This is my first new post is this forum. I have been so moved by the intelligent conversation and also the complex beauty of this show. Thank you for creating such a warm welcoming place. I have been in awe of the posts, creations and VM;s
One thing that really struck me today is the fact that Guddu wonders if Runjhun cares if he is happy. This is not the first instance where Guddu has tried to understand his place within her mind and heart.
If we look at the following scenes:
1. When he thinks that she tricked him into going to the temple and makes her swear on his head, he asks, "who am I to you anyway?"
2. When he thinks that she made him eat the spicy food, he asks her "why do you believe everyone but me?" Again, he wants to have a place.
3. When gives the tonic to Runjhun he asks "who else made this but me, who else would do so." Funny question, because of course there is dadima. But he wants her to think that logically it would be him
4. When creating the mobile center asks Runjhun why she always sticks up for her aunt and uncle. He wants her to recognize his actions as he tries to defend her.
5. Today he says that she does not care about his feelings, only others
I am struck by these exchanges. Guddu knows that Runjhun does her duty to her family and also loves her grandmother. Right now he knows that she is doing her duty to Guddu. But I feel that he is constantly seeking something else for her. He sees the love that she has for Amma and the unconditional respect out of duty that she has for her evil relatives and he wants his place. Right now his place appears to be within her duty as patnidharma
In a way I feel that he resists her desire to change him, because he wants her to see the unchanged raw Guddu is not so bad. After all when he put his hands around her neck, it was because she saw him as so unworthy that his mere touch made things impure. At that point Guddu had said, now you will see another side of him, meaning that she had not understood his real nature and never understood him in the first place.
Now I think that he is seeking subconscious guidance from her, but also a realization from her that the unchanged Guddu is not a savage or impure. If she can defend her mamis and mamas, why can't she appreciate him for himself? Is he that bad?
Guddu has always stared at Runjhun, not just because he is attracted to her, but because he seeks to see himself. I see her as a mirror that Guddu uses to view his actions. I think that he is constantly asking Runjhun, who is he to her, to not only see himself and who he is, but also to challenge the line that she has between caring for others out of love and caring for others out of duty,
Right now he is mostly her duty, but I think that he wants to see if there are any feelings there that recognize him as a person. Those feelings would take Runjhun out of her comfort zone. Her only real love has been for her grandmother.
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