Posted: 23 October 2011 at 8:42am | IP Logged
Scene started from yesterday barkha saying "lekin main to suchmuch vrat kholne ke baad hi kha rahi hoon aur dev ne hi to mera vrat khulvaya tha ,hai na dev" in compltely perplexed state.
Dev (in a confused tone):ek second ek second ,lekin tumne vrat rakha kyun tha aur maine vrat khulvaya?
This made barkha furious and in an irritated tone replied "aapki lambi aayu ke liye aur kis liye".
This made dev shocked and and his eyes searched for radhika's reaction again feeling insecure and as radhika/kanha realized his eyes on her/him ,showing mock anger deliberately left from there.
Dev felt like to explain to radhika,to not misunderstand him feeling more insecure but then he composed himself.
In a very calm tone,he turned towards barkha and said "barkha,main jaanta hoon ki maine apne ghar ki izzat ke liye,RP ke liye tumhara bahut istemal(use)kiya hai ,tumhari zindagi ke saath bahut galat kiya hai aur main vaada karta hoon ki main tumhe samaj mein tumhara sthan jaroor dilaunga(lol ,i mean jail whatelse)" and then changing into serious tone "lekin main apni radhika ki jagah(place) apni zindagi main kisi aur ko nahi de sakta..."!!!
Listening this,Padma(who else) in angry tone asked "lekin dev tum jaante ho na ki radhika ne kya kiya hai" and then in a confused tone "aur tum use patni ke adhikaar bhi isiliye nahi de rahe ho...".
Dev replied in a much angry tone "main bhale hi radhika ko uske adhikaar nahi de raha hoon lekin iska yeh matlab bilkul nahi hai ke main use apni patni nahi maanta hoon..." and left from there angrily.
In the cowshed:
Balram asked in his usual frustrated tone "kaise kaise log hote hain ,yahaan khud tum apne bhakt ke liye vrat rakh rahe ho aur vo barkha vrat ka dikhawa "and changing to charming tone "kis tarah uske jhoothe vrat ka sabko pta chla na..."and started laughing .
"haan dau ,galat kaam ko bhi yeh itne vishwaas ke saath karte hain ki jaise unhe koi hra hi nahi sakta hai parantu yeh bhul jaate hain ki bhagwaan to sab kuch dekh sakta hai"Kanha said a sad tone,feeling disgusted at such people.
"lekin tum vahaan se gusse mein kyun aaye ,tum to jaante the ki barkha ne vrat rakha hai sab ko dikhane ke liye..."Balram asked in his confused tone.
"kabhi kabhi dusron ko ehsaas dilane ke liye gussa dikhana bhi jaroori ho jata hai"
In the garden,BB and mohini were opening their fasts.Dev was standing above ,near window of his room observing them and saw radhika sitting in another garden.Leaving from window ,he went and sat on the bed.After sometime ,mohini came to call him for dinner and he replied to eat later.
In the garden,Radhika/kanha was sitting on the swing.Dev came there and stood behind her.
Radhika:kuch kaam hai kya aapko
Dev:(in confused tone)"hu...nahi...ha,vo khana.. lag chuka hai"still in hesitant tone.
Radhika turning towards him in much smiling tone "to kha lijiye na ya aapko bhi aapke vrat khulne ka intzaar hai?"".
Dev in irritated tone "Radhika,tum pehle bhi to chand ko hi sirf dekh kar vrat khol leti thi to aaj bhi kar sakti ho na".
RADHIKA still smiling "pehle radhika ka pati uske saamne nahi tha lekin aaj to vaisa nahi hai na".
Dev in same tone "to kab tak aise hi bhukhe rehne ka iraada hai tumhara,is tarah zidd karne se kya ho jaayega ,mera faisla badal jaayega?".
Radhika in questioning tone"kyun zidd karne ka adhikar bhi aap radhika se lena chahte hai kya" and then changing into firm smiling tone "aur rahi baat khana khane ki to aap achhi tarah se jaante hai ki radhika mar jaayegi lekin vrat khole bina khana khane ke baare mein to sochegi bhi nahi...".
Throwing angry glare,he left from there and went into his room.
