They say"A mother is never really alone in her thoughts; she always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child"!
However, as I sit and recall that night where one sacrificed to save the life of another, I question myself, "Did she really think twice? Did she really think about herself at all, Did she EVER put herself before her child?" Was it even possible for her think to about herself when destiny compelled her to choose between her two children- One who was developing inside her and another one who she had raised and over the last 20 or so years? With heavy heart, she chose her weak child suffering from Cancer that required her immediate attention, care, and love and left her strong unborn one to fight with destiny's decision!! Where is SHE herself in all of this?
Wait a second, this quote is about mother and I thought they were sisters!!! She never gave birth to her; merely raised her and supported her through thick and thin just as any sister would! But since when did sisters start to utter dialogues like "Mannu Meri Ragon Mein Daudta Hua Khoon Hai", "Mannu, teri dor mere haathon mein hai", "Main Teri Aankhein to Kya, Teri Saansein Bhi Padh Sakti Hoon?" What kind of sister sing a romantic number like "Humein Tumse Pyaar Kitna" to her younger sister? It seems like they are some kind of a couple engaged in a romantic relationship! Talking about Romance? Ofcourse! With all that hugs and kisses, one can easily see their chemistry as those involved in a serious romantic relationship!! But if they are sisters, why would they tie Rakhi to each other? So, now they are enacting the role of brothers as well? Well the way they promise each other to look out for each other, it sure seems so! Okay so lets get this right- so far we have a mother, a sister, a brother- what's left- GOD?
One questions "Aap meri Bhagwan Ho?" and other one responds "Teri Zindagi Ki Dor Mere Haathon Mein Hai"? She definitely took over the job of God and gave her words a meaning by overriding God's decision and writing a new chapter in the life of that being who suffered from Cancer; became a light at the end of the tunnel that others failed to see! Now that is how define an Angel!! Angel, however, is sent by God, but she is her God! I am so confused!
Their relationship is such that one would easily get confused and would fail to describe them in one particular way. Pure like water of Ganga, she takes form that of the container; she becomes a mother when she her child falls sick, she becomes a sister when her sister makes a mistake, she becomes her brother when she needs a wrist to tie a Rakhi on, she becomes her god when she prays for her sickness to be cured!!!
But question remains- HOW MUCH can she do, HOW MUCH more?! Hasn't she done enough? Isn't she tired of going back and forth enacting those various roles as a single being?! Truth is even the word 'infinity' falls short to describe what she has done and what she will continue to do for her!!! Just like Ganga, her flow of love cannot be measured and whatever she is doing, for her, its just a spoonful because her heart is abundance of love! One cannot measure the depth of such mass body of water and those who try to measure it with their two feet are simply ignorant of the fact love does not know its own depth and would just drown studying the complexity of their love! And one can't imagine as to what they will witness next which would become epitome of love as their love and relationship is beyond limits and starts where our imagination ends!!
Jeevika & Manvi- Souls that share Ineffable love and relationship and still as I conclude this post, I question myself "Is Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon?"
Edited by Amii90 - 15 September 2012 at 6:42am