The whole of Sharma niwas was decorated like a
bride with lots of lights and flowers covering the house, and it had to be after all it was the marriage of
indira Sharma, the only daughter of Mrs. and Mr. Sharma and the only sister of
munna and vidit Sharma, youngest of all
siblings she was the apple of everyone's eyes and soon she was getting married
to a rich and handsome guy who was amongst the most eligible bachelors of
Delhi, so everything ought to be perfect………… a perfect dream wedding that is
every girls dream and everyone was happy thinking that luck has showered all
blessings on indira giving her a perfect match.
Everyone
was happy for the to be bride, but the bride oblivious of all happiness sat
quietly on the terrace staring at the moon.
"Everyone is
happy for me, but not me! Whatever is happening is my will, it all had my
consent but then why I'm not happy? Why his thoughts are disturbing me? Why I'm
thinking about him over and over again? Why? It seems all this will turn me
insane"
"What are
you doing indira? Tomorrow is your marriage, you are going to be somebody's
wife tomorrow and you are still thinking of him! You can't indira! He never
loved you and you know that and it has been ages since he talked to you then
why, why this foolishness indira? It was just a mere liking of school days, an
infatuation that's it. Get over it now indira it's high time" said her brain
"I wish it
was an infatuation but I know it's not, I loved him, loved him with all
sincerity from the deepest core of my heart and will love him forever" replied
her heart
"but he
never loved you! He never even knew of your feelings! Then why this insane
behavior indira?" asked her brain
"I know he
never loved me and I didn't expect him to but I just wished if he could ever
love me, just wished" said her aching heart
Suddenly
her eyes were filled with tears which rushed down with all intensity and she
cried loud" why? Why I loved you? I wish I haven't but I do, and though I tried
hard I couldn't forget you, you know it's insane but I still wish………….I wish if
you can come back to me and make yours forever, I'm still waiting……………….. plz,
plz come back for me"
This was not the first time
that she was sad, she remembered him on every little thing, but today it was
different; for her this was the last time she was remembering him, remembering
him with full authority and without any guilt, but from tomorrow everything
will change, she can no longer think of him, even if she wished to!
"No indira
he will never come, accept the fact and forget him! Tomorrow is your marriage
and see everyone is so happy, if not for yourself but at least for the sake of
your family you have to forget him" said her brain
"I know I
have to, I don't have any other choice, but I wished , only wished if I could
have one( she sighed, a heart wrenching sigh), but now I will be strong, I
won't let him affect me anymore, some wishes are never meant to be fulfilled,
to ask for them is like asking for moon and I promise this wish of mine will
now never come out, it will always be buried deep in my heart……….forever
buried………………….I promise" thinking this she wiped her tears and got up with a
firm resolve
"indira………..indira
beta what are you doing here I've been looking for you in the entire house"
said kutumb a she came near indira " indira………..beta what Is this, you are
crying?" asked kutumb concerned and worried at the same time
"N…..nothing
ma, I'm not crying! It's just lyk that" said indira trying to find some excuse
"Whom are
you trying to fool indira? I'm your mother beta, is there something that is
worrying you, tell me what is the problem, I'm getting worried now" asked kutumb
"Nothing
ma………….i said it's just like that" said indira trying to assure kutumb but she
was not able to meet her eyes with kutumb scared that kutumb might figure out
her pain
"I know
something is worrying you indira, I'm noticing that you are sad since the
wedding arrangements have started, are you happy with this marriage indira? Is
there any other guy whom you want to marry beta? If it is so then tell us, I
will not hesitate to call off the wedding even on last minute if you are not
happy and mark my words" said kutumb
"No, no ma
nothing of that sort, i…I'm vry happy ma, plz don't think lyk that. It's just that
I don't want to leave you all; and after my marriage I have to leave you all"
replied indira trying to calm kutumb's doubts "I wish I could tell you ma, but
it's futile, he does not love me and he is far away, very far that even if I wish
I cannot reach him" (she thought in her mind)
"are my
baby" said kutumb lovingly and taking indira in her arms " are beta we will be
in the same town and who says that you have to leave us, it will always remain
your house and we are always there for you, it's just that you will have more
relations to look after and this happens with every girl. Now don't worry and
come to your room and take some rest, after some time your mehendi ceremony is
going to start and then you won't get time for rest. Now come with me" and she
takes indira along with her to her room
While
following kutumb to her room, one last time indira looks up at the sky at the moon and a silent request comes out
from her heart "I'm still waiting, but I don't have much time………….plz come
back…..plz, if you love me!...come back RICKY! I love u………..plz
come" and then suddenly a sarcastic smile forms on her lips as if mocking
herself "if………………if he loves me! If he ever loved me!" and then she goes inside.
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