Bittersweet. Gentle. Painful. Joyful. Longing. Sublime.
are just some of the words that come to mind after today's episode with
regards to AarYa's love. I just can't seem to get over the emotions of
the last scene so you will have to forgive me, yet again if my take is
AarYa centred today, as it has been almost all week. We were all so
eagerly awaiting a beach sequence and when it came, I can't describe the
effect it has left on my heart and mind. I feel uplifted, warm and
hopeful, and yet at the same time I feel pain and longing. it was a
beautiful melange of emotions that this episode, and especially the last
scene left me with so I will get right to it.
From the first
scene, with the arm-wresting it becomes clear that Yash is trying to
avoid Aarti. Over the past few days, and I think especially in the
bangle scene, he has become aware that she draws him towards her without
his own knowledge, and since her vehement declaration of identity, it
has become impossible for him to connect this attraction with anything
Arpita-related. The truth of the matter is that he is attracted to
Aarti, he wants to be around her, he wants to play with and tease her,
and he wants to live in a world where she is happy because for some
reason, her being unhappy makes him deeply restless. She matters to him
and he has realised this, which is why I believe he was hiding in his
room with the children as his buffers, engaging them in a never ending
battle so that he wouldn't have to go downstairs to the breakfast table
and face all his feelings for Aarti. The poor children, naively become
their papa's shield, losing again and again, until their mother comes
herself to save them.
There was so much significance to this
scene, where for the first time, Yash is not able to meet Aarti's eyes.
He is pensive, quiet and most of all scared, which makes Aarti's
dialogues in jest to the kids all the more meaningful. Yash is indeed
scared to engage in this dangerous game he can finally see her playing.
The loss in this game is so unknown and so overwhelming to him that he
hesitates to compete, while he sees that Aarti does not fear loss
because in her loss is Yash's victory and Yashs victory is her own.
Aarti once again makes the unknown less overwhelming for Yash. And so he
loses because loss is less frightening for him than victory in this
case. They are going to the beach anyway, but this way he can be in
control, a feeling he is fast losing in this game of push and pull.
Something caught my eye just after the game and after the children left,
Yash looks at Aarti adoringly, as though he has appreciated the feeling
of loss the same way Aarti did the day they played dog in the bone.
Then, as though challenging him yet again, Aarti thanks him for letting
her win, for the children.
Her contradictions at every turn are
drawing Yash in and he can't fathom the depths of her so he gets away as
quickly as he can.
The song selection for the beach scene was
beautiful and instrumental in creating that trance like feeling of the
whole scene. Today Aarti was completely lost in her love of the
wonderful man before her and she let her emotions be her guide. There
was magic in the air and it spoke to the imprisoned magic in her heart,
which she finally unlocked and set free do to its work on the object of
her love. I loved watching her provoke Yash a little more every time he
came out of his shell one step, not by any conscious maneuver but just
by letting what was in her heart free. If he bought her bhutta, she
encouraged him to eat it. If he had tender coconut with her, she
silently pleaded with him to share one, and when they stood together
watching their children build sand castles, she pointed out the heart
that was drawn around them in the same sand. And at every step of the
way I saw a new Yash today, a Yash who was longing, not for Arpita but
Today showed me how Aarti and Arpita have really
switched places in his heart. Before, he longed to be exclusively with
Arpita, but his marriage with Aarti kept holding him back thanks to his
family, society, religion and the children's needs. Today when he
watched her eating the bhutta, I could see that he wanted to be with
Aarti, the laughing, joyful, beautiful Aarti but now it was Arpita who
was holding him back, and making his feelings for Aarti impossible and
forbidden. When he was with the children he was satisfied and happy, but
every time he looked at Aarti, a sadness overcame him, more so I think
because he started to realise that she wants it too, but he can't.
also found it very poetic that every time Yash tried to escape Aarti,
he went to the children and in particular to Ansh. He was drawn to
Aarti's child and not to Arpita's children because subconsciously, and
maybe even consciously by now, he wants to feel close to her but he is
forbidden by his promises and principles, so he goes towards the part of
her, the "ansh" that he is allowed full access to, both when he went to
them sitting the beach chairs, and when he went to help them build sand
castles. Today I saw a Yash that was overwhelmed by Aarti but could not
go any closer than he had already gone. He is holding himself away,
turning his back, and walking away, anything to stop himself expressing
the very feelings that Aarti's inviting, mirthful eyes draw out of him.
The push and pull has begun and it was beautiful!
love how their pasts were hinted to the viewers but we were given no
inkling of whether they remembered them. There is a picture of Yash and
Arpita sharing a tender coconut on the wall at the beach house. Today,
Aarti showed him with her eyes that she wanted the same thing. But Yash
turned his back because he is not ready to share that with her just yet,
though he wants to make sure she is still there, drinking her tender
coconut beside him. He didn't get angry at her suggestion, he was merely
surprised that she wanted it and then made it clear that he did not.
And then he collected her coconut for her. He wants her by his side, he
wants to share things with her and he will take responsibility for her,
but he is not ready to drink out of the same coconut just yet, like he
did with Arpita. Aarti on the other hand, is ready to let him into that
most intimate of places in her heart, where a similar visual of Prashant
resided and was treasured for so long. She is ready for the "umar bhar
ki qaid" which her confession will put her in, no matter Yash's
feelings. she wants to tell him that she is in this for real, forever.
I loved Paridhi's speech about artists and how people should respect
them for what they do! It was also nice to see a girl who could stand up
for herself and make that guy actually feel shameful. Girl power!
Now if only she wasn't a total hypocrite in her words/actions in relation to love.