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Though I'm not ready to say goodbye to RBO and Shanak, I felt the need to write something today. Something to remember their journey by, and a tribute of sorts to the jodi that have touched my heart. So I got to thinking and decided to write a letter. From Khanak to Shantanu... and through the letter relive some of the memories associated with the incomparable pair. I also got to imagine what might have been... Hope you like it... 😳
Dear Shantanu,
As I watch over our beautiful angels sleeping peacefully, I'm overcome with emotion and can't help but wish you were here by my side to share this moment with me. I'm so happy that you are getting to live your dream, but when you are away on these music assignments I miss you terribly.
Sitting here lost in my thoughts and thinking about how far we have come, I'm reminded of our first meeting. Do you remember how excited I was when you arrived with the mithai?! And how I mistook you for being someone else? I'm laughing just thinking about it.
It was my wedding day that day. Who knew that hours later my life - our lives - would change forever! It all seems so long ago... as if it happened in a different lifetime. I know I said some hurtful things to you during that time Shantanu, but I also know you understand why.
Then came our wedding... bound together in the most difficult of circumstances yet we came through it all. I remember the first step I took into the Khandelwal house... with fear in my eyes and sorrow in my heavy heart. I couldn't imagine ever laughing again, but then that fateful night I ended up coming to the date you had originally planned for Natasha...
Something changed that night, for both of us. I started to see another side of you after that... a softer side. And you increasingly began to support me, whether it be standing up for me in front of the rest of the family, teaching me English so that I would feel more confident in front of them, or by bringing me back home after I left for Dhulwadi.
I'm not sure when exactly I began to fall for you, or when I had put my demons to rest. I don't even know when you transgressed from being my gunigaar to my saviour, but you really did save me! By giving me a new lease of life, a reason to smile once more, a reason to live again! All I can say for certain is that it was destiny... our destiny to find a soul mate in each other. Sigh... such wonderful memories!
Granted the journey has not always been easy. Like the colours of an odhani, life too has many changing colours. For every smile or laugh we have shared, we have cried too. Be it because of misunderstandings between us or something else, but it's the low points that make you realise how lucky you are when things are going right. Even our honeymoon didn't go smoothly, but it was worth it in the end to be where I belonged... in your arms.
I'll finish off by saying I love you Shantanu and will always support you, just like I did when we left home to make your dream a reality. And just like you are doing now, with your continued love and support for my dream of building a school for the children of Dhulwadi. The babies miss their Daddy, and so does their Mummy. I'm wishing you get to come home early like you did last time, so that we can all spent some quality time together.
Mummiji, Adaa, Akhshay bha and Khushboo bhabi send their love too.
Don't keep me waiting too long to see you again my burthal...
Lots of love from your jhansi ki rani and baiko,
Khanak xXx
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