I
open my eyes and
The night fades away.
I see the world as it is -
It's bathed in sunlight, it's beautiful.
It's like you.
You
made me laugh,
You made me cry,
You hurt me badly,
You didn't apologise.
And then
You hugged me when I didn't want you to,
You wiped my tears when I said
I didn't need you.
You
stood beside me
Through thick and thin,
Gave me the push when
I didn't know how to begin,
Got angry when I didn't listen
To you.
You
brought my smile back,
Stood beside me when I was scared.
You didn't protect me
But helped me face my fears.
And
that is why
I love you.
You've stuck with me through everything -
Seen my worst
And loved my best,
You take me for who I am.
I
want you and I need you,
But baby let's be real
Happily ever after is overrated.
I
can't promise that I won't fight
But I know that in the end you're
My guiding light.
Tomorrow
Is a different day.
And while I can't promise forever,
I give you all of my today.
Facing
reality -
It's like gazing into the Sun.
You know of its blatant honesty,
But the glaring truth blinds you.
It's hard to stare back,
It's hard to accept what life throws at you.
And
sleeping under your wings
All this while baby,
I've become used to
These rose-tinted glasses.
The thorns pierce my skin
Like hot needles.
The roses have
Lost their softness.
Now
that I'm out in the rain,
I long for your shelter
But you're
Out of reach.
I breathe in your scent
But you're too far away,
The ghost of your touch
Lends me volatile comfort.
I can almost feel you even now
But it's just not enough.
And
as the lightning strikes -
I run for cover.
I'm not too sure
I'll make it through
Without you here beside me.
Because
I know
You didn't want to leave;
I know you wished
To guard me through
All the storms I'd ever face.
I was too used to your protection -
I was too used to your presence.
And so I shiver in the cold wind
Today.
I
know I'll have to fight
And brave it all,
Grit my teeth
And swim through.
Because that is what
You would have wanted
And that is what
I try to do.
You've
been my Saviour,
My Sunshine
Through the hardest time.
Now I promise to protect you too,
With every breath
And every sigh;
For I have in me
Your strength.
And I know it will
Guide me through.
For you, for you.
Looking
up
At the night sky,
Talking of heaven, and the stars -
And thinking about forever,
Lying in your arms.
-Oh,
these dreams were so cliche-d,
But yet so sweet.
I longed for the perfect kiss,
I yearned for a moment where
Nothing would be amiss.
And like
a candle in the night,
You would guide me with your light.
Burning bright, yet soft to my eyes.
Truthful, yet not blinding.
But
they were dreams.
Beautiful, yet untrue.
I was told that love would
Sweep me off my feet,
Shower me with roses and
Take over my senses.
But
this is different.
There are roses, and I feel the thorns -
The pain makes this real,
It makes me feel.
Dreams are sweet but
There I'm numb.
So this is sweeter
For I can feel you in my senses.
I can breathe you
And touch your hair
And kiss your lips
And cry in my despair.
Because
nothing compares
To the feeling of being in love,
Of being with you
And in your arms.
Nothing compares to what is real.
I don't need the red roses,
I don't need the violins,
The scented candles
And the walks in the moonlight.
I don't want them.
For
slowly I realise
How much I love you,
And it overwhelms me.
It is too much to hold inside me,
And so I cry into your chest.
I can't breathe,
I can't think
I can't let you go.
I
cling to you like
I never wanted to,
Trying desperately
To latch on to a sense of comfort,
Of belonging,
And a sense of peace
Only you could provide.
And
you may not even be mine,
But still I hold on to you.
For as I stumble and fall,
I know you'll hold me up
And stand strong like you do.
Or maybe like me,
You're broken inside too.
I can't look into your eyes
For mine are hazy with tears;
But I can hear your heart
And I love the way
It beats so fast.
Because
come what may
And whatever you say,
At least for now
I know just one thing.
That I love you,
Way more than I should.
And I trust you,
Way more than anyone ever could.
Wherever
you are,
Whatever you do,
I love you
And the fact remains.
I
know you know
Why I cry - And maybe
You feel my pain too.
I
seek not my dreams,
I seek the love in you.
The strength in your arms
And the scent in your sighs.
I'll
take the roses with the thorns,
For ever if I'll find you,
And as our breaths intermingle
In kisses of passion, I feel -
Maybe someday,
Our love to me will bind you.
This one was a very emotional one for me...do tell me how it is. It literally sapped me of energy once I finished writing.