Chapter_08
Tears rolled down from hr eyes on hr soft cheeks,hr nose was pink nd hr face was pale orange like hr dress,she was sobbing,dont no why,what is happening to me?Why i m behaving so?Why?Why its hurting me to know that kesar was involved in that natasha.It means vasnt was right.But why i still dont want to accept this fact,even when the proof is in my hand she thought,she wanted to be blind before seeing this pic,Why m feeling so helpless,why its realy unbeleivable?Even when i knew the fact already,Wht difrence it makes,I already hd information abt his character,only confirmation i wanted,so whn it has conformd tht he is such a bastd..,so why my heart is refusing me to agree...She thought.
She spent hr whole night to find out the answers of these questions nd gazng the pics nd letters.
Next morning,her thoughts was interuptd by the nurse,who hv came to do hr check up,she told hr tht hr wound hv heald nd vry soon the plasture wil b removd.Whn she left,gulaal fresh n up hr self.Aftr brkfast she scaned natasha's picture,nd searchd on hr laptop,nd found hr as an ITEM GIRL(Dancer).She came to k9 that she hv workd in 3 movies wd kesar.Bt now whr is she?Dont know,accordng to the rumors may b she hv dead,or had attemptd suicied.She lost in her deep thoughts,coz the last movie she hv workd in, was with kesar.She only hv performd in a single song in tht movie,bt she used to join kesar daily on the sets.She detrmind hrself to ask abt hr from kesar.Bt She decided not to tell anything vasant without any confrmation.She went online nd found 8 mails from kesar,she got confusd 2 saw them, coz in evry mail he have askd hr abt hr health whch was showing his concern,hz sweet nd careing behviour for hr he hav maild abt to tk ur bfast,lunch nd diner on time.Abt tkng hr medicine regularly,abt not to walk nd roam in the house alot,abt sleep on time nd he also hv given hr complt detail abt how hz shootng is gng on,how bzy his days r gng,whch shows tht how much importnce he was gvng hr.vasant came online.
V:hello dear!
G:hi vasy,hru?
V:m gud meri jan.Bs yar bht mis kr rha hun tumhe,24ghante tumhare sath rehne ki adat jo hogae hai.
G:acha?Ru sure 24ghante?She smirk!
V:mm...Ok 18ghante,lekin is mein mera koi fault nahi hai,mein to kehta tha na tumhain,tum khud hi raat mein mujhe apne rum se nikal daiti thi...,
G:i ddnt say tumhara koi fault hai.Evn m also msng u alot.Mein kb se tumhara w8 kr rhi thi,itni dair mein online aye.
V:yar tumhare jane k baad sara burden mujh pe par gaya hai,bri mushkil se time mila,wel,kuch pta chala?Koi proof mila?
G:nahi vasy,abi to kuch nahi,lekin umeed hai k bht jald humara kam hojayega,u dnt wory,i hv promisd na,to pura bhi krungi,nd dnt wory,vry soon i'll cme back to u.Bs kuch din or,
V:oh janu,i cant tel u kitna akela hogaya hun yahan,sara kam mujhe akele krna par rha hai,
G:smild,oh to janab se akele kam smbhala nahe ja rha,to q akele kr rhe ho,mm...y dnt u keep any asistant manager,in my replacement,4a month?
V:sach kaho janeman,rakhlun?Tumhari replacement mein,he smirk,tumhare sare kam phir wo hi kregi?He raisd his eyebrows for teasng hr,
G:pupy face,nahe mera ye matlb nahi tha.
Vsy laughd,stupid grl,tumhari jaga kbi koi nahi lay skta na sirf mere dil mein even office mein b tumhare jaisi journalist kbi nahi askti.Acha ye btao kesar rai k dil mein kitni jaga bnai madam ne?
G:wo,pta nahi.
V distrbd:q usne wahan jane k bad tumse contct nahi kia?
G:han kia hai,roz call krta hai nd mails b krta hai.
V:to tumne kia baat ki us sey?Kuch kaam bna?
G in frustration:nahi vasy,meine uski mails ka reply nahi kia nd cal k time pay to mein wase b so rhi thi to return cal nahi ki maine.
