It's
a not a song based one-shot, though the lyrics are used in this. I
haven't used the theme of anything, except love. The story is told in a
different manner. Pain and melancholy are used to describe what love is.
In
this one-shot, the nature intervenes the course of misery and creates
another sort of romance. When pain comes out of your eyes, nature always
soothes the pain. But what if, she can't... breathe? Can she learn to
breathe... without him?
I see your face in my
mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
I got into my car and locked it properly to avoid
going back. As soon as I saw the car moving away, a tear slid down my face. And
then… many of them followed the suit. I lowered down my windows, so that I
could feel the fresh breath of air, engulfing me in a hug. I needed love… and
nature had that in abundance.
A cold rush of air breathed in my space. I wasn't
alone anymore. The winds were breathing along with me. I badly needed to let
myself go… and so I did. I don't know, right now, all I want to do is to cry
like there's no tomorrow and weep my heart out.
Music starts playin'
like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
I played my music player because songs are the best
medicines for the pain. I played the song and immediately the music of
'our-song' came on radio. I changed the channel after wiping off a fresh set of
tears. A soft and melancholic song started playing and I got another reason to
cry. Sad songs make you sadder. I guess.
The winds were blowing softly and slowly. The night
was as dark as one could be. It seemed like the moon was ashamed of something,
so it took shelter behind the clouds. The stars had witnessed it all. The lugubrious
night hid it all.
And we know it's never
simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
I let my tears fall in a queue. Some of them settled
on my lips and softly kissed me. Though, the salty tears were the last thing in
my mind. Right now, the pain in my chest was greater than I ever felt. I couldn't
breathe. I tried breathing but I felt choked.
The winds blew softly against my curls and I felt like
someone was caressing my cheeks and trying to wipe off my tears. The winds
created a soothing rhythm on my cheeks and I could hear the soft whispers of
the wind.
Never wanted this,
never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
It's never easy. I never wanted to be this hurt. I
never thought I would get this much involved. I was so lost in my thoughts,
that I didn't even notice a bump in the road. A sudden jerk brought me back to
reality.
My long hair flew back and I felt a gush of air,
chilling me to the bones. I tried to stop feeling so desolate and alone. But,
instead I felt numb by all those over-powering emotions. I felt paralyzed with
grief. I felt soreness in my heart. I couldn't breathe.
And we know it's never
simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
I stopped my car and got out of it. I could not
remain there any longer. I felt suffocated like in a prison. I was agitated
with myself. How could I feel like this? Why did I feel like this for him? I
could blame myself for all I want, but the truth was… I loved him.
Since the very moment I met him, I have always loved
him. It wasn't easy for me to break off things with him. But I couldn't do this
to myself anymore. I couldn't pretend that I was happy when actually, I was in
pain.
It's two a.m., feelin'
like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
He was my best friend, but I fell for him. Breaking
off my friendship was the only option I had. I had to protect myself. I knew I
was falling for someone, who wasn't there to catch me. And I knew that if he
ever came to know about my feelings, he would feel bad for me.
I never wanted his sympathy. I never wanted him to
pity me. I had to break my friendship before he could come to know about my
feelings, which are getting stronger day by day. I had to. I knew that. I just
wish it was that easy.
And we know it's never
simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh
I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
The rain started falling and I realized I wasn't
alone again. The rain had started breathing with me. I loved dancing in rain. But
I never thought that one day would come, when I would sit down on my knees in
middle of nowhere, break down completely... and cry.
As the rains soaked me completely, I realized that I
can't live without him. He is the reason for my sanity. He is the reason for my
life. He is my soul. I can't breathe without him. He is the reason I breathed. He
is my breath…
I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
But no matter what, I had to learn. Learn to breathe…
without him. I know I have hurt him immensely and I am sorry for hurting him,
but this is the only way I can save my heart from breaking into pieces. I know
I am being utterly selfish. I can't breathe without him, but I know… I have to.
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That's it.
I wrote it down yesterday night because my hands were itching to write down something. And I hope that it came out fine :)
Also published here: http://mahak-thefragranceoflife.blogspot.com/2011/12/breathe.html
I really hope that you like it. Please leave your reviews. Constructive Criticisms are always welcome :)
Sincerely,
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