Posted: 06 March 2011 at 2:04pm | IP Logged
Dear Abhiya lovers
This is not very typical of me to address somebody as "Dear" or clarify myself. But after seeing that most of you are so upset, Pia almost forced me to write this letter. You know how she ends up making me do things that I otherwise will never do.
I know that all of you feel that I should trust Pia and tell her everything. I, myself, want to do that as then it will be so much easier for me to hide Pia from Sid. I just have to tell her and she will be away from him.
But this is very complicated- more complicated than you can imagine. And considering that Sid is involved, it is very very dangerous too. One small mistake on my part and I will loose Pia. I am finding it very hard to handle the fact that Sid is back after 200 years with being stronger, more powerful and more evil than ever. This is also true that he will brutally use the fact that I am in love after 200 years.
Who can wish more than me that Abhay-Pia story happens. But the truth is I can't even hope as whenever I hoped, my destiny took everything away that was attached to that hope.
I find it very hard to hide my love from Pia also. As when I see her, my eyes, my dead heart, my face, everything screams that I love her. Every inch of my soul wants to be with Pia. I melt when I see her. I die of pain when she get a scratch. My dead heart cries when she has tears in her eyes. I want her to trust me but I have been hiding things from her. She makes my heart beat.
I know I have hurt Pia again and again just to prove that I don't love her or just to prove that when I slipped in my efforts, it was not love. But Trust me when I say that my heart bleeds internally when I think that I am the one to hurt her.
For TRP reasons, I can't share the detailed reasons and the Abhay-Sid history with you to explain why I am hiding the truth from Pia. But I promise that I will be back in your good books, SOON. Till that time, bear with me.
Again "Please" is not in my vocabulary but considering how upset you are with me I say - Please don't be mad at me.
I want to share what Kiranni wrote back to Abhay on behalf of Abhiya fans
We abhiya lovers totally understand that you are going through tough time right now. We know life has been horrid and unfair to you and taken away everything that was precious to you. But marne ke dar se hum jindagi jeena toh nahin chod sakte na?? Though life has been so unfair to you, you have lived and endured so much pain with so much of courage, that my eyes automatically look down with so much respect. But you need to give your life one more chance. Piya is your promise of light. As far as I know, you very much believe in the strength of love. If only you would open up to piya and tell her the truth, no matter how powerful or evil sid is, he will not be able to take anythign away from you. Abhay and piya are inseperable, and they can walk till the end of world together. Destiny has given you one more change with love, grab it and embrace piya with all the love you are capable of. You yourself know that for piya, it's either you or it's nothing. Trust her and your love and tell her the truth. and yes, express your love to piya. It is something she has been dying to hear from you. And believe us, the safest place piya can ever be is when she is with you. Don't push her away.
and don't forget..abhiya lovers' faith in you is unflagging. No matter what happens, they will always be by your and piya's side. Always and Forever!! Let go of the pain, our hearts bleed too when we see you in pain. You just need to trust yourself, piya and the destiny, sid's so called confidence of making you vulnerable will shake automatically. Abhiya love has so much strength that it can bring someone like Sid on his knees too. We can never be mad at you, no matter what happens. We all love you with all our hearts. AbhIya FOREVER!!!
Dear Abhiya fans
It is encouraging to see that all of you place so much trust and faith in me. It is yours and Pia's unconditional love that I see a hope in the eternal darkness around me.
Will you understand when I say that I don't have a life? I am already dead but only one hope of Maithili's promise always kept me moving over last 200 years. She kept her promise. She couldn't come herself but she sent me a hope in the form of Pia. Pia is more precious to me than Maithili's memories. How can I even think of taking a risk for the only hope that I have?
Jeena bemane hai agar mein Pia ko zinda na rakh saka. Meri har saans uski hifazat ke liye hai. Mujhe nahi maloom ke kismat mujhse kya chahti hai par mujhe apni kismat par vishwas nahi hai. Mujhe hi kuch karna hoga - jabtak mein kar sakta hoon.
I know Pia is very strong at heart but she is very tender from the body. It is a human body which Sid can finish not even in a second. Believe me when I say that Sid is the most dangerous Vampire around. He is evil and he knows no boundaries of evilness.
If I express my love to Pia what do I have to offer her. I can't even offer her a normal life as anything that involves me is dark, dangerous and supernatural. The more I involve her with me the more danger I put her in. I can see the love in her eyes and you all know that I am afraid of that love. I know that love can even break my hardest will power. This is the reason I want to make her believe that I don't believe in power of love. Then how can I admit my love to her?
But I promise that I will use everything I have - my powers, efforts, breaths to save Pia from Sid or any danger.
Edited by Ritz93 - 07 March 2011 at 8:59am