Posted: 10 August 2012 at 4:30pm | IP Logged
U said it all,,,
very emotional writing,,hats off!!
Originally posted by --Anna--Dear Arnav Singh Raizada,
I remember writing to you on the 29th of February 2012 (Arnav Singh Raizada - I get you) where I tried to understand the reason behind why you believed Shyam over Khushi. Today, My
heart asked me to write this to you again and again because today I saw
the lonely boy of 14 who had grown up to be a ruthless business man
still stuck somewhere in the horrors of his past and still trying to
fight it day and night. What touched me most is the silent tears that
keep swimming in your eyes and never fall down - and yet your eyes are a
window to the extreme pain and the million pieces of your broken heart.U have unfolded th reality,,,,this is the real angle we should see Arnav Sigh Raizada
dont know how horrible is your past - with Mom and Dad both suiciding - with the whole past still unclear to you and most importantly no one - not a single person standing by you.I
always wondered why I could see your pain more and understand it better
and today I know why - its the silence and the turbulence in your eyes
that make me cry for you. You may not cry for the world to see but your
heart cries whenever you think about your horrid past and it astonishes
me that how none of your family is ever bothered about your pain. Trust me - this makes me love you even more.
Today when I saw your grandmother bring up your past, when I saw her question you - and question your actions - I wondered where was this woman when you needed her the most. The
flash of pain that I saw in your eyes when she called your mother a
weak woman - a woman who could not take care of her family and chose the
route of death than to face the reality - I
wondered where was this woman when she left you and your sister -
abandoned in the hands of Nani - where was her strength then to protect
her grand children from the difficulties of the life!? When you said you did not want to hear about your past - you did not want to talk about it but forget the horrors of it -
and she did not stop - I wondered - Is Anjali the only one important?
Cant she see the pain of the grandson who longs for love for happiness!?
I have never felt sorry for anyone like I feel sorry for you at this
I saw the 14 years old boy - fighting against all odds to overcome his
past and live his present - I saw the 28 year old man - whose life may
seem rosy to the outside world - but no one and I mean no one can
understand the inner turmoil that is inflicted deep in his heart. I saw
the young man standing alone - no one there by his side - looking out -
only his silence a witness to his pain and anguish.
As of now, I really dont care whether you were right about your Dad or not -
I know you are right about the present and I assure you - you are
nothing like your Dad - you are a just man and a righteous one. I
would like to believe that you were right in the past also - but even
if not - I trust you to trust the present and your life with Khushi. I
feel bad that your mom had to succumb to death because of your Dad (If
that is what happened) and you had to lose your Dad too - however I
want to remind you even if your family does not understand you - and
does not see the pain that you go through - I remind you that you have
us - the audience who understand you and you are soon going to have your
wife - Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada who will understand you.
She NEEDS to because she is the only one I think you will ever have to
yourself and just to yourself and I hope I am right or you will be left
alone. I dont see anyone - be it Mami - Nani -
Dadi - NK - Aakash or even your sister to understand you and be there
for you. They all may love you but none care for you. You
stood alone today and I want you to have Khushi to take care of you.
You cannot hide your pain ever - your shattered heart and your past -
and you need someone to hold on to you - to love you - for who you are
and make you a strong person in what is to come in the future.
enough you will realize, that you have been betrayed and betrayed by
the woman you love the most - your sister - your mother - your life -
Anjali Shyam Manohar Jha. Awaiting the story to be started--when he finds the only person he did everything for has betrayed him,,he did never think of the consequences of his acts ,if he wanted to do it for his 'di'--he never cared how much the others would get hurt-if he felt he can bring a smile or wipe the tear away from his 'di's' eye...but the day he will face the REALITY--he will understand the REALITY OF THE WORLD!! ---everything is changable-no one can be trusted!!
That will be the end of your life and I mean it. You will be DEAD from inside and it scares me to what an extent!
You have tried and fulfilled what a brother promises to his sister on
Rakshabandhan - you will protect her from any harm - you have done it
and I know you will do it in the future too - that night when you forced Khushi into the marriage that night I now realize that you were trying to save your sister from coming to the same fate as your mother - I realize that Anjali is also weak - and you were scared that what if Anjali realizes the truth and decides to leave you alone just like your mother - now I understand the flashbacks - however
I cannot imagine what you will go through when you realize what has
been happening behind your back - it will torture you to an extent that
will kill you 1000 times more and along with your past you will lose
trust on the present. But I want to
believe that it will be your present - your Khushi - who would be your
path towards light and help you sort out all the cobwebs of the past -
present and future. You deserve
happiness more than anything else - and if Khushi really loves you then
this is her test of love to stand by you and protect and shield you from
the blows that are to come. You both have to stand together and fight
against all odds and I do hope that you will be successful in it.It
came as a no surprise that you were blamed and faulted for the past and
again the present and I can imagine how deeply tortured you might feel
when you kept hearing Dadi talk about your "decisions". I would like to
believe that whatever you did in the past was not wrong and I would like
you to hold on to it. You and Dadi are both head strong - but I dont
know who is right and who is wrong. Personally I
dont think much if a woman who comes out of no where after 14 years and
demands to know about her grand children's life and wants to run them
the way she thinks is right. As most of us feel - she too we think lives
in a delusional world like Anjali where everything what she wants to
see is right. She does not care much about what you went through when
she left you in the hands of your Nani - but she does want to come and
take reign and control over your life now. For good or bad - let us see. Please be rest assured that today AGAIN you have given me a reason to love you and to understand you better.
The skeletons from the past will come out soon and I know it will break
you - I your ardent fan - hope that you along with your better half is
able to cross this fire that is approaching you. - some one who understands you
Coming to the episode ;
Loved the initial scenes of Arnav and Khushi. They were a delight to
watch! Khushi is scared and that shows and somehow I adore it. Also
love the way Arnav keeps coming in to make her nervous - it brings a big
smile on my face.
Mami I think could be the first person to know about Shyam. Looks like
that - but let us wait and watch. Sometimes I want to believe that Dadi
has already been manipulated by Shyam and that is why she believes Arnav
to be wrong. But I wont speculate and would like the creatives to
Shyam is coming in and his entry is going to be in a grand way and I fear that.
Dadi along with Anjali are gonna bring him back and Arnav will be
shattered. I do not want to imagine but why does it nag me that Arnav's
property is going to have a role in it. Maybe its me getting paranoid.
Barun Sobti You ROCKED IT!!!! You made me cry without sheding a single tear yourself - BRILLIANT
Swati Chitis : Fabulous! Quite a contender to Barun and you are Fab at your expressions too!
I shed tears for Arnav - seeing him standing alone and today's post is
completely dedicated to MY MAN - ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA - a man who has
grown up - but still has to come out of his shell of pasts when he was
14 year old. The young boy has to understand everything and fight this
time - and fight to save himself and his family.
Love and Light
PICS CREDIT : ~Saraa~ (the written updater of today's episode) :))
Edited by slanka - 10 August 2012 at 4:38pm