V:wat?Ru mad?Gulaal tum wahan kya soch k bethi ho yar,k wo tum pe rape krega,no never.Wo aisa kbhi nahi krega,wo aise larko mein se nahi hai,wo koi sboot nahi chhodta,he is so clever.He just wants to make u madly in love with him,nd thn u wil handover urself to him.But u only hv to pretend so,u only make him sure that u love him alot nd ready to make physical relation wd him.She remembrd the lines tht she hd readn in the letr,"mujhpe reham karo,mein tumhare bina nahi ji skti,mein aj rat tumhara intzar krungi,tum aaoge na..."vsnt is right,any1 can easily undrstnd the condition of that girl,who was madly need kesar,natsha seemd realy helpless,acordng to ths letr.
V:helo?Ru thr?Kahan kho gae?
G:nahe kuch nahe,ur right vasnt,i'll show the same behaviour as ur sayin,mein abi reply krungi uski mails ka.
V:han,bt,its not easy bcoz he is vry smart,bt yet how soon as possible,assure him that ur madly in love with him.Aftr tht,u k9 na jan..,
G:ya,i k9.Uske baad usey koi nahi bcha payega.
V:ok janu,m quit bzy,kal bat krenge,love u,bye.
G:love u too,bye.
She thn replid of kesar's mails,tht she is fine nd no need to wory abt hr,nd she is msng him alot."Take care,"
At nigh gulaal was lying on hr bed,bt was not sleepng.She was playing wd hr pendent nd was in deep thoughts,aisa kya Black magic krta hai ye,or realy koi sboot nahi chorta,hr bat se saf zahir hai k natsha uske pechey thi wo nahi,bay wja usko shutng pay join krna,ziada se ziada time spend krna.Kuch smajh nahi araha,she gt up in frustration,she hold pilow in hr arms nd thought magr wo gae kahan?Achanak kesar se dur q chali gae,3movies sath ki thi bhale sirf song kie the usne bt puri movie shoot hone tk uske sath rehna,phir ab kia hua?Or uski maut kese hui?Jaise vsant ne us larki k bare mein btaya tha,agr ye b waise he iski grl frnd reh chuki hai to acordng to the situation,kesar ne uske sath relation bnaye,or jb usne apne baby k lie uska naam manga hoga,to usne usey marva dia hoga.Simple! Bt mera dil ye manne ko tayar hi nae hai,kiun??
G:uff,she hold hr head wd hr both hands.Mera sar phat jayega.Ziada mt soch gulaal, so ja, subha sochna,abi bs so ja.She lied on the bed closd hr eyes nd saw kesar..,UFF, she opnd hr eyes huridly,yeh kya horaha hai mujhe?Ab to ankhe bnd kr k bhi nazar aney laga hai wo,Uska jadu mujh par q ho raha hai,ye kam jitna asan lga tha mujhe,us se b ziada mushkil hai,par akhir aisa kia hai usme jo mujhe uski trf atract krta hai,she lost in his thots,in hz sweet memories,memrz of kitchn,of icecream parlour,of bed,of movie time,she felt hs tchng sensations,a difrnt type of cold ran across to hr body,hr heart startd beatng fast to thnk abt him,hr eyes was shining unknowingly a smile apeard on hr face bt soon vanishd whn she remembrd hz mails nd said to hrself,chahe kisi b wje se,use kitna khayal hai mera hr mail mein mere paon k bare mein puchta hai,how carng,or vsant usne ek bar b nahi puchha k ab mera paiyr kaisa hai,sirf mision k bare mein he discus kia,lekin kesar to itna busy hone k bawajood mujhe roz cal krta hai,usey itne bzy schedule mein b tym mil jata hai mere lie,bt sudnly she thought, ru mad gulal?,ur comparing ur vasy wd tht monster,vasnt se ziada pyar tujhe koi nahe kr skta,agr wo sirf plan ka puchta hai to wo b islie k mein jaldi kam finish kr k uske pas chali jaun,or kesar wo to sirf ek dhoka hai,bs dhoka,wo yeh sb ye jatane k lie krta hai k usey meri bht fikar hai.She took a deep breath nd closd hr eyes nd mumbld,kb tak?Kb tk apne dil ko smjhaungi mein,oh God plz hlp me.
