Sometimes or rather most of the times life seems unfair, the world seems injust but what remains by your side always is love but the case for him was different. The world was indiferent towards him but his love was not by his side.
How badly he wished she had not rejected him but sadly all his surprise thing did not work. All he knew at the moment was that she did not want to carry on their relationship. She said she needed time but he knew that he cannot keep in front of her eyes as strangers.
He remembered all the incidents of them together as tears brimmed his eyes. He opened his cupboard in anger and getting whatever he could in his hand he acked his bags and loaded them in the car. he remembered how he had been holding al those bags for her at lonavala.
As he sat in the car her refusal again and again flashed in his mind
"armaan ab shayad jo tum chahte ho wo main nahi chahti"…" tum sab jeet gaye armaan bas mujhe haar gaye" …… these words rang in his ming and the continuous tone of his phone disturbed him. Angry as he was he just picked the phone and tossed it out of the car window with great strength. Then he drove on with the same words flashing again and again
Tune jo na kaha
He remembered how he pampered her when she was angry
Main vo sunta raha
How she rejected him straight away after the surprise
Khaamkha bevajah
khwaab bunta raha
he remembered all his dreams for his wedding and how he had made her wear that kada
..
Tune jo na kaha
Main vo sunta raha
He remebered how he had thought that ridhima would agree to their marriage and he sent atul to convince padma
Khaamkha bevajah
khwaab bunta raha..
he remembered the list for things to bring and things to do for his marriage
jaane kiski humein lag gayi hai nazar
he remebered how they had told everyone about their relationship and how everyone opposed it
is shehar mein na apna thikaana raha
he sees the board on which is written PUNE-130 km though his tear glaced eyes
dur chaahat se main apni chalta raha
he remembered how ridhima and he had fun in the hospital and then how he had applied for transfer
Khaamkha bevajah
khwaab bunta raha..
he remembered how he had been imagining ridhima endlessly in his dreams as well as reality
dard pehle se hai zyaada
he remembered their various breakups but this seemed to have been the most serious one till date
khud se phir ye kiya vaada
he remembered how he had taken her to his room adorned with her photographs and how he said those words " main armaan mallik ..ridhima gupta se vaada karta hun……"
khaamosh nazrein rahe bezubaan
his eyes have innumerable tears swimming in them as he remembers their eyelocks
ab na pehle si baatein hain
he remembered how they had promised to trust each other in all circumstances
bolo to lab thartharaate hain
he remembers how he could not manage to speak once she had rejected him
raaz ye dil ka na ho bayaan
he remembers how he had thought to say so much to her but did not have a chance
ho gaya beasar koi hum pe nahi
he remembers how everyone had tried to separate then specially shashank saying they were not meant for each other
humsafar mein to hai humsafar hai nahi
he remembers how they had both together planned their life after their marriage and how they had celebrated their roka ceremony
dur jaata raha paas aata raha
he remembered the various incidents when he left sanjeevani but ridhima insisted him to come back
khaamkha bevajah khwaab bunta raha
he remembered how he had enjoyed wit her at lonavala orphanage when both said that they would lovr to live in the hills
in all these thoughts he did not see the bus coming from front. Seeing no way out he just turned his car towards a tree and his head banged onto his steering wheel hard. Next all he remembers is lying on the hospital bead with various machines screening him continuously., some unknown place
as he saw a doctor enter all he could feel was he has some relation with her, he feels that he knows her but then he thinks that ight be he is just thinking this ways because had never seen her before . he felt an instant liking towards her and her care and affection towards him stole his heart.
Few days passed on with all this admiration and secret love but one day finally when he came out of his room and went out he was the hospital's name and yes it was sanjeevan.. his memory lasted only till the place where he received an appointment letter. He produced that letter and rejoined sanjeevani after he was better.
One day when he entered the locker room he does not know why but he felt a sudden urge to open the almirah in the change room. There he saw loads of his photographs and his shirts and other attire but as far as he remembered he had not kept them here so how did they…. He tried to remember when suddenly his eyes fell on a video cd ket there named on which it was written with a marker armaan. He could make out that handwriting as he was familiar with his attending doctor's handwriting. He quickly picked it up and hid it before anyone could spot him with it. He slowly made his way out of the locker room after accumulating his stethoscope and lab coat in his locker…. As he reached home he first was apprehensive about the fact of watching the dvd as he thought it might be personal but then he thought "yaar mera hi to naam likha hai nd agar kisi ka kuch personal hoga to main band kar dunga…mujhe bhi kisi aur ki personal life dekhne ka koi shauk nahi hai… as he inserted the dvd and settled down with a packet of chips he the dvd gets played and he is shocked….. the dvd shows ridhima wearing a beautiful pink lehenga and he in a white sherwaani dancing on jogi mahi and all the roka ceremony… he starts getting unconscious as he tries to remember the incidents…he did have some flashbacks of their moments together but they were all blurred
He felt blood rush to his brain as he held it out of pain and before he could respond he fainted, lying on the ground with a deep pain in his head and the next morning he remembered everything…all their moments and refusals… but the past few days made him hopeful that might be ridhima had changed her decision… the way he saw her cry whenshe was alone…try to smile when she was sad…that little hope was still in his heart and he embraced it tight in fear that it might slip. He did not acknowledge anyone in the hospital about his memory being back but allof them noticed some change in him. He sounded more serious and sad than ever before….
