Annie's Diary: My life; My Times - Upd

This day - still undated

Tears rolled down my cheeks
I don't know when
I don't know why
All that I knew
Was that this is a trench
I dug for myself

A soldier
That went AWOL (Absent without Leave)
Once outside the War room
Forgot my brief

Now having been tagged by the brazen enemy
Browbeaten and shamed
I should be ready to be court martial-ed

But I am NOT GONNA BE
A CASUALTY
In this WAR

The soldier licks his/her wounds
But never abandons battle
After I recoup
I shall get back to the battle terrain
And seize control

A war is not lost until the last bullet is fired...

- Anne's Dairy - tonight's entry
Jan 31, 2011




Undated

I have an innocent understanding of this world. Believe in it and it shall be true to you. Hold it in the palm of your hand and look at it benignly and it shall envelop you and cherish you, nurture you.

Regard it as your own and it shall keep you in its fold protected.

Was I wrong?

Could I have behaved any differently had the circumstances or people involved been different.

My life had always been swept away by the currents. I have adapted to the times, in fact, I am a reflection of the times.

To love and to be able to love without a single doubt crossing your mind is not a sin.

To want to partake of that love is it sin?

I have been true and I am true to myself and to the ones that love me, purported to love me or claimed to love me.

Is it wrong to believe in human beings, trust in the word, trust that men of honor and noble men are not a rarity but could be a possibility.

Yes! You say I fell prey to some man's machinations.

That I fell prey to lust.

Let it be infatuation.

But for me it was love at that point of time.

Did I take precautions that I would not fall pregnant?

No, I did not!!

But would I keep the child were I to fall preggers?

Yeah, I know, you would consider me frivolous if I told you I would take medical recourse.

Tell me, except in fairy tales and tales of Sages and Saints, no woman needs to follow through what she does not want to.

You think me cold, so be it.

I know who I am, I am not gonna live by your judgment calls.

These days more than 70% of teen pregnancies that are made in haste go into the abortion room and not the labor room.

By that token, half of the teens must be murderers.

In fact, I'd rather my kid does not pay for my mistakes or faults.

I'd rather have a kid when I am more capable of handling my own life and when I am on my own feet, independent and better able to take care of myself and my responsibilities.

You call it shunning, I call it reality, I call it pragmatism.

- stopping for now
Anwesha writing for myself

Edited by bDgT - 13 years ago

i need to think before i write :))

Hmmmm I need to think about it...🤔...

On that note Jyo, I don' think even Geet was right in what she did with the baby angle!! Lemme ask you, had she not had a MSK and a job that is secure with MSK where would a 12th educated girl without family and home, give comfort or luxury to a baby? How can she fulfill the baby's basic needs and necessities

On another note, education has nothing to do with being cheated. Let me take the statistics here, there are about 34% of educated women who fall prey to some charlatan or some scheme and combine that with genderless educated - so many people have become victims of financial fraud and so many other frauds in the world if you open any newspaper. In fact more than 50% if you take the housing collapse into consideration.
Edited by bDgT - 13 years ago

Hey Bri....Loved the Topic...I dont know if what i am gonna state has anything to do with what you have written but this is what i feel

What's the difference between Geet and Ani, except that Geet came from a more conservative family, and her immediate family was present to witness her marriage with Dev, regarding which everything was FAKE and Ani comes from quite a modern upbringing who gets away with what she wants, and did not have any witness at all to the so called marriage with Arjun.

Just compare both the situation the Girls have been in….You can witness History Repeat…..

The whole Geet-Dev Thing takes place in a matter of 25-27 days….

The whole Ani-Arjun matter too takes place in a time frame of 25-27 days…max 32

Geet was made to believe that Dev truly loves her, he convinces her that he is blessed to get Geet as his partner etc and so She builds up all her FUTURE LIFE based on that only to be shattered….

Same happens with Ani; she too is made to believe that she is the center of Arjun's Universe… that she is the one for him, and so she too dreams of a life with him based on what he said…will be shattered or not time will show

For Geet she believed that she was married and she was giving herself to her husband…Was he her husband NO!!!

For Ani she too believed that she was getting married to Arjun and she was giving herself to the one she thought was her life partner her soul mate….

Both these times the Girls believed that the Guys they were giving their selves to were honest and true to their words…..

And so they both have been the Victim of the same, just the motive they were used was different one for self Interest, one for the sake of Revenge….

What happened with Geet after she finds out Dev cheated her, what she does, how she takes control of her life is what we expect every other woman to do, if they fall prey for the fake marriage and atrocities in the name of family honor….

What Ani will do when she finds out, she has been used will def be something to watch out for….

 

Just because she got intimate with Arjun on the day of her brothers wedding, she is bashed left right and center, I feel that's unfair….. Its Sad Ki Ani is being treated so rudely……

Both the cases are same, then why was Geet Sympathized and why is Ani scrutinized????

I am not defending Ani….I really wish she would have boldly said to Arjun ki they can't do this…..

But at the end of the day she for once just believed and trusted the person she felt was genuinely in love with her…

Love Viji😊

 

Edited by rickks - 13 years ago

@ Bri, i know i am talking out of Context here.....But Geet isn't a 12th Standard Educated Girl....She was doing her BA when they decided to get her Married....and by the age 18 its very Much Possible that she was in her 2nd year....

Its mentioned in the show as well that she was doing her BA , Just thought of adding my bit coz i read your post to Jyo😊

Annie has put herself in that position but after watching yesterday epi I can't help but feel for her. Annie is young and somewhere naive. she let a guy convince her that he loves her. I don't believe in regrets. Everything that has been done and annie should be prepared and move on. It can be a learning experience for her.

Res

Viji: Gaffe!!I wanted to say 12th passed!!

Smitha: How many 18 yr. old's the world over who sleep and get pregnant with a one night stand need to go for a pregnancy? I don't think it is necessary for a woman to act all matronly/motherly/mamta etc., to be called a woman or to live her life
Edited by bDgT - 13 years ago

Originally posted by: bDgT

On that note Jyo, I don' think even Geet was right in what she did with the baby angle!! Lemme ask you, had she not had a MSK and a job that is secure with MSK where would a 12th educated girl without family and home, give comfort or luxury to a baby? How can she fulfill the baby's basic needs and necessities

On another note, education has nothing to do with being cheated. Let me take the statistics here, there are about 34% of educated women who fall prey to some charlatan or some scheme and combine that with genderless educated - so many people have become victims of financial fraud and so many other frauds in the world if you open any newspaper. In fact more than 50% if you take the housing collapse into consideration.