Suvi's naivety about India in her comments quite charmed me.
They made me smile too. Then last weekend I happened upon a Bangladeshi movie "Third
person singular number" and suddenly realized how like Suvi my thoughts were
about my neighboring nation which if things had been a little different 64 years
back would have been my birthplace. You see till now I had believed Bangladesh
to be a very small, struggling poverty ridden nation still far behind in world.
An image of orthodox society with many restrictions on women lived in my mind. But
then I saw the movie which told a story of a free thinking spirited Muslim girl
who dared to defy society by living openly with her boyfriend in his home with
his family. They married but not in conventional way. And when the guy was imprisoned
in an accidental murder case, she is thrown out on the road in middle of night
by her in laws. Her struggle to find a place of living as single young woman in
a male dominated society was at times heart wrenching and yet humorous. But
what stood out throughout was that no matter the country from which you belong
a woman craves just one thing from her man- his complete trust and support.
Where in certain places people were quiet orthodox and obnoxious, there were people
who were equally open minded and liberal. I realized one thing that every place
has a flavor in itself- a distinct taste like every dish. I began to associate
every city in India I have seen with a flavor. My Pune is like its favorite
food Wada pav- a fusion of Indian spice and sweetness of western bread, Mumbai
is like a hot plate of curry-salty as its air and hot to tease your taste buds.
Kolkata is like a plate of bhelpuri with all the prime tastes thrown in sweet, salt,
sour and chilies. Delhi is like a well dressed plate of Caesar salad-urban, chick,
classy and good to look at and basically a luxury. It requires time and lot of
trials and errors to make your taste buds adjust to a new flavor of a new city.
It's like God created one World and we humans created our own little worlds
within it. In a way it's overwhelming if you think that there are so many new
worlds for us to discover, so many new flavors to taste. I am greedy that I want
to taste everything. I want to walk into every new world and make it mine. I
believe a Christopher Columbus and Vasco Da Gama lives within every heart. We
just need our vessels to set sail in the vast oceans or more practically today
the right flight tickets.
Ch18: A New World
Dutta pushed past the throng of sisters, nieces, sisters-in-law
and aunts to enter his room in Kalawati tai's house. He couldn't understand
what more did they want. He paid the money they had demanded without much
negotiation. He had heard all their ribald jokes and embarrassing advices. And
he thought he knew all that was to know about bedroom department! He closed the
door and turned towards the beautifully decorated bed and stood stock-still.
Did he miss something? Wasn't the bride supposed to be waiting demurely on the
bed under a long veil for her groom? That's what all Hindi movies loved to
show. Quiet absurdly he had a remembrance of old Amitabh-Rakhee starrer Kabhi Kabhi. He had a image of the hero
lifting of the veil of heroine's face to the words "Suhagraat hai..ghunghat utha raha hoon main". A sudden sound
of flush brought himback to reality and told him that his shy, innocent bride
had not actually turned tail and made a run for her home next door but was
probably just taking a shower. He grinned to himself and walked towards the
wardrobe to take out the wrapped box. His wedding gift to her!
He took measured steps to the bathroom and gently tapped on
the door. After a few seconds the door opened just a slit and her small voice
asked him in surprise,"Kya hai?" Dutta grinned and extended it towards her. She
looked at the box doubtfully. Dutta- please! Her hennaed bangle covered hand
came out to take the box from him and vanished behind the door again. Dutta
whistled softly as he took out his pajama from the wardrobe and changed into
them. He lied back on the bed to await his bride. A prick on the back made him
jump out straight to the floor. Whoever said a bed of roses is comfortable?
Holding the edges of bed sheet he tugged off the top cover making the flower-petals
fly off in all direction.
"Ye aap kya kar rahe hai?"
He turned back at the sound. The sight that greeted him
froze him to the spot for a second yet blood gushed through his body with meteoric
speed. She stood at the threshold of the bathroom with her damp hair cascading
down her side dressed in the light blue silk nightdress he had bought for her.
She walked towards the chest at the corner and placed her heavy bridal wear and
jewelry on it. She stood there uncertain of what to do next looking down at the
petals which littered the floor. The blue material clung to some places and
flowed down like a wave of waterfall sheathing her in demure yet alluring veil.