A week passed by and he was a bit happyas he felt that ridhima cared for him and still loved him but that day as he entered the locker room he heard some sobe. As he looked into the change room he saw ridhima sub conscious due to lack of energy and continuous crying talking to his photograph
" armaan kyun kiya tumne aisa, jab bhi main khush hoti hun kyun koi na koi anjaane mein meri khushi cheen leta hai, pehle muskaan phir pari… armaan tumhe pari se baat karne ki uske saath rehne ki kya zaroorat thi…aur ab tum mujhehi bhul gaye…kis galti ki saza de rahe ho mujhe tum armaan…kyun itna rula rahe ho mujhe…tumne pari ke baare mein mujhse pehle…main maanti hun ki main…."
just then he saw anjali entering and he hid so that he can hear further what ridhima is speaking as he knows that if anjali sees him here she will ask ridhima to stop speaking. As anjali heard the sobs she entered to find ridhima burning with fever. She immediately hugged him as ridhima cried on her shoulder and after a lot of insistence in her subconscious mind said all about pari to anjali
" ridzi armaan ne galat kiya tha na to use uski sazamil gayi….use tumhe bata dena chahiye tha ki pari raat bhar uske ghar par thi" though anjali did not want to say this but she knew that ridhima would gain senses only if she blames armaan over some false incidents but armaan hearing this could bear no more and he immediately went to his car and decided to leave for kasauli…heartbroken yet again
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Ridhima: di ye aap kya keh rahi ho….armaan ki koi galti nahi thi…nahi thi uski galti…usne mujhe manaya bhi sab kuch merivajah se….vo yahaan se meri vajaah se gaya…uska accident meri vajah se hua aur uski yaadasht bhi meri vajah se gayi….main bahut buri hun di bahut buri
Anjy:nahi ridzi aisa nahi kehte tum to is duniya mein best sister ho aur na galtiyaan to sabse hoti hain
Ridhima:lekin di armaan ne itni baar apologize kiya lekin main hi
Her sobs got hysterical by the second and she finally fainted in anjy's arms
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Armaan in his car……….
aaya vo phir nazar aise
he remembered all the care ridhima gave him in this time…
baat chidne lagi phir se
he remembered how he had been admiring ridhima and how he had hope that she would return to him
aankhon mein chubhtaa kal ka dhuaan
he remembered how he and pari had met and ridhima had seen him give the ring to pari and then refused to marry him
khwaab tera na hum sa hai
he remembered how he still loved her with all the broken pieces of his heart
is khushi mein kyun gham sa hai
he smiles when he remembers how he heard ridhima during this week that she still loves him and he is satisfied that atleast she loves him and he is ready to wait but he is sad that might be ridhima rejectshim yet again
basne laga kyun phir vo jahaan
he remembered how he had thought that things would be backto normal and ridhima would be back to him
vo jahaan dur jis se gaye the nikal
he remembered how he had left the last time when god made him face that accident which turned his life back to the point from where he started
phir se aankon mein kar di hai laise pehel
he remembered how he loved remembering his friends and love again but little did he know that his happiness was not going to last long
lamha beeta hua dil dukhaata raha
again ridhima words"armaan ab shayad jo tum chahte ho wo main nahi chahti"…" tum sab jeet gaye armaan bas mujhe haar gaye" rang in his head
Khaamkha bevajah
He remembered all those moments when he dreamt of her as his bride
khwaab bunta raha..
he remembered how they fought on the to do list after marriage
Tune jo na kaha
Main vo sunta raha
He again remembered her various refusals
Khaamkha bevajah
khwaab bunta raha..
he remembered how they had planned there life together and all his surprises for her
jaane kiski humein lag gayi hai nazar
again the scene where they stood for their love when all their gang was against them flashed in his head
is shehar mein na apna thikaana raha
he remembered the various times he left his job and city for her
dur chaahat se main apni chalta raha
he wondered what if she still loved him
bujh gayi aag thi daag jalta raha
he remembers anjali's words armaan ne galti ki hai and tears left his eyes as he remembered how ridhima had doubted him to cheat on her for pari
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