OMG this is really so mysterious...
how did he die?
and why was he like that in those days?
poor Devaki...
and Kashi's mom wanted to name Kashi Devaki...
and her bro saw her aunt ghost...
and Kashi couldnt?
cont soon dear...
Once upon a happier time, when life wasn't all about how smooth your legs look, or how bad your haircut makes you look, a girl and her best friend were swinging in the park, making promises about how they'd never leave each other. The next day, this particular girl and her best friend met again. And again. The girl's best friend's parents never had time for her. Business trips. Pleasure trips. Unwinding trips. You get the idea. Her best friend, however, never hated them. She understood that they never had time for her, and loved them despite it. Everything was absolutely perfect. The girls were popular, straight A students. Nothing to worry about.
Then one day, two years later, the girl's best friend stopped answering her phone calls. Stopped hanging out with her. "Do you want to come and play?" "Nope. Too much pending work" "Do you wanna come over to my place?" "No. I have to go somewhere". The best friend was fast becoming a recluse. Her grades fell sharply. Her friends turned back on her. Everything was spiralling downwards. Way downwards.
One of them, however, stayed. The one who had promised to steal her Jijaji's shoes on her wedding. She called at the best friend's place every day. She'd go to their place. Try to catch her alone in school. Heck! She even tried calling her parents, even thought she knew that the gardener knew more about their daughter than they did. "Nothing to worry about beta, she's just growing up" they laughed.
After six months of constant rebuffs from the best friend's home, parents and the best friend herself, the girl gave up trying. Maybe she doesn't want to be friends any more. It was a possibility, yes. A painful one, but a possibility.
A few months later, the girl and her best friend ran into each other. Pure chance.
Awkward silence, shy hello's, a cup of frozen yoghurt maybe?
There was something odd about the best friend now. Her eyes. They had lost their spark. The champagne like laughter, golden and bubbly. Gone. Never to return. The luminous smile was now a ghost of its past glory. It was dark, that smile. Dark. Sinister.
The girls talked for an hour or so. The weather. Their families. How they had promised to steal Jijaji's shoes. They talked. They jested. They laughed. But they never touched on the most important thing of all.
What the best friend had been doing all this time?
They walked off in different directions, promising to keep in touch. Promises they never kept. A few days later, the girl received a phone call, five in the morning. Apparently, the best friend had overdosed. She was dead. The girl stared at her phone, unable to believe. OD? Her best friend? How? Hadn't she, just a few days back, promised to call? The girl walked over to the best friend's house, and saw her friend lie on the floor, the corners of her mouth foaming. Opium, the doctors ruled. Overdose of opium. The girl watched blankly as they burnt the funeral pyre. It hit her, as the black smoke went spiralling towards the clear blue sky. Jijaji's shoes won't get stolen after all.
The girl, who had promised to never leave the best friend's side? Who had broken every promise she had made to her? That was me.
I could have done so much. Had my irrational fear of looking like an idiot not come into play. I could have talked to the teachers. I could have tried harder to talk to her. But I hadn't. Because, the possibility, that she may not want to talk to me, was also there. Scary, yes. But it was a possibility.
I never asked what she had been doing all this while. Was it fear of the unknown? Or was it fear of the known? I don't know.
I have only one thing to say, in my defence. To quote the school councillor (who talked to me, after my parents were alarmed by the number of times I just wasn't hungry) "I was only human. And I had tried my best" That was my defence against the guilt. I was only human.
And it was the most pathetic defence I had.
I still wonder what happened, to make her turn to opium. What had happened, that my best friend was lying on the cold, marble floor, with foam sticking to the corner of her mouth. What was so great, that she shut me off so completely.
You know, when we both had absolutely nothing to do, she'd belt out Shakira's Hips don't lie; and I'd dance. We'd collapse on the bed, in a fit of giggles, after I wound provocatively raise an eyebrow, and blow kisses at her. We were perfect together. That's what everyone said, when they caught us in this rare moment.
Old, bitter memories, Devi. You bought them back.
-V
PS- I'm sorry, If I ruined your space with my story. It just rose in me, like vomit; after trying to supress the guilt for a long time. I guess it came out.
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