At first glance there was nothing remotely striking about the dress just like Nakkusha
who to a normal outsider appeared a bland unexciting wallflower. But Dutta knew
what lay behind the faade of the demure dress, under the long wrap, the dress
fell in a wave accentuating each line of her body perfectly and the bodice was
kept in place by simple nondescript spaghetti straps. He also knew that her
shy, timid wallflower fascia hid her fiery, scathing, vibrant wild flower
interior. Exotic, alluring, tempting and now, all his! He looked at her
downcast gaze and held them in thrall for a moment and broke the spell with one
word, "Safai!"
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Her heart was beating a wild tempo in her chest. It felt
like she had slept and now had woken up in the body of a different woman. This
woman felt beautiful and vivacious. She felt as tempting like a siren and as
bold as a tabby cat. Any moment now Nakkusha felt that she would wake up and find
herself to be the same nondescript, simple, easily forgotten girl that she knew
she really was. But this dream felt so good, so real like the strong arms that
engulfed her from behind. Like the heat of the bare chest on which she leaned
on her back. Like the murmur of warm breath that she felt on her bare shoulder.
She felt his maverick finger hook under the silly noodle thin strap of the
daring dress he had bought for her, she tried to concentrate on what she was
doing and also tried to remind herself to keep breathing. When she had seen the
blue thing folded in the beautiful box she was assailed by misgivings about
wearing it but then she had donned it before she could think again. He had
bought it for her. No one has ever bought anything just for her. And never
something as beautiful as this!
He breathed in the sandalwood smell of her soap mixed with
the buttery scent of her body lotion. He buried his face in the thick mane of
her hair and kissed the back of her neck while she tried to push him away a
little. Nakkusha slanted weary glance at him- Dekho cheating nahi karna. Yahan
mat dekhna jab tak main na kahoon. Ye beech wali badi ungli dhundni hai,Ok? Phir
mat bolna confuse ho gaye the! She bent a little away from him hiding her in
front of her body. A second later she turned to him partly showing him only
fingertips from top of her left hand which was wrapped around to hide the base
of her fingers of right hand,"Ab dhundo!" Dutta grinned at her and looked at
the little tips picking out at him. Her pinky was doing insane things to his
senses. He hovered over his choices for a second before picking out the right
finger,"Ab meri baari. Ye waali ungali dhundni hai, ok?" He showed her his ring
finger. Hiding his hand in a grip he put his arms around her so that his hands
were in front of her face. She deliberated anxiously before making a choice. He
wriggled the finger tip a little to give her a hint. Well, he was allowed to
make concessions for his bride of few hours after the long months they had
survived without each other. Throwing a triumphant look at him she grabbed his
finger.
Dutta twisted his hand to grip her small hands and pulled
her towards him to crush her against his chest. Looking at her startled gaze he
moved closer to her, fixing her full lips under his hunter gaze. He was about
to taste the nectar of her pouty lips and a husky groan escaped his mouth,"Meetha!"
Her impossibly large eyes widened further as she whispered,"Meetha!" He was just
a hairbreadth away from his target when she moved back and spoke again,"Meetha!"
Dutta frowned- Meetha? She nodded- Meetha..Mujhe meetha
khana hai. Dutta leaned down to kiss her again- mujhe bhi! Nakkusha shook her
head- mujhe meetha khana hai. Rasgulla. Dutta's smile vanished as he realized
it was no lover's talk. Dutta-Rasgulla khana hai? abhi? Itni raat ko? Nakkusha
nodded as she sat up straight- haan, reception mein 60 logon ka khana bach gaya
tha. Babuji aur jiju ne wo gayatri mandir bhej diya garibo ke liye. Par kaladidi
ne hai na, saare bacchey huye rasgulley rakh liye hai. Fridge mein. Kal subha
sab baccho ko breakfast mein den eke liye. Dutta looked at the spark in her
eyes and felt like cursing colorfully- To kal bacchon ke saath breakfast mein
kha lena. Abhi main tujhe different meetha kilata hoon. Idhar aa! Nakkusha pushed
him away angrily- Mujhe bhuk lagi hai. Pata hai, subha se upwaas hai. badi mami
aur naani ne kaha tha ki dulha dulhan shaadi ke havan mein upwaas karke baittey
hai. Subha suraj nikalne se pahele dudhikarma khaya tha. Phir kuch nahi khaya.
