ok here it is...I fell in love with this serial some 12 months ago when i saw this man, who reeked sophistication, wealth, good looks and arrogance. But it was those eyes that did the magic for me... the pain hidden in the depths of those soulful eyes had held the secret why i felt as i did about him...
and for some reason, mainly because of the way the tracks were messed up by the CVs i honestly felt the charm he had over me fading a little bit and i never said a word on the forum or anywhere..for i couldn't imagine the hold this amazing man had on me was ever possible to lessen...
but today i realized that it was indeed true! because i was getting a little detached..a little unimpressed!!
do u know why? because today after so many months i felt THE Arnav Singh Raizada i fell in love with all over again!!
the husky candor in that voice, as if he had unshed tears clogging his throat, choking every word he uttered, eyes darkened in torment that couldn't be put to word, as the past crowded around him..torturing him...
he was fighting to hold himself so still, so rigidly as if willing his mind to hold it all together because he was scared to move, lest his rigid control slipped, because he knew he would not be able to put the pieces back together if he let go and open the flood gates to the pain..
his expression as he looked unseeing in to the past..when khushi walked in and talked to him...saying words, seeking for comfort...he remained staunch, unmoving, rigid...and he fought to hold back the strength, and his will power.
then he walked to her and in that husky voice filled with pain, regret and torment he assured her in clear words that he had wronged her, and it was not her fault, it was never her fault and nor will it ever be... he spoke of the past, as if saying it objectively as he compared her situation to something else in the past...as he fought to keep his face, his expressions composed, not letting his emotions escape...as he tried to reassure her..
and that first scene where he walked towards his dadi, an inner battle was fought and the 16 year old Arnav won and he bowed down and took the blessings and went in to the warmth of the embrace, letting the past invade a bit..
and then the final scene...when he was compared to his father once again the torment...when the past memories were evoked the pain and torture was right there in his darkened eyes and face...and his fury he reigned in with such utter self control...murderous rage that flashed from those eyes...
it was almost tangible today...i actually forgot to breath while i watched in a horrified fascination at this man who was holding everything together in a thin line of control...
and when he walked towards his wife, taking his place beside her and declared that a place where his wife was not allowed access was no longer a place where he thinks he should be either...and he said it with such conviction...
and when his dadi refused to oblige, the slight insolence as the situation permitted...
it was a magical episode and it was all about Arnav Singh Raizada today!!
it was all him...he touched me today as he had not done for a long time...and Barun Sobti...u were beyond appreciation!! how can i find enough words to write appreciation for u?
how can i do justice to an actor who lived every one of those moments, every second of it and made me live through it too?
take a bow barun! it was ur episode today!! i couldn't take my eyes off u for even one second u were present in the screen today!!
and that is why i say IPK is back for me..cz i watched this show for him for the first few months! and after months and months i watched another IPKKND episode just for him!
just wow wow wow!!!
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