next day, it was friday:
around 4pm ,kunal came to office direct from the court room. he was looking very much disappointed and upset too.
ritcha:' what was your case today?...' she asked looking at his disturbed mind condition. kunal:' Kartik.IAS,...divorce case...' he went and fall in his seat with feeble energy. ritcha:'oh!...' she knew about that case. for the past few months it was the hot topic of the town! kunal:'argh! 10 years before this man fall in love with his auto driver wife Keerti. now , after 10 long years... he want to divorce Keerti whom he said to be loved and married...' richa:' tch!...' kunal:' ...you know what? ...when Kartik married Keerti, he was in poverty, living in a chawl...hardly two meals par day , couldn't do his studies after his +2 .after marriage his wife, auto driver Keerti, educated him by driving auto day & night and doing more than one part time job to pay his fees...' ritcha:' how sweet of her na?......' kunal:' exactly...now he is Kartik.IAS,! don't want to have an auto driver as his wife...she is disgrace for his status ...' ritcha:'he used her as a ladder to climb.he no longer needs her...' kunal:' disgusting... heartless man... '
ritcha:' what about their son?...'
kunal:' obviously ...he will be under the custody of kartik.IAS,....'
ritcha:' i feel sorry for Keerti......' kunal:' i fought for her divorce settlement. that stupid lady denied it...she even refused to take alimony from him...and walked out of the court penniless with tears...' while he was discussing about his case he found that siddhi was not in her seat. 'where is she? i think she went home early today...' with that thought he kept the Kartik case file in his drawer and locked it. kunal:' ritchu...i am tired...want to go home...' he said while packing up his bag. ritcha:' me too want to go...i am waiting for siddhi...' kunal:' waiting for siddhi !...'
ritcha:' i send her to the record room to bring an old case file...'
kunal:' which record room?...' he asked casually.
ritcha:' the one in the old building...'
kunal:' whattt!...you send her to that dark dungeon!' instantly her phobia for dark stuck his mind...he freaked out. ritcha:' haan tho!...' kunal was not there to listen to her. he grabbed his pen torch from his drawer, without even caring to close the drawer he rushed out...almost ran. ritcha:' what is wrong with him?...' she asked herself looking at him running. ' goddd! hope she is fine...i wish she is fine ... 'he repeatedly said to himself.while running in the hall way towards the record room he called his favorite god for a short and quick prayer ,the very long hall way was completely haunted! look at the hall way to the records room...
while running in the hall way more than once he bumped on the uneven , old flooring ...knocked down on a sharp corner and bruised his knee. he got up neglecting his pain and ran randomly calling siddhi. he felt as if the hall way is never ending...by the time he reached the record room he drenched in sweat and was panting.
look at the record room! kunal: ' siddhiii...' he pushed the door in haste and the door slowly opened with the screeching sound! quickly he barged inside the room.the room was in pitch dark filled with dust and spider webs...it was stinking and spooky!..he couldn't see the things properly...in hurry he tried to switch on the pen torch...it doesn't turn on! he tried repeatedly ...for his bad luck it was not working ! kunal:'dammit!...' he threw the torch. kunal:' sidddiii...kahan ho tum?...' he rubbed his eyes and tried to look through the dark.his eyes took few minutes to get used with the darkness. he moved his hands in front of his face to remove the dust and the webs which made him sneeze and cough.
countless files were bundled and kept randomly on the tables and shelves...cluster of files were scattered on the floor without taking care.the olden days discarded wooden table chairs were lying here and there.it was a very old record room where the records of more than 20 years were kept.
kunal:' siddhii...'he stamped on the records and walked in. the old papers crushed under his feet like dried leaves...he looked around and he could not find her. kunal:' siddhiii...'he screamed.he did dot get any reply...there was no sign of siddhi in that room...heavy silence prevailed!...which made him nervous and tensed. kunal:' siddhii...' he kicked the files on his way and moved on...after a long search and struggle,at the very end ...he was shocked to find siddhi fallen on the floor as a lifeless shrimp , in one corner of a huge wooden file rack, in the middle of old files! kunal:' siddhiii...' he ran to her and abruptly fall on his knees hurting himself.
kunal:' siddhi...' he quickly gathered her and placed her on his lap.she was lying motionless and her body was flexible...it came along with him.