Dutta-dudhi what? Nakkusha made a face at the memory of the taste- dahi aur
poha. Yuck! Dutta- to teri galati hai. mujhe bhi leelatai aur roopatai ne kaha
tha. Par maine Rajeev bhau se kehke chupchap biryani smuggle karwayi thi lunch
mein. Neelam se ice cream bhi. Nakkusha
thumped him- aapko humari shaadi mein apshakoon kartey sharam nahi aayi? Dutta-
aapni shaadi mein bhook se marne se to accha hai. Waise bhi I bought dinner for
600 people tonight, I deserved a proper meal atleast. Waise tune raat ko shaadi
ke baad kyun nahi khaya? Nakkusha made a face- Itne saare log the. Unke saamne
nayi dulhan bhukad ke tarah khaye accha lagta hai kya? Waise bhi mera lipstick
kharab ho jata photo mein. Dutta- nahi khaya to nahi khaya! Ab kuch nahi ho
sakta. Idhar aa! Nakkusha- abhi to apne hamesha mera khayal rakhne ka wada kiya
tha kuch ghantey pahele. Mere liye itna nahi kar sakte. Fridge ke nichey waale
taak pe badey waale ganj mein hoga. la do naa!
Dutta sighed as he saw the expectancy on her face and got up
pulling on his kurta. She called him at the door- dekho koi puchey to kehna
aapko khana hai. wo kya hai na accha nahi lageyga agar sabko pata chala ki
mujhe khane hai,hai na?
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Dutta came back holding the bowl full of rasgullas and
closed the door cautiously. He had managed to avert the disaster of coming face
to face with one of his brothers in law who had come to take some chilled water
for his wife. He was feeling pretty smug about his success. His smugness turned
to dismay when he found his bride fast asleep on her side with her hands folded
under her chin like a kid. He looked at the bowl in his hand and angrily banged
it down on the side table. He sat down contemplating the catastrophe his
wedding night was turning out to be. He had been so confident of being able to
charm her off her feet with his seduction and here she was dead to the world.
Well, they did have a lifetime together now, he thought consolingly. He watched
her sleeping for sometime, a strange contentment washing over him at the
thought of watching her sleep like this for every night of his life. His! He smiled
on his thoughts, my meethu with pinch of salt.
He picked up a syrup dripping rasgulla from the bowl and
leaned over her. Lightly he traced her lips with the sweet as droplets of the
cool sugar syrup fell on her lower lips and chin. She moved a little in her
sleep but peacefully slept on. Dutta grinned and went closer to her licking the
drops of her chin lightly. He squeezed the juice on her cheeks and licked them
off slowly deliberately. She stirred and opened her sleep bogged eyes at the
assault on her drowsy senses. Dutta looked into those sparkling brown pools and
felt himself drown in them. He touched the sweet to her lips as she parted them
but when she was about to bit into it he removed it and popped it into his
mouth instead. She hoisted herself on her elbows frowning at him when he showed
the sweet in his mouth and leaned towards her. She blushed red taking in his
intent.
