Posted: 19 March 2011 at 5:08am | IP Logged
Hi all, hope you're well this bright & sunny (and very rare in the UK!) weekend
I've written a couple more scenes carrying on from the last one but trying to explain how Nivi is feeling. It should lead us up to where we are now in the current track and i'm still writing a couple more scenes that take place after Thursday and Friday's epi's which i'll try and post tonight, if not tomorrow.
So this was again one really long scene which i split into 2 for ease of reading and i wrote it the way i did for Ashly (who suggested it after reading the last one) and for Moni - i hope ke tere dil vich tand pe gayi reading some of the second scene especially Moni jaan
Hope you all like and do comment, thanks!!
Nivi was on her way back to Viren but her heart felt heavy and her mind was almost made up. Her head had decided but still her heart was trying to find reasons to change her mind or delay the inevitable. She thought back on the past couple of days with Dadi, it had given her the perfect chance to think things through and reach her decision. She had been wavering before she'd left and Viren's words just before she'd gone had really thrown her into confusion. She'd been so happy for a while, thinking things might be ok till she remembered her reasons. She again thought back to the day when Viren had said in front of everyone that they were going to get a divorce and felt a sharp pain at the thought.
She had been so hurt that after everything, this was what he wanted of her. The fact that it had happened in front of her entire family made it even worse; the shock and pain on Dadi's face were etched on her mind. Nivi's heart then made her remember Viren's words just before she'd left with Dadi two days ago and a voice in her mind whispered that maybe that was the real Viren, who'd wanted her to stay... but she shook her head and told herself that no, in his anger Viren had told the truth. He'd said he'd never loved her, it was all an act, their marriage had all been a lie; the thought made her feel physical pain and she bent over feeling it go through her. She knew in her heart that she loved Viren and that she would always love him but could she trust him? Once the answer would have been an instant and wholehearted yes but now she wasn't at all sure, she didn't know if that trust would ever return but she knew she couldn't remain there while it was gone. She felt the car jerk and she realised they were turning in to the driveway; she wiped the tears on her cheeks and tried to arrange her face so that she looked happy. This was the last time she was coming home to this house she thought to herself sadly, soon she would leave for good
Viren was so happy that Nivi was coming back two days early, he wanted to run to the door and carry her up to their room but he was shivering too hard to even get out of bed! He'd managed to last one day without her before he'd fallen ill just as she'd predicted; he'd tried ignoring the sneezing and coughing on the first day and it even seemed to work but then this morning he'd woken up feeling shivery and Vandana had come looking for him when he hadn't come down for breakfast. She'd told him that Nivi had called to say she was coming back earlier than planned and would be here in by tonight; he'd been so happy but also a little sad that she hadn't called him to tell him herself. She hadn't called him at all in the two days she'd been gone and when he'd called her she had said she was helping prepare something so couldn't talk. He knew he maybe should be worried but his head hurt too much to think anything other than at least he'd see her soon. His eyes went to the bedroom door again and he wished he had the energy to go down and meet her at the front door like he wanted. Instead he curled up tighter under the blankets trying to get warm.
Nivi walked into the house and despite everything she'd just been telling herself for the past two days and in the car, there was still a part of her that was stupidly disappointed not to see Viren waiting for her! She pushed it down and focused on Vandana who had come to see her in. 'Kaisi hai Nivi, tera suffar kaisa raha?' she asked after she'd hugged her. Nivi's eyes stopped searching behind Vandana and she said 'haan chachiji, sab kuch teek raha. Dadi seedhi ghar chali gayi. Ghar mein sab kaise hai?' Vandana looked a little like she was choosing her words carefully. 'Sab teek hai, lekin Viren ko...' Nivi felt her heart stop for a second and then start up again painfully; it seemed like Vandana was taking too long to speak so she cut in, unable to help herself, asking 'kya hua Viren ko?!' Vandana quickly replied 'kuch nahi beta, usse thoda sardi aur bukhaar chad gaya tha kal raat. Soh raha hai ab' Nivi instantly felt bad for wondering where he was; she was already walking towards the stairs with Vandana following 'aapne mujhe bataya kyu nahi jab maine phone kiya tha? Kuch kaya usne? Aur dawa?'
Vandana stopped on the stairs and Nivi had to force her feet to stop walking to Viren and listen as Vandana said she'd just been about to make soup for Viren and that there was some medicine for his temperature by the bed but he hadn't had any since this morning. Nivi told her distractedly to leave the soup and that she'd do it and hurried to their room; she wasn't thinking about anything except Viren, she had to see for herself that he was okay. A voice in her head was asking why are you so bothered, you'll be leaving him and them all soon, maybe you should distance yourself from him from now...but she ignored it. How could she not help him? The thought was unbearable to her. She told herself that once he was better she'd stick to her decision and speak to the family.
Edited by anjaani07 - 19 March 2011 at 5:24am