He started thinking sitting at the window,how he is trapped in this rp where he can't give values to his emotions.how he was happy before accepting this rp postion.
EVEN he was out from his home when they left the house but more happy than this,now this home does not give that secure feeling anymore and got drifted to those moments.
"jab mera KK mere saath hai,to main kisi bhi paristhiti ka saamna kar sakti hoon.."
"vahan chale"dev asked.
"aap mujhe jahan lekar chalenge ,main to vahi challongi"radhika replied in her chirpy tone.
"aap mere dost hain,hamsafar hain,pati hain aur jivansathi bhi ,aapke har faisle ka main sam-man karti hoon"
These memories brought a tiny smile on his face.
"kya aap mujhe zindagi bhar yuun hi pyaar karenge..."
Radhika felt shocked.but then
"mera pyaar to din pe din duguna hoga,choguna hoga ,samay ke saath saath badta jaayega aur jab hum bude(old) ho jaayenge na,to yahi pyaar to hamara sahara banega"
WITH THIS memory,a tear drop flowed down from his eyes.He is not able to show his love even.
Don't know how much time passed there itself in these memories...1 hour...2 hour...3hour...
From nowhere,the memory where she kept nirjala (without water) fast to make him accept her.How she didn't listen to him and went ahead and even on forcing,she kept her hand on flame.
"mujhe mera patni dharam nibhane se koi nahi rok sakta ,khud mere pati bhi nahi..."
This thought made him remember the current vrat and radhs words.
"aap achhi tarah se jaante hai ki radhika mar jaayegi lekin vrat khole bina khana khane ke baare mein to sochegi bhi nahi..."
This made him like earth moved away from under his feet and he hurriedly turned to see towards bed and saw empty.HE felt like lifeless ,his heart started beating uncontrollably,he again questioned will radhika leave him again? no no ,it can't,and HE again glanced towards the garden and saw radhika sitting there at same place.
HE turned to see time 3:00 am already.
Then he glanced instantly towards the sky and saw moon smiling at him ,like talking to him only "ITS not still too much late child , ur love is waiting for you and so am also waiting ,go fast.
He nodded his head and hurried towards the door making his way out towards the garden .HIS feet were not touching the floor completely ,so much pace he was running at.
How he became so desparate in his decision,how he became so reckless ,himself in home and his radhika sitting alone outside .
But then remembering something ,he turned towards kitchen and collected the things needed for opening fast in the plate.
HE went to the garden and found radhika sitting there like hugging herself with arms folded and closed eyes .
Radhika(kanha) smiled to herself and opened her eyes.
Placing his free hand on her sideface ,in a very concerned tone"tum theek ho na?".
Radhika gave a wide smile in response.
Seeing her smiling , his lips also stretched in corner but then in an broken tone " ek baar apna hak jata kar maang nahi sakti thi kya mujhse..." and tear drop again flowed down "aur room mein bhi nahi aa sakti thi kya ,agar yahaan tumhe ...kuch ho ..jaata t...o!!!"
"Radhika ke pati ke hote huye radhika ko kuch ho sakta hai kya?"
Then he handed the plate to her and she started preparing it ,lighting diya etc.
"radhika,jaldi karo...chand chhipne ko hi hai"
"aap chinta mat kijiye,ye hamara vrat khole bina nahi chhipne wale...achchha chaliye ab aaiye!!!"
Dev felt confused from word 'humara' but thought then let it be.
Radhika/kanha made all rituals and then touched the feet too smilingly with dev only admiring her.
When dev was going to make her drink water,radhika with a teasing smile "pehle aap !!".
Dev felt shocked .Radhika/kanha took water pot from his hands and feed him water with dev only in confused state.
"ab aap nahi pilayenge kya"
"hu...hmm...hmmm"and made her drink water.
DEV went towards swing and sat on it.
"tumhe kaise pata chala ki maine subah se kuch nahi khaya"
"Radhika ko aisi halat mein chodkar uska pati kaise kuch kha sakta hai"
Dev got emotional and then in a sad tone "tum mujhe kitni achchi tarah se janti ho radhika".
