Posted: 27 January 2011 at 10:54am | IP Logged
Ranjha ranjha kardi ve main aape ranjha hoyi
Ranjha ranjha saddo ni mainu heer na aakho koyi
Ranjha Me'N which Me'N Ranjhay Which,
Mayko'N Hor dhiyan na Koi,
I have been chanting the name of Ranjha so much that I myself have
Call me Ranjha, there is nobody with the name Heer here
Ranjha is in me, I am in Ranjha,
no other thought exists in my mind.
Last night while listening to this song the imge of Pia and she looking for Abhay kept on running in mind. Its a beautiful and emotional song highlighting the essence of love and obsession.But these lines are from a poem by Bulleh Shah.
Piya to has reached that level of love when it becomes obsession. All she can ever think about is Abhay.Like always Piya was running and searching for Abhay. Looking for him every where. Because without him now, she feels incomplete. Its Abhay everywhere for her. Nothing effects her the way Abhay can. Nothing hurts her more than Abhay going away and only he can bring a smile on her face. Him not being near fills her heart with immense pain and spreads in the chest. Its almost chocking. But nothing can be done to relieve that pain. A strange emptiness has nestled in her heart. Everything, every momnet seems hollow without him. Its as if the time has come to stand still. And until he comes her world is not motion. He is present in her every thought, in every breath she takes, in her every single heart beat. He runs deep in her. Her love is such that she is becoming him. He has started to grow on her. And a point will come when there will be no Piya...only Abhay and his love left.
And its scary. To love someone so much that you start to lose your self.
And its not just Piya but Abhay too is in the same condition. Although him being not human, allows him to have more control over his emotions but his heart also knows no rest without Piya. Her thoughts and her safety constantly storm his mind. Making him more restless.
But for some reason in all this i feel the worst for Piya. Her obsessive love is responsible for the condition she is in today. And even as lies fighting a battle between life and death all her thoughts are about him and him only. Her heart seeks his love. She keeps calling his name. With every breath she takes she gets closer to death. But there is no fear in her eyes of death, only fear is that she may not be able to see his face before closing her eyes forever. There is also hope mixed with fear. Hope that he may come and give closure to her restless heart. So she may atleast die in peace. So that atleast in those last moments he was with her. Knowing that those moments were between them and only them. And all that he felt during it was for her only. And she would close her eyes with his image, his memory,his love preserved in her mind, heart and soul.
Today's epi really sad and moving. AbhIya connection and thier love always manages to touches our heart. But this post is not about that...actually not sure what it is about. lol. Just felt writing. It's about what love does to one. Loving some one so deeply that you start to lose yourself and become them. And even as you near death the only thought that accompany's you to the next world is of your lover. Also the song really touched my heart so wanted to share it with you guys. Comments, critisim, jo bhi do sab manzur hai! :P
And Piya IS Going to Survive I Know. It's just a...thought. Sorry if it sound confusing. Please ignore if you dont like it. =)
Edited by sugaryanu - 27 January 2011 at 11:19am