siddhi: kunal:' siddhi...siddhi...' he stoke her cheek. siddhi:...she was lifeless. kunal:' siddhi aankhe kholooo...'he continuously pat on her cheek. siddhi: kunal:' tum akele nahi ho...i am here...with you...'he caresses her cheeks. siddhi:. kunal:' tumai kuch nahi hua ...tum teek ho...look at me...open your eyes...' each syllable thrummed behind his ribs. siddhi: kunal:'please siddhi hosh mai awo...' he took her hands in his hands and realised that her hands were chill. he immediately checked her pulse and found it feeble. siddhi: kunal:'omg!...siddhi tumai kya hua?...utto na siddhi...' his stomach crawl.a tiny shiver slithered down his spine looking at her motionless.in hurry he rubbed her palm with his.it doesn't work out.he tried continuously... siddhi: kunal:' siddhi...' he was at the verge of cry.his eyes brimmed with tears.with his vibrating fingers he moved her disturbed hair from her face and tucked them behind her ear. siddhi: kunal:'god!...siddhi...utto...utto.....siddhiii ...please...' he burst out with cry which he never did in his life.tears trickled down from his eyes on his cheek... siddhi: kunal: 'kuch bolo na siddhi......' words explode from his chest. he shed down his attitude... his adamant vanished looking at her deadly condition...he forgot that he is ' THE kunal chopda...'..all ' ifs' & ' buts ' dis appeared from him...his aching heart dominated his mind... siddhi: kunal:' siddhi...' he saw nothing but her face... other than ' siddhi' nothing was in his mind...he scooped her up , wrapped her in to his warm arms and held her tightly to his chest...caressed her head...lowered his gaze and looked her face!... involuntarily took her face in his both the palms...leaned towards her... and tenderly pressed his lips on her fore head...kissed her!...
his warm breath on her face and fist kiss on her fore head accelerated the ideal energy of her and ignited life in her...as a result he felt a quick twitch in her...her whole body tingled as sudden...she shrunk her face.
kunal:' siddhi...siddhi...' he caressed her cheek. siddhi:' ...' she slowly opened her eyes and stared at him...it was like a miracle for him! his face lit up . kunal:' siddhiii...' he held her with his chest again. siddhi:...'she could not understand what happened and what is going on.
kunal:' tum teek tho ho na?...' he asked her wiping his cheek and controlling his strong desire to kiss her again and again.
siddhi:...she nodded her head in affirmations...tried to get up and slid back on his lap. kunal:'...' with a relieved smile he gathered her in his arms , got up from the floor and came out of the record room kicking the files. while he was walking in the hall way carrying siddhi in his arms ritcha came in search of them and shocked to see the scene of siddhi in kunal's arms! ritcha:'kunuuu!...' kunal:' ritchu... please call the first aid...'his tension and stress was yet to drain down. ritcha:' sure...' she quickly key in the numbers in her black berry.
by the time kunal and ritcha reached their office with siddhi the first aid Dr was awaiting for them.
ritcha:' kunu...leave her down...let her walk...' she said walking along with him. kunal:...' he neither replied her nor stopped walking. his ruthless behavior irritated her. ritcha:' come on kunu...wo behosh hue thi...mari nahi hai...' she let out her irritation harshly. kunal:' shut uppp!......' he yelled. ritcha:' ...'first time seeing him being so rude and angry to her.
same day evening around 6pm:
kunal was getting ready for his shower. he took a clean white turkey towel from the wooden cupboard and undone his shirt buttons to put it in the laundry basket. while removing the shirt he noticed a small read dot shining near her chest...he took it out and looked at with doubt.it was siddhi's bindi! instantly it flash backed the scene he was holding siddhi close to his chest...and his kiss on her for head!
' i kissed her!...how could i do that?...how come i lose my self control?' he could not believe himself... but her bindi in his hand witnessed him.he was surprised the way siddhi reacted when he kissed her and realized that they were meant to be together.. he looked around to keep that witness in a safe place...' where should i keep such a small thing?' he thought for a while and soon found the place for it.he went to his study table , opened his diary and stuck it on 6th Aug 2012 page , the day of his first kiss to siddhi!
while closing the diary he shut his brain too.i have always thought through my mind not by my heart. whatever my heart was trying to tell me, i ignored and went with the mind considering that the heart is not a thinking organ.
' what was i searching for? what was i waiting for?what did i need? what do i wish? what is my desire?' for all his questions one word answer came from his heart is ' siddhi '
' should i follow my heart or mind? should i think with my mind or my heart...?' finally his feelings and emotions over ruled pushing his mind to take a back seat. thus his heart ruled over his mind. ' it's time for my mind to take a break, and my heart to step in and make the decisions.