Her next 2days past in loave,wd loads of question in hr mind ready 4kesar.Nd in too much confusion that she nvr felt such type of felng 4even vsnt,so y she is felng 4kesar,Her heart askd,is it jealous?as usuall the ansr is SHUT UP! its nthng like that.She was eagerly w8ng 4him,now she hv been recovr,nd hr plasture hv took out.Now she can walk easily bt cant run.On the day of his arrival,she called all the servants nd ordrd them to clean the entire house properly nd decorate it with blossom roses nd candles.She wantd to made the surroundngs Romantic,tht may hz mood wil b gud nd she'll gt the chance 2ask abt natasha.She cooked all the dinner herself at tht.Aftr finishd the kitchn corse,she went to hr room for gteng ready for him,she was doing all this to only pretend tht she is in love wd him,bt hr heart was feelng great pleasure for doing all this 4him,she was continusly using to mumbld for assuring hr heart tht "this is only drama,m nt serious,ye to bs usey phasane k lie hai,mujhe bhala q khushi hogi uske aney ki,wt difrnc it makes?".She came out of the room to heard the voice of car stopd.Kesar came inside wd driver, luggage in drivr's hnd.Hz glancd fell at gulaal nd he got stund to saw hr, in pure white drerss she was luking fairy,like pure as no one hv touchd hr evr,she was luking like a cindrela,no snow white,no,no better than all of them,may b like, tht she hv cm 4m the fairy land,a princess,a doll ya she was lukng like a crystal lady in hr white shiny dress,she was welcmng him wd hr beautiful smile,hr set of white teeth was glimerng like hr dres,hr matchng white pearl jwelry was realy suitng hr,hr silky, straight hairs were opnd nd flutterng through the air,creasing hr cheeks,hr lips wd hr shiny gloss makng him thirsty .He was gazing hr from last 5 mints,from head to toe.She felt realy awkward,she lowerd hr eyes to broke tht eye lock.She felt embarras bt to hide it she askd driver to kept the lugage in kesar's room.Nd thn went to him nd said "Dekha,mujhe pta tha k tum aise hi react kroge,hogaye na heran,mera paon bilkul thk jo hogaya hai,now i m fit.he smiled at hr,she took hz jacket 4m hz hand, they both went inside nd sat on the sofa in living room,kesar lookd around nd askd in amusement,yeh itni decoration..?
G:tumhare lie,socha tum ye sb dekh kr fresh hojaoge,q tumhe acha nahi laga?
K:nahi nahi,boht acha laga.Infact m feeling quite relax.
G with smile:ek kam kro tum jaldi se fresh hojao,mein khana lgva deti hun,subha se meine b kuch nahi khaya,bohat bhuk lgi hai.
K:q tumne q kuch nahi khaya?
G:wo,bs tumhare intzar mei kuch khane ka man hi na kia,ab dono sath mein khayenge.
K:thek hai,mein abi fresh hoke ata hun,he left.
Next seen!
They both were sitng on the dining table nd were eatng the food.Gulaal wantd to b frank wd him,so she may thn could easily ask abt natasha,she startd doing hr "chik chik"
G:mm...Khana acha bna haina?Kesar simply noded hz head in yes,
G:aaj sara khana tumhara fav hai tumhe to acha lage ga hi,mein b kya puch rhi hun,waise tumhara tour kaisa raha?Wahan ka weathr kaisa tha?He didnt reply..Ofcourse,january mein to thand hi hogi,mein b na bs yunhi puch rhi thi,she smirk aftr hr stupid questions.Acha tumhari shootng kaisi rahi?Itni sardi mein shootng krte hue prblm hui hogi na.Kesar was continuesly eatng the diner wdout gvng any response,gulaal gt cnfusd,she cleard hr throat nd tried again.
