Decided to write my first Os! It is based on Friday's Episode! I hope you like it! Please like! Sorry if it's a bit short! Also if you do like it please look in my Siggy for the link to the rest of my ARHI-based work!
I couldn't believe it..how could he say something like that? Each time he says it, my heart breaks more & more. I can't take it. He always does that, why can he accept it. Besides what does it matter to him? He's getting engaged. To Lavanya. Not me. Nothing feels good anymore, I don't want to marry Shayam, but I have to for my dad. I cant understand anything anymore, its to difficult. I give up. It hurts so much, but why? Why does it hurt so much when the harsh words come from him? Why does it he care so much if his engagement matters to me?
I watched her sit down and watched as each tear fell down her smooth cheeks. It's like a dagger is being shot through my heart over & over as each tear falls down her face. I want to wipe them away, take away her pain, hold her in my arms. But I cant. What hurts most is I caused her pain, how can I do such a thing? Why does it hurt me so much? Why can't I forget her? Why does it matter so much if my engagement matters to her like hers did to me?
I should have never said a single word that I did.
And now, I'm sitting alone in my car, thinking of her, unable to talk. My throat feels dry like the guilt is sucking up every last bit of moisture in my mouth.
I won't let it happen again. I can't.
Sorry it kind of sucked! x
Edited by RabbaVe - 27 November 2011 at 9:39am