Yeh hosla kaise juke
Yeh arzoo kaise ruke -2
Manzil mushkil to kya
Dhundla sahil to kya
Tanha yeh dil to kya
Ho hooo
Raah pe kaante bikhre agar
Uspe toh phir bhi chalna he hai
Sham chupa le suraj magar
Raat ko ek din dhalna he hai
Rut ye tal jaayegi
Himmat rang layegi
Subha phir aayegi
Ho hooo
Yeh hosla kaise juke
Yeh arzoo kaise ruke -2
Hogi Hame Jo
Rehmat Ata
Dhup kategi saaye
tale
Apni Khuda se Hai
ye Dua
Manzil Lagale
Humko Gale
Jurrat so baar
rahe
Uncha ikraar rahe
Zinda har pyaar
rahe
Ho hooo
Yeh hosla kaise juke
Yeh arzoo kaise ruke -2
I had given up when I
heard the last bit of the news. I had no courage to face it anymore. Hadn't I
dealt with enough when it came to my life? I had almost lost the one I loved to
death, I had lost myself in this mad rush of world and today the lady standing
in front of me gave me the news that I was about to lose the little one that
had not even entered the world. I had to tell her, but I didn't know how. I had
made sure that I give her everything she wanted, I had made sure that I had
smiled even though the pain in my heart felt like it would tear me into two . I
didn't know how to face her but then I had let her sleep when I had walked out of the
room. She was sleeping on the bed with a smile on her face. I still hadn't told
her what the doctor had said earlier that day. I was scared. Scared of how she
will react, I knew her decision and it was making me more scared. I was scared
of losing her and the doctor had told me if she wouldn't let the baby go I
would lose her. I was not ready for it.
I had dreamt of a life with her and here just one incident
had turned my life upside down. I was on the brink of losing her. No I couldn't
do that. I had to tell her everything and had to make her realize her decision
affects not one but three lives. Either she would lose one life or she would be
ready to take the blame of taking a soul from a man's life.
I couldn't do much till I had told her everything and to
tell her the bitter truth I had no strength. I couldn't face her, she would
find out what was going in my mind, no I didn't want that. All I had to do is
stay away from her and to stay away from her meant shatter all her dreams coz
all her dreams were to be with me and what I was going to do break all her
dreams. I had no other solution to the problem right now. I couldn't bring
myself to tell her what was going on within me or what the doctor had told me.
I needed courage and the correct words to tell her but words, I laughed an
empty laugh, wish I knew how to be a diplomat and play with words and tell her.
It was my weakness, the biggest weakness MAAN SINGH KHURANA had and today I
regretted it. For the first time I felt that my being a recluse was costing on
my new found relationship.
I had gone to office to avoid her questions the whole day, I
had even kept her mind aloof at the dining table and now I was to head back
home where she was waiting with open arms to make two bodies to one. I had to
tell her that we cant become one in body till she was in danger. Nothing mattered
to more than her happiness and knowing her decision I had only few months to
keep her happy.
Few Months..i gasped at what my brain had just come up with.
I was to lose her forever in few months. No that couldn't be possible, it can't
be true. She had promised me last night on the sacred fire that she will stay
with me for next 7 births and here she was ready to leave me in next 7 months. That
was a cruel joke the destiny was playing on me.
I had to get out of this and convince her to save herself but
I knew that was next to impossible. To deter her from her decision was
impossible. Maan she is your wife. I shook my head at that. Obviously she was
my wife she might be totally contrasting from what I am but this one aspect of
her I regretted to be like mine.
It was late into the night when she had come back to the
room. I had to tell her everything now before she took any step.
M: Geet..
G: Ji..
She turned to look at me. She looked like an angel to me in
that pink suit of hers. I held her hand and took her out to the terrace. She looked
at me with confusion and questions in those almond shaped brown eyes of hers,
but I needed to speak to her.
We reached the terrace and I just stood there leaving her
hand. I needed to collect myself before I could say anything.
She stood beside me waiting for me to speak. I was still
looking at the moon.
M: Geet agar tumhe
kabhi mujhe ya..
G: Maan..aisa kabhi sochiyega bhi mat..mere liye aapse
zayada mehatavpoorna is duniya mein koi nahi hai..
M: Hai.. and I turned and looked at her.
She was confused and shook her head. Nahi..she said with
determination.
I placed a hand on her stomach.
She stepped back immediately.
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