G:tum pareshan lag rahe ho,shayad thak gaye ho na.Koi baat nahi,ab tum rest kro waise b Wahan din raat shoot kia hoga tumne,or tumhara P.A,kesar stopd eating,wo tha kya wahan tumhare sath,uski to maa bemar haina,tum ne sb kuch khud hi manage kia hoga,i hope uski mom jaldi theek hojayen,uske baghair sara kam tumne handle kia hoga, burdn pad gaya hoga na tum par,Kesar yelled at hr:enough!, Gulaal almost shivered of hz sudn behaviour,hr heart was throbing fast nd just rebuking him monster,idiot,stupid aisa koi krta hai bhala,y he shout like this.She was so confusd,hr lips was shivering,lumps down in hr throat,she tried to speak...KKKESSAR??
K:enough gulaal buhat hua,Mein mohtaj nahi hun kisi ka,kar skta hun mein akele sb kuch,nahi hai mujhe kisi ki zrurat,or aise insaan ki to bilkul nahi jo selfish ho,jis k lie kisi ka us par bharosa koi maiyne na rakhta ho,jise sirf paise se matlab ho,jo meri,meri gulaal, KESAR RAI ki back stabbing krey,He stand up,Mein sb kuch brdasht kar skta hun gulaal,bt ye bilkul brdasht nahi kr skta k koi mujhe dhoka day,mujhe double cross krey,mujhe jhoot or jhoot bolne vale se sakht nafrat hai,or usne mujhe dhoka dia hai,mujhse jhoot pe jhoot bola,mera bhorsa tora hai usne,or khud bhag gaya.Jab mr.Sinha ne mujhe uske barey mein btaya meine tab bhi unka yaken nahi kia,even unhi ko ghalat kaha.Or uska sach samne lane k lie hi main unke sath gaya tha,is ykeen k sath k wo kbhi mujhe cheat nahi karega.Bt usne na sirf mera,blke meri dosti,mera bharosa mere jazbat sb ka mazak uraya hai,he made fun of my feelings.His eyes filled wd tears,Mein kbi maaf nahi kr skta aise insaan ko,never!,Naam b nahi sunna chahta mein uska,He left in anger nd slammed the door of hz room on hr face,gulaal jumpd onto the voice of 'crashsh',may b he hv brokn the vase.She realy got scared,went to hr room nd lockd the door.She throw hr dupata on the bed,she was sweating instead the cold weathr of shimla,she poured water in the glass,nd drunk it widout took a single breath between,kitna critical insaan hai yeh,ek taraf dhoka,jhoot,back stbing,in sb chezo se nfrat hai,or dusri taraf yahi sb kuch iski fitrat,aadat or time pas hai. Agr mein ek pal ko maan b lun,k kesar aisa nahi hai or mujhe koi ghalt fehmi hui hai,nahin,agr ye sirf misundrstanding hai to wt abt tht natasha?Ya phir ye sb mujhe empress krne k lie tha?Nahi nahin,kesar k pas to realy mr.Sinha k itne calls aa rhi thi,ye jhoot nahi ho skta.She rolled hr hairs nd layd on the bed 4sleep,she closed hr eyes bt as kesar's words echod in hr ears,mujhe jhoot or jhut bolne vale se skht nafrt hai,mein aise insan ko kbi maaf nahi kr skta.She opnd hr eyes gt up,nd thought "jab kesar ko pta chalega k main b yahan usey dhoke se phasane aai hun,to...tohh...wo mera kya krega,wo to mujhe mar hi dalega,meine first time uska aisa roop dekha hai,itna gussa,wo mera kya haal karega?She then tried to control hr fast heart beat,a difrnt type of thrill across through out hr body,she tried to calm hrself nd thought,tb tk to wo jail mein hoga na,mera kia bigaar le ga.Lekin jitni jaldi ho sake mujhe yahan se apna kam finish kr k jana chahie.Wo sch mein monster hai.She thn rushd to the door to cnfrm tht the door is lockd.She said 2hrself,ab to bs tumhen apne pyar ka wishvas dilana hai,or phir mera kam khatam,baqi jo kroge tum kroge,or phasogey...She then went to sleep...
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