i ws walking down the streets of venice wid my umbrella in hand.it ws a rainy evening n evry1 ws moving fast 2 reach thr homes bt i ws in no hurry.i wnted smtym alone n i ws watching the formation ov bubbles n ripples ov water on the ground.my life had been similar 2 tat rain in wich many events n ppl pass like bubbles n went away while some still remained as ripples..
he ws my 1st evr love.wenevr i thnk ov him,a misty smile forms on my face..ppl say love hurts bt i feel true love never does...
it ws a similar rainy evening wen i ws 6..i ws playing in my garden wen a large truck stopped outside our adjacent house..he came 2 live thr wid his family.he ws 7.5 yrs old then..we became frnds n then more than frnds..
he taught me hw 2 ride a bicycle,hw 2 climb a tree,hw 2 make cars 4m door magnets n many other thngs..then he became a member ov our family n slowly a part ov my world.we used 2 watch every new movie 2gethr,we played video games,we did mischieves n we played cricket,football,basketball,hide-n-seek wid other neighbouring guys 2gethr..i ws the only grl in their grp n i had started 2 feel like a boy by nw..i liked fighting games,want tough thngs n all..i even wore jeans tees...
tym ws running fast n we were entering 4m childhood 2 our teenage..as i ws growing,i ws feeling em nt like all ov them.my body,my evrythng ws changng..mom ws becoming demanding..she wanted me 2 do house chores n all..i ws developing feelings 4 him side by side cx ov the realization tat i em nt like him n i cant b him n he z wot i wanna b!!
nw i enjoyed his touch..he ws gettng aggressive day by day wich nw i realize ws due 2 puberty changes..he ws growing more n more muscular n handsome..i ws fragile n smooth...bt i lacked the beauty othr grls had!!
then 1 day we met alone in the aftrnoon n he told me he z gng away..4evr...his parents got posted smwhr n they had 2 leave 2moro..we cried in each other s arms 4 a long tym..he told me we cant b 2gethr n tat i shud stop thnkng ov feeling 4 him...i ws amazed hw did he realize my feelings wich i never even expressed 2 him??
then i gav him my fav pen n told him 2 keep it wid him 4ever..n he kept it in his pocket..he had nothng 2 giv me so he gav me his autograph wid tat pen on a piece ov paper wich i still hav wid me..he wrote my name n his n wrote 4ever urs in a heart in it!!
we were 16 then..
4m tat day i always c his autograph before gng 2 sleep..he z my inspiration.i do everythng thnkng ov him..wenevr i feel weak or thngs r nt gng my way,i thnk ov him n em dng evrythng 4 him..the mere thot ov him gives me strength...
i always heard love ruins u n love hurts n thngs like tat tat makes me wander wot ws between us??
we never confessed,nor made any promises or had any hopes or anythng!!bt we had a trust n a faith in each othr..ws it really love??
i knw i ll never meet or c him ever again n even if i do, i wont b able 2 b his or he wont b ever mine bt still he gives me power n strength 2 fight all odds n 2 b myself!!!
ok guys!so hw ws tat??i hope u like it!!
all ur cmnts,likes,criticism z welcome!!em sorry if it wsnt upto the mark bt i felt like writing it so i did!!