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Dutta grimaced at the sticky sensation of the sugar on his
skin. The bed sheet was sticking to his back and uncomfortable like hell. The
bowl stood empty at the night table and Nakkusha was lying lax in his arms
drawing little circles on his chest. Dutta- do din baad hum log Mumbai mein
hongey, ek naye zindagi mein. Are you scared? Nakkusha smiled and pressed a
light kiss on his chest- nahi. Dutta caressed her hair- kyun? Hum saath hai
isliye? Nakkusha- haan aur saath mein Kanhaji bhi hai na! Roopa tai aur madhu
tai bhi laut jayenge? Dutta nodded. Nakkusha said," neel aur krati bahut pyare
hai" reffering to roopa's teenage kids who spoke with a American twang and
showed amazement at everything about the wedding and the town. Dutta fingered
the strap of her dress- Haan! Roopatai aur Puneet bhau ne puri koshish ki hai
unhe humari tradition se jordne ki. Par mushkil hai nakku, Wo wahan "the star
spangled banner" gaa ke badey huye hai aur hum"jan gan man". Waha fireworks
choreograph karke 4th july ko hoti hai…aur hum to India ke cricket
match jeetne pe bhi diwali manatey hai. unki duniya alag ho chuki hai. Wo to ab
American citizens hai. Of course, apne parents ki country mein aake, ye new
world ka thoda to novelty value hoga. Nakkusha shook her head and pressing her
chin on his chest gave him a smile- aisa nahi hai. Dekhiye, shayad aap sahi hai
ki unki duniya alag hogai hai. par jab tak unke dil mein is duniya ke liye bhi
maan samaan rahega tab tak unke dil mein ye desh rahega. Par…She trailed of
growing silent. Dutta looked down at her- par? Nakkusha- kuch nahi. Dutta
lifted her chin to make her look in his eyes and asked her with his eyes.
Nakkusha- main soch rahi hoon ki kitna mushkil hoga roopatai aur puneet jiju ke
liye ye duniya chod ke us duniya mein basna? Aur madhutai…waha to boli bhi alag
hai…kaise kiya hoga? Dutta- jaise ab tujhe karna hai nakku. ek baat us ullu
uday ne saahi kahi thi. Shaadi mein compromise aurat ko hi jyada karni hoti
hai. Unfair bur true. Naye mahool, naye parivaar mein dhaalna hota hai. Par
main wada karta hoon main har kadam pet era saath duga. Promise! Nakkusha- aap
aur kanhaji mere saath ho to mujhe koi darr nahi. Dutta made an annoyed sound-
phir kanhaji! Nakkusha- aap ab bhi bhagwaan ko nahi maante? Dutta- abhi bhi matlab?
Tujhe aisa kyun laga ki ab main badal jaunga? Nakkusha got up to sitting
position and looked at him wearly. Dutta sighed as he sat up and pulled her
back to him- Nakku, mujhe tere viswaas se problem nahi hai..tujhe mere viswaas
se nahi honi chahiye. Right? Nakkusha spoke softly- kalatai ne kaha tha ki
aapke aai-baba ki mauth shirdi jaatey huye hui thi? She immediately regretted
her words. All those days and nights that they had spent talking, this was one
subject they had never broached. She had told him all about her mother and she
had felt that he understood her pain due to his loss. She had always waited for
him to share about that loss, but he never did. And now that the words were out
she felt like she had trespassed an invisible line.
Dutta said in a very matter of fact way- haan. Mere SSC
exams ke acchey result ki dua maangne gaye the. I was getting ready for school
in the morning when maa said tillu fridge mein alag alag container mein tumhara
lunch dinner mark karke rakha hai. heat it and eat. Milk peena yaad se..tere dad
aur main kal lunch taka a jayenge. I ate the food she cooked. Threw out the
milk. And waited but…Nakkusha felt tears pricking her eyes. Dutta- I was shattered
to say the least, of course. But what really felt pathetic was mere maa-dad
meri padai ke liye wahan gaye the..aur unfortunately wahi meri exams ke waqt
mera sabse bada distraction ban gaya tha, their death..it was a trauma. I
wanted to see ki agar main bhagwaan ko nahi manta…kuch bhi nahi maangta to kya
hoga? kya jo mujhe milla wo nahi milta. Nope! Actually hadsey ke pahele hi
mujhe bhagwaan etc pe bharosa nahi tha..hadse ne just us belief ko reinforce
kiya. Nakkusha- par ye galat hai. Dutta laughed sarcastically- accha mera chod.
tu bata, tu to bhagwaan mein vishwaas karti hai..teri maa kyun chali gai?
Nakkusha went quiet looking at him doubtfully. Dutta- dekha jawab nahi hai na?
Nakkusha leaned her head on his chest as he enveloped her in a hug- main logic
nahi de sakti aapki tarah, par mujhe yakeen hai ek din aap humari deal haar
jaogey, mere viswaas pe viswaas karoge. Dutta- Tere kanha ka pata nahi nakku…par
mujhe tujh par viswaas hai. aur main jaanta hoon tujhe mujh par.
