Originally posted by indi52
Originally posted by Nandalala
A poem for ASR in Rilke's words...
"Quiet friend who has come so far,
feel how your breathing makes more space around you.
Let this darkness be a bell tower
and you the bell. As you ring,
what batters you becomes your strength.
Move back and forth into the change.
What is it like, such intensity of pain?
If the drink is bitter, turn yourself to wine.
In this uncontainable night,
be the mystery at the crossroads of your senses,
the meaning discovered there.
And if the world has ceased to hear you,
say to the silent earth: I flow.
To the rushing water, speak: I am."
~Rainer Maria Rilke
Fabulous Crooner, hun...Sorry, I am so late to the game!! Hope and a prayer...the atheist finally came home...or at least thats what the CVs wanted us to take away from Monday's episode. I was completely ambiguous watching the epi earlier today...a bit confused watching the man onscreen...a man who wrote his own destiny, who is THE believer in all things ASR, so dejected, so ready to seemingly give up...Priya, somewhere, the CVs had me stumped with this ASR, yaar...a disconnect! Yes, he was in a hospital, yes, it was a dialogue seemingly with himself, but as you said, he finally let her in--memories coming crashing around him.. Yes, he internalized Di's pain just as we thought he would, yes, he took responsibility for letting her down, but the biggest flaw in Monday's epi was the fact that the man onscreen was NOT the ASR I know!
I sorely missed that ASR from Feb. 15th, yaar...those eyes ablaze with fury, vowing to avenge his Di...This ASR was ready to throw in the towel on life, that shaatir dimaag seemingly gone for a toss!!! Weakness personified to a point that as a viewer, I could not relate to him...For me it was a two part failure--1) The screenplay--ASR's grief does not need to be OTT, but grief can and is the catalyst for the phoenix to rise; they should have shown the angst; the horror of losing his niece or nephew to be--a determination to find out how and why his Di got hurt! Is ASR so clueless as to not notice the lacerations on her feet? To not question the doctor again and in depth about the possible cause of trauma? Doesn't the electrical shock that she received have anything to do with this; why didn't the doc say anything? Where is the logic here??? Which makes me want to believe that the doc is in cahoots with the snake...cliched to the max if thats the case!! 2) The execution--very blase. Having skipped two episodes over two day, it did little to stir me. Reel me in...The only redeeming part of the epi was that hug: PERFECT...Sanaya NAILED it! She looks him in the eye, just takes him in her arms, holds him close, those hands placed behind his head...consoling him in the most beautiful way she knows...She lets the tears flow...lets him have his moment...pouring her strength into him...The pain so visceral, so arresting...Vighnaharta stands as witness...Beautiful. Sobti was shortchanged, BIG TIME!!! No. Doubt. About. It!
Tuesday's epi continued with the hug and the hands united in the presence of the remover of obstacles was the most poignant moment in the epi. Another reminder that this union needs no pheras, no rasams, nothing to define what they mean to each other...Vinayaka has already blessed them and willed them to be together...Even as ASR was taking Shyam on, her hand was never far away from his...My biggest problem here is that I still do not find Shyam an adversary worthy of ASR. Part of the failure lies with Abhaas and the director, but fundamentally, Shyam is nothing more than a pandering, philandering coward. Period. Not worthy of anything more than a Dhaiya-ho parody; a psychotic fruitcake, who just needs to be done away with. After seeing him in that hospital scene with Anjali, I felt no fear, yaar; only intense irritation and anger that he is still around! The only reason the punches worked for me is because I want him gone now...he's been given too much screen space. Ultimately, his juvenile scheming does not justify the miscarriage; and now its getting redundant! Does that make sense? Or is this the CVs' intention? Anyway, I am way too tired to think it through...
Thank God, I saw the wheels turning in ASR's head--the only silver lining to seeing Dadi-Shyam together; really, amen for small mercies...Dunno how much longer I can be part of this pseudo good vs. evil play...Coupled with this new writer who is still learning the ropes, I am in FFing mode as necessary until I see something worth tuning in for... I am sorry if I destroyed the "essence" of the epi for anyone; ArHi united and strong in their love is such a beautiful thing; I only wish Shyam were a true nemesis...Better I go into nazar andaaz mode again, rather than become a ttl Debbie Downer...
Just realized I ttly skipped over this part of the "kahaani" element...yeah, thats how much it impacted me! Felt flat, yaar...I hope they elaborate on it further...a year later, I was so hungering for more...Of course, its so clear that only one "angle" was seen and heard...just makes the hurt that much worse...
i love your rilke poem. i so just want to turn into wine. so tired of the whole world wanting you to be who you are not, poor asr. bold and black,you say things i feel. look what they've done to our asr. but then in which star plus serial is a man bold, strong, and daring enough to say i make my own destiny. they say napoleon destroyed the fate line (so called) on his palm and said he made his own fate. now why can't i think that napoleon had a rotten life, it is better to be suraj.
at your last line, Di!!! OMG, I am laughing SO HARD right now! I am sorry I guess I tuned into the wrong show on YT yesterday! Better I watch the epis from June-Feb last year to get my true ASR "fix" back!!
in red bold, yeah shyam is just too boring actually to be worthy of anything. never been an abhaas fan, was not that offended by him yesterday though. your remark about his idiotic portrayal almost making his worst crime seem redundant, is true. though viewed on its own, as an act it was intolerable and we need to see how the writer brings completion to the miscarriage story. don't know how long this low level parody of a khatarnaak villain must be tolerated.
Ok, I am so glad I am not the only one who still feels this way. The miscarriage, and the way it was shown was devastating...I am BY NO MEANS condoning his actions. HOWEVER, it does not sit well with me that glass shards, electrocution, resulting in a severe fall were overlooked in the hospital so easily...I did not like the doctor's flippant attitude to it. That was insensitive. Furthermore, ASR's lack of questioning: illogical, Di! The writers on this show have given us logic; they are capable of it...and which is why I tune in...but I felt they failed when we needed it the most...
the asr we love, we sense, we just miss so damn much. yet, on tuesday i thought i saw him emerge from this new needy helpless in sorrow self. especially when he threw a fit and said my sister goes home and when he started picking on something weird in the shyam dadi air. hopefully, he will remember he thought he saw something while dancing during mehendi, just before the black out and this time connect the dots and kick the jackass.
Amen. Amen. Amen. Yes, I saw him back on Tuesday; like I said, the only silver lining after that very first scene in the entire epi. Absolutely hope to see more of the real McCoy from here on out, Di! Fingers-crossed!