' enough is enough...i have to open up now...i should speak to siddhi...otherwise i may lose her for ever...'wholeheartedly he decided completely neglecting his mind.
' as today is friday i have to wait two whole days to confuses my feelings to siddhi...' he restlessly waited for monday , counting down every second.those two days he lived in a fantasy world.enjoyed every moment of being in love.he realized how beautiful the feeling of being in love.he behaved as crazy as a teen.
it was sunday everything:
to share his excitement and happiness kunal thought of taking out the whole chopda family for the dinner.he came out of his room with hyper active to make the announcement for dinner.for his surprise he saw anand and raveena were in their best dress getting ready to go out.raveena was in extra make up and jewelry too.
kunal:' tum log kisi party mai ja rahe ho kya?' anand:' party nahi bhaiya... function...' he said with excitement. kunal:' function? ...' raveena:' haan...siddhi ka engagement function...' kunal:' what?!...' he clinched his jaws to keep him under control. ' nahi...not possible...' he was damn sure.it should a prank for him.
kunal: ' which siddhi...' he asked 100% hopping that they are saying about some other siddhi.
raveena:' kya bhaiya...we know only one siddhi...that is siddhi malik ...' she said casually taking care of her lipstick. kunal: ...'he was thunder stuck.his stomach quaked at the mere thought of siddhi is going to engage with some one else. anand: ' i think she did not invite kunal bhaiya...' raveena:' hamai tho invite kiya haina...let us go. we are getting late...' they both went out leaving behind distressed kunal. kunal: ...he stood still staring at them. felt world stop moving! ...ground beneath his feet was missing...and he was descending down towards the center of the earth!... leaving him to plummet into a free fall of turmoil...no gravitational force was on him!
he gathered his energy , stepped backward to his room on wobbling legs and fall flat on the bed like a lifeless uprooted plant.
' for sure she is getting engaged with that rohit...when the trump card was with me i was least bothered about it.i lost my trump card and it was with rohit now. it is not his fault. he knew the value of it and he used it in a right time but i don't. when i came to know i was late...'he felt dejected and depredated.felt as if he lost his best chance in his life.agony and anger rode him. ' i was the one who said that i never felt bad about her relationship with rohit ... then why should i regret now?...' he experienced a constant pain in his heart and it swelled with pain...felt it may explode through his chest at any time...that night he barely slept.
next day morning when he woke up his head pounded with pain. his eyes swelled and became red because of his distress and sleepless night.he hold his head and sat on the bed till seema came in with hot cup of tea.
seema:' kunal bhaiya...aap teek tho hai?...' she asked looking at his red eyes and black circles beneath his eyes. kunal:' i have a slight head ach...' he said thinking that if he say i am fine she is not going to believe him. seema:' davaye dun?...' she asked him with concern. kunal:' nahi...i will take it after shower...' he got down from the bed and went to take a shower.while he came out of wash room wiping his head anand and raveena were sitting in the hall , having tea and talking about siddhi's engagement. anand:' omg i can't believe it...how come siddhi agree to marry that taklu!!!...' he exclaimed. kunal:...' he was shaken...his heart gave one violent shudder...then it shattered in to tiny pieces! ' that means she is not marrying rohit!... ' that thought was more horrifying than siddhi marrying rohit. raveena:' i know...eww...he is wearing wig...but he is not that old ...' anand:' he is not qualified either...the way he talks and behaves...eww... obviously he is illiterate...' kunal:
raveena:' one thing is for sure...some where some thing is wrong...' she concluded.
kunal can not hear them further. he rushed to his room and sat on his bed.
kunal: ...'he was dumbstruck.breathing in and out had suddenly became excruciatingly painful.shock waves of anguish and disillusion expanded from his gut, threatened to burst his arteries and his heart.
again tears stream down from his eyes to let out his emotions.
'issa kyun kiya tum ne?...you should not have done like this.it is unfair......it is all because of me...my attitude...my adamant and stubborness...'felt cut off blood supply to all his vitals.something scalding splashed through his system.there was nothing more inside him to be ripped apart. a sharp pain shoot up from his stomach and stuck in to his throat. kunal:...siddhi was right...the day has come...his attitude knelt down and he cried for her.
my next update will be kunal's confession...how ? when ? where?...how siddhi is going to react? is he not too late as siddhi is already engaged? how he is going to handle it?...will he take rohit's help?... to know all these ...read my next update Note: please hit the button if u like it.