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 A THING CALLED LOVE

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LOCATION:

Sydney Suburbs

A five story run down motel

Name: DAISY INN

Fourth floor

TIME:

It has been 3 hours, 15 minutes, 45 second since Khushi left Arnav

A neon blue car.

The specs of Fluorescent Street light shining on the newly polished hood.

Silver Rims, that are five thousand dollar a piece, are gracing and mocking the humble Side Street

This specific car is Very uncommon to be seen in this part of the neighborhood.

Inside seats a lonely soul.

A Dead, Silenced:  human.

Eyes fixed in the window of the fourth floor, to the right corner.

It's the 5^th window from the opposite side.

With each tiny movement of the blue, dirty, worn out floral drapes, the lonely soul shakes up.

His view is still

His intentions focused

Another 64 minutes passes

A small window

Blue floral, dirty drapes, flutter slightly with the breeze coming from the south.

Inside there is a shadow

Cause of the shadow is a vision in off white

The shadow Shivers and shudders with each tiny sob

Soft moans and bellows are the only living existence in the fourth floor to the right corner.

It's the 5^th window from the opposite side.

Inside stands a lonely soul.

Observing each tiny movement of the bright blue, clean, car, the shadow behind the window responds.

Another lonely, sad, depressed soul shakes up.

Her view is still

Her intentions focused

ARNAV

Stays fixed to the view of the window from his car

KHUSHI

Stays fixed to the view of the car from her window

Her body is hid from the plain sight by the wall.

She can peek outside, without being noticed.

Almost, 2 hour, 30 minute, 55 seconds back she heard a loud screech is new tire outside of her run down motel.

Then she heard people whisper in the other room and hallway.

Some men saying, praising the glorified object parked in the front parking lot, opposing to her window.

There were a few men discussing the speed, range, velocity, horse power, acceleration, traction and details MPH, tork, she has never heard of.

Hearing the price of it, she got even more annoyed.

But nothing could pause her from her silent cries and shooting pain .

Her eyes are dimmed, lifeless.

Dark circles circulates the pretty, dark, brown, wet eyes.

A deep deep wound has cut her soul.

Her ragged spirit has been tortured enough, pushed so hard , that its in the verge of a meltdown.

For the last 6-8 months, mistaken feelings, emotions, sorrow, tears:  has become a thing of her regular livelihood.

I HATE HIM

I HATE HIM WITH MY WHOLE HEART

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING MY LIFE A LIVING HELL

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME LOOK LIKE A LUSTFUL RUN AWAY WH***

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING MY FAMILY HATE ME

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME LOOK LIKE A LOVE CRAZY IDIOT,

RUNING MY SISTER'S WEDDING DAY

I HATE HIM FOR TRASHING MY REPUTATION FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING MY PAST A NIGHTMARE

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING MY FUTURE AN UNKNOWN TORTURE

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME FALL

FALL SO HARD, THAT I CAN NEVER, NEVER STAND UP

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME FALL FOR HIM

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME HATE HIM

I HATE HIM FOR MAKING ME LOVE HIM THAN MY OWN LIFE

OH GOD !!!!

WHY OH WHY!!!!!

WHY CANT I JUST HATE HIM?

WHY ISNT MY HATRED ENOUGH TO WIPE THAT STUPID LOVE AWAY FOR HIM?

HE IS A lustful womanizer

HE IS a liar

HE IS a betrayer

HE IS an idiot, a stupid, dumb, fool

A DEVILISHLY HANDSOME TORMENT.

No matter what I do , say or act, I cant forget him for a single second.

He has become my obsession, my prayers.

A thief

A lunatic egocentric maniac

A moron

A boastful creation that GOD will also detest

AND I HATE HIM

I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM

( 25 more minutes and 1 whole tissue box later)

Umm'poor thing

He is still seating in the car:   for such a long time'is he ok?

Is he feeling ok?

Arnav ji!

I never wanted this day to come; I never wanted to hurt you.

You are my whole world.

I love you with all I have

I would have stayed back, forgiven every tiny thing you did,

I would have forgiven every heart break that you caused.

Only if you asked me to stay : once.

But you didn't.

As the days started to come to the end,

As the countdown was nearing to completion of 6 months,

I could feel and be sure that you would forget and forgive everything and just say it out loud.

I could see something in your eyes.

But I guess I was wrong.