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Dutta hissed- Nakku, nicchey aa! Nakkusha looked down at him
biting her lips nervously-ye bahut uccha hai. main..main…nahi kar sakti. She
pulled up her feet rearranging her sari to cover every inch demurely. Dutta looked
up at her perplexed- to agar tujhe train ke upper berth pe jaane se darr lagta
hai to tu chadhi kaise…aur mujhe kal raat ko kyun nahi bataya. Main exchange
karwa deta neel ke saath. Nakkusha- itne logon ke samne kaise bolti. Aap ne to
bas aise hi mujhe berth number bol diya..aur maine socha itne saare logon ka
ticket banvaya hai…sab garboard na ho jaye. Par ab main niche nahi aungi. Dutta
glared at her- to kya wahan mera sansaar basayegi. Damn it nakku! don't create
a scene just get the hell down. Arey madhutai ka 6saal ka beta bhi chard jata
hai upper berth par. Nakkusha squinted her eyes at him- ussey jiju wahan se
uttarte hai. main nahi aa sakti.. aur..aur meri saari pair mein phaas gayi aur
main gir gayi to? Dutta- to saari kyun pahena tha itne lambey safar main? Tera wo..wo..churidaar
kyun nahi pahena? Nakkusha frowned and hissed back looking at the interested
eyes of the co-passengers- aap chilla kyun rahe hai? sab dekh rahe hai? Dutta
pressed a tired hand to his eyes. He had been standing here since past 15
minutes trying to get her to climb down of the upper berth where she had slept
last night in train.
They were all headed back to Mumbai and all the tickets for
40 something people were done by a fool of travel agent who had given seats
scattered all over the train. Keeping a track of them all was a management art
in itself on top of that his wife of 2 days was making him look like a fool in
front of complete strangers. He saw the kid on the lower birth grin at him and
he felt anger boil over him all over again. Dutta- nakku, bahut ho gaya. Leelatai
tumhara naashte pe intezaar kar rahi hai. Get Down! Nakkusha could feel his
frustrated anger emanating from him in waves but she felt helpless. It looked
awefully high from there and train was moving too fast. To add to it she was
wearing a sari which on normal steady earth was precarious mode of dress. She
looked at him pleadingly- nahi ho payega…koi station aaney do na! Dutta
growled- next station is after 2 damn hours. Get the hell down now! Nakkusha
silently looked at him. He saw the genuine fear in her eyes. He made herculean effort
to sound calm- Nakku,meethu..kya hua..tujhe to heights darr nahi lagta hai na!
I mean, tu apne ghar ke chatt pe, tai ke ghar ke terrace pe bindasht chard
jaati hai. phir? Nakkusha- wok um uchhai se…chair ke upar se..yahan se….perd ki
daal se…her voice trailed away at his incredulous look. 'Of all the absurd
senseless of all things' he cursed inside. Dutta breathed deeply- theek hai.
sunn, I'll help u main jaisa bolta hoon waisa kar. Nakkusha began to hsake her
head in denial when he touched her feet lightly- trust me,meethu. Ok?
Nakkusha looked at him and licked her lower lip removing the
hand from her feet- chee, mere pao mat chovo. Dutta grinned- agar tuu wahan
chadi rahegi to muhje to tere pao dabane padenge. Nakkusha bit her tongue- che
che..accha theek hai. kya karna hai? par agar main gir gayi aur langri ho gayi
to sab aapki jimedaari. Dutta grinned- in sickness and in health. Up on trees
or on the ground. Ab sunn..ye pao yahan rakh aur wo wahan. He directed her to
step down slowly and she followed him closely but at the last step her sari got
caught in her toe ring and she tripped. But dutta steadied her and brought her
down safely supporting her. She closed her eyes tightly and held on him for a
second and released him blushing at the thought of others watching them But Dutta
kept his arms around her not caring of the spectacle.
Dutta saw the kid grin broadly then breaking in giggles. Dutta
glared at him- Kya hai? Meri biwi hai!
………………………..To be continued
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