saying how much she ll miss me n she is not happy with whatever is happening around her. this time I took a stand and messaged that guy the chat log where my gf tells how her mom is blackmailing her...
well i din get any reply form that guy nor my gf calls/msgs me next day. In the night i get a SMS from my gf saying her engagement is done. I was shocked, and tht guy also replied saying my gf denies ever liking me and she is happy with all this. and he askd me to explain why i think my gf loves me.
But i did not give up my fight, coz i knew its forced on her.. i send cpl of more logs to that guy just to prove we are in love. this time that guy did not reply. but my gfs family made some goons to call me and scare me. I did not budge under there dhamkiz. but later her mom called me and told she wanted to move on because she does not like my paretns and me giving money to my family. she thinks I will not able to buy a house because of my responsibilities, Well i did not trust her mom but she said lot many things which only my gf would have said. I realized she never wanted to marry me.. I stopped trying I sent a sorry message to that guy, i stoped completely..
Its been almost 50days but m under depression. How can she do this to me. I do not deserve this.
After her engagmnet when i met her to give her stuffs back. she was looking happy and there was no guilt what so ever. Infact she said I should not have sent messages to that guy. I did not say anything and just walked of. I am filled with anger, if i send her a mail her family calls me n tels to mail her coz her hubby has all passwords and all. she changed her number as well. told all our common fdns that we were on break and I am over reacting. Well i did not give explanation to anyone of them coz its of no use. Only close fdns of mine know about true story.
sometimes i get sooo angry that I get chest pain, not able to sleep in the night. Feels like i should call that guy and tell that she was sleeping with me even after saying yes to him. but that would be really cheap shot m not goona do it. sometimes feels like she ll remember all the love i gave her in past and ll come back. feeling very very empty inside. it was three years relation she pull the trigger on. When i look back i know she fooled me. used me like a tissue paper. she advantage of my kindness.