You did not a say word.

You left.

I used to open my eyes each morning, hoping to see a single ray of acceptance from you.

I longed for a single gesture of reception.

I love you.

I have loved you the day I have seen you in the ramp in Lucknow.

I never felt such a pull for a man before, the way I feel for you.

I hated seeing you to be rude and negative.

But at the same time, I used to feel an intolerable, unexplainable attraction towards you

Every arrogant, rude, humiliating act that you performed with me the more I used to get drawn to you.

Every time you made me cry, my craziness, my love, my insanity multiplied exponentially

For some reason you could never push me to the edge where I will snap and start hating you

I loved you with all I had.

BUT

Why wasn't my LOVE enough for you?

Why did you leave me before completion of the six months?

Was I that much intolerable?

Was I that bad?

Last night when I held you in my arms, when you were fast asleep,

You will never believe how happy, how elated, how ecstatic I was!

I could have taken my saree out from your grip. But I didn't.

I loved that you cared so much.

I was surprised, confused, but I was happy.

I was over whelmed that you were so happy to see me.

Arnav ji!

I lied about last night.

Something did happen.

For me it was life altering.

The best night of my existence.

I touched you.

Rather you touched me.

The pull of your hand was awfully strong.

You pulled my pallu, it flew off and it made me trip.

I fell directly on you.

You pinned my body down in your iron grip, slammed me onto your naked chest.

Fixated me on yourself.

And I melted.

I melted in your warmth.

I was in your arms the whole night.

You closed your eyes as soon as you whispered "Khushi Stay"

I watched you drift into a soothing slumber.

You slept in these two arms, all night.

I traced along you

I caressed your hair

For the very first time, I touched you, the way I wanted to do, forever.

I felt your presence in me, on me, around me.

My whole being, my purpose of being a girl wrapped around you.

The swell of you arms, the ridges of your chest, the bruises of your forehead all belonged to me, only for last night

I touched your beating heart

And it was enough to make me WHOLE, for a lifetime

I HAVE never seen someone to be so tempting, something so delicately tender, so devilishly attractive.

I was up the entire night, listening to your sounds, looking at you, devouring your perfection.

Looking at your

I did not pull back, nor did I go away.

I could have slipped away. But I stayed.

My body belonged to you.

My existence was in your control.

I was yours, wrapped in your arms.

It was the boldest thing I ever did.

I had no control on myself.

Your skin, your warmth, your heart pulled me close with each breathe.

GOD knows how many times I have fantasized how your lips will be on me

How I will react when you pull me close in your arms.

How I will react when you held me lovingly.

So Arnav Ji! I had to take it.

I had to.

I was selfish.

AND NOW, I can survive the rest of my life with it.

I need no other man, no other soul, no other love.

I will be yours forever.

CAUSE I HAVE BEEN TOUCHED, TOUCHED BY YOU.

Touched by your heart, your soul

and it was pure.

Arnav Ji!

I came here to tell you how I felt.

There wasn't any other reason.

I just wanted to make sure, you knew.

I signed, because it was a deal and it ended what you started.

The fakeness

The mistakes

The  pretenses

The drama.

I just couldn't bear it anymore.

My love is true and unadulterated.

So you had to know it, when I am no longer your counterfeit, pretending wife.

I would have told you and then left.

Cause I will love you. Even if you do not accept me.

BUT

You left me and you came here.

You were in arms of lavanya ji

Even you made it public that you two are getting married.

So I had to come.

I had to see you one last time, I had to say what's mine.

Even for a second.

I COULDNT BEAR SEEING YOU IN ARM OF ANOTHER WOMEN.

I came to Australia to tell you that I LOVE YOU.

I would have told you this morning, when you woke up.

I came and heard of your accident.

Do you know how tensed I was hearing that?

I forced NK bhai to go and see you.

Even I stayed in front of the hospital for hours. But they did not let me in.

One of the media people recognized me and was asking questions.

I made up excuses and said I am not who they think I am.

I made NK bhai try to give you the address, so you become curious and come to meet me, without the media interrupting and without lavanya ji.

I had to come Arnav ji!

Even for a second, I had to hold you in my arms without being judged, without being questioned.

I had to taste you, your breath.

For my own survival.

I had to tell you directly looking at you, that I LOVE YOU and I AM TRUE.

Oho i Dont think one can even imagine that much of pain  they had undergone...