"hmm...radhika to apne pati ko bahut achchhe se jaanti hai"
"Sochta to main bhi yahi tha ki main apni radhika ko bahut achche se jaanta hoon par pta nahi kahan kami reh gayi meri use samajhne main...abhi to main use uski galti ki maafi maangne ke liye keh raha hoon tab bhi woh nahi maan rahi hai ,main to yeh sochta tha ki meri radhika mere liye kuch bhi kar sakti hai,agar galti ke bina bhi maafi mangne ke liye kehta to bhi maan jati par mujhse door nahi reh paati woh ek pal ke liye bhi...lekin tumhe mujhse door rehne mein to shaayad koi problem hi nahi ho rahi hai.
Radhika/kanha also in same tone "sahi kaha aapne,aisi hi hai radhika ,apne pati ke liye kuch bhi kar sakti hai,yahaan tak ki pati ke sam-man ke liye kurbani bhi dene ko tayyar thi ,jab pati par buri nazar dekhi to use hatane ke liye maut tak pahunch gayi aur badle mein pati,pati ke adhikaar to door ki baat ,sindoor lagane ka hak bhi ek tarah se chheen liya aur diya kya sirf avishvas"
And then turning towards him with a smiling face "aur kya kaha aapne aapki radhika bina galti ke bhi maafi maang leti,haan jaroor maang leti lekin aapne to use apni radhika maan-ne se hi inkar kar diya tha na ,aap hi ne to kaha tha ke who aapki radhika nahi hai jis-se aapne pyaar kiya tha,aur vaise bhi jab aapko us par vishwas hi nahi to voh aapki radhika ho bhi kaise sakti hai".Saying she started leaving.
Dev felt like nothing is going in his mind,in complete shocked state but as she was passing through him,he hold her hand.but still didn't ask anything for sometime.
Then after composing "Radhika ,tum hi to chahti ho na,ki main ek achchha rajpurohit banoo phir tum hi mera saath nahi de rahi ho...tum hi mujhe pyaar aur Rp ke beech mein phasa(torn) rahi ho...tumhe pata hai ,agar tumne mujhe isi tarah apne pyaar se kuch aur din door rakha toh ya to RP ko main nahi niha paaonga ya phir tumhara dev kisi aisi jagah kho jaayega ki use wahan se bahar la paana mushkil ho jaayega..."
Kanha kept his hand on dev's head like blessing and admiring him said "haan ,radhika yeh chahti hai ke uska pati ek achchha RP bane aur aisa bilkul bhi nahi hai ke aap RP ,pati dharm aur pyaar ko ek saath nahi nibha sakte hain ,aap hi ne to kaha tha ki aap in sab dhromon ko ek saath nibhana chahte hain" and then changing to advice tone" aur aap jaante hai RP ke andar do gun avashya hone chahiye ,ek yeh ki use hamesha sanyam(patience) se dono pakshon(sides) ki baat sun-ni chahiye ,samajhna chahiye ,uske baare mein gehrayi se sochna chahiye aur tab nirnay(decision) lena chahiye ,kisi jaldi mein ya gusse mein aakar nahi.
aur doosri yeh ki yeh kehkar ki yeh ek RP ka phaisla hai ,kabhi bhi doosron par thopna nahi chahiye,yeh to RP ki kamjori ko darshata hai jaise use apne hi phaisle par sandeh ho,taaki koi use phaisle par sawal na kare."
Dev kept listening only silently and tried to gain the real meaning of those words.
Radhika/kanha in a chirpy tone "ab aap jyaada mat sochiye ,andar aaiye main aapke liye khana lagati hoon".
next part : dev confrontation to his consciousness and decision to find the truth.
(sorry guys,i had imagined second part ,until now i couldn't bcoz of time problem and now direction of cb has become opposite as radh/kanha has indirectly in eyes of dev has asked forgivenes.so i don't think next will be of any use now or i should post)
guys firstly am sorry ,if anyone does not like any words or finds it against their thoughts or dharam.IF anyone wants me to remove anything like those,feel free to tell.
and this radev conv,acc to me ,dev now needs such straight words to understand ,to realize and to come out.so i used these.Again sorry if anyone finds it against .
Edited by ekta-avinafan - 24 October 2011 at 12:03pm
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