Maan quickly just throws the
journal to the side as it brought back memories of his pain and suffering.
Maan: I don't want to relive
my pain. I don't. (maan whispers
with pain in his voice).
But geet what happened to
Maan is looking out the
window letting the fresh air calm his mind and soul. But still the image of cheerful geet and the lines written
in blood kept popping into his head.
"This geet in this picture
died because of you!"
Who brought you to this state
of hopelessness geet! WHOOOO???
Maan hits the wall with
anger. He couldn't see geet in
pain and he wanted to know more about what happened to geet.
Maan looks over his shoulder
to where the battered journal laid on the floor. He knew that the answers to his questions were probably in
that journal but he didn't want to go through that book for two reasons.
First it was not right. It is geet's privacy and he can't just
go through someone's private journal without asking.
Secondly, he was afraid of
what was written in there. He was
scared of reliving the pain through geet's eyes if there was more pain
But Maan deliberated and thought
that he wants to help geet and in order to do so he has to find out the source
and cause of her condition, which is probably in that journal. So it is not so bad to look through her
journal since he is doing it for a good cause he thought.
Maan slowly walks up to the
journal and his hand even shakes a little as he bends towards it to pick it up.
He finally picks it back up
and sits on a chair. He takes in a
deep breath and embraces himself for whatever is in store in this journal.
Maan opens the journal to the
first page which states, " How love changed my life" , but the word "changed"
was crossed out again with blood and instead the word "ruined" was written on top.
So the first page read, "How
love ruined my life!"
Maan takes another deep breath
and dives into the journals, which were filled with poems.
(Please read the poems and
the few notes I wrote after them'or else you may be confused on what is written
in the journal and what maan finds out).
First poem was called
"What Love Is"
It is Love that gives me
to change and grow and learn.
It is Love that guides me on
and helps me choose each
It is Love that gives me
to stand against my fears;
to open up my heart to you,
to let you see my tears.
It is Love that gives me
trust and hope
when little thing go wrong.
When distance stands between
it is Love that keeps me
It is Love that offers
and a friendship that is
How wonderful that I can
a Love like this with you!
(this poem was all crossed
out with blood)
"I think Im falling in love"
I I know what to say or what
Im falling faster each day
If I pretended and acted like
Could it be possible that you
I don't wanna lose you I love
you too much
But these feelings get
stronger whenever we touch
Im all confused about the way
Maybe these feelings aren't
Perhaps I dream and all in my
the person you are makes me
want you instead
Theres only one thing I know Is
I cant help but thinking im
falling inlove with you
poem was also all crossed out with blood)
skips a few pages'he did not want to accept love as a good thing, because all
it brought him was pain, only pain.
What I Love About You
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you
(this poem was also
crossed out in blood)
Maan's grip is getting tighter and tighter as he reads geet's emotions for someone else...but he contains himself and controls himself to read more.
Maan: Still no
name'i should keep on reading.
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will
(also crossed out in blood)
THE DAY I GOT STRUCK BY LOVE'S POISON.
THE DAY I REALIZED THE TRUE NATURE OF LOVE.
It hurts me everyday
I don't know what to say
You make me cry
but each day,I try and get
You said you loved me
What made you lie?
Why did you do it? Do you
like to see me cry?
You said you'd die if we
But all of a sudden you just
You don't know each night,I
and how hard each day,I try.
Your words sting like knives
Its happiness from me you
I hope you feel bad,I hope
you can't sleep
I hate you,
my depression is so much,you
can not measure.
Why did you leave me why did
everyday,I try and get by,but
all I can do.
It's about 3 o' clock,and I
All I can do is weep
I've fallen to deep all I can
do now is cry myself to sleep.
I can't sleep.
The nightmares of him leaving
haunts me so deep.
My eyes burn from being so
or maybe its from all the
in the dark without a thought
keep me company.
Its like him in my dreams
never meant to be,
well so it seems.
I close my eyes to try to
but the vision of a black
so I grab a pen.
And start to write,
I don't even turn on a light.
I want to stay in the dark
to reflect the vision of my
I see the tears start to fall
on the paper thats pure and
I open the curtain to welcome
I am the moon,
it's always alone in sky,
and sometimes no one even
Maan couldn't take it anymore. There was so much pain hidden
inside geet that he never noticed.
She looks like she has moved on and has become independent, but inside
she carries so much pain and hurt.
Maan also noticed that geet never mentioned his name. Never. Maybe she never wants to be reminded of him he thought.
Maan skips a few more pages and stops at the page where the title
caught his eye.
I met him a stranger
me,?I'm drowning..?But no one was there,?Until he found me'
All of a sudden Geet screams. Maan snaps out of his deep thoughts and
throws the journal aside and runs to geet's side.
"How could you do this to me ?I loved
you. I loved you" Geet cries and screams as she wakes up from her nightmare as
Maan hugs geet and cradles her in his arms.
Maan: It's okay. He is not here to hurt you
anymore. I won't let him or
anybody hurt you anymore. I promise.
Geet: "I am so alone so empty. The world has turned its whole back on
me." She cries.
Maan: Your not alone anymore. I am
here. I will always be here.
Geet: Not again maan. Not again. I
won't give in, not again"
Maan: Give in to what geet?
Geet: Why are you here? Why are you
trying to help me? It's just going to make everything harder'she murmurs and
geet again doses off.
Maan just stood there and hugged and
cradled geet trying to shield and protect her from her pain.
But he couldn't answer her question
"why was he here???"
Geet I know what your going
through'believe me I do. I won't let anything touch you...i just wish I knew
who did this to you.
He decides to go back to the journal
to find out the name of that person who broke geet's heart who brought her
pain. And to finish the poem that
he started, which ended with "until I met him". " Until who geet met"? maan
So many more questions Maan had.
He puts geet down and decides to go
read more of the journal. But as
he turns something grabs his hand.
"maan" geet murmurs.
Maan turns around thinking geet is
awake. But no she was still asleep.
"maan please don't you leave me too.
Don't leave me". Geet maybe able
to fight her emotions when she is awake but this is her subconscious talking
'her heart speaking.
So many emotions were going through
maan that he couldn't even comprehend. Anger, hate, pain, love, and care were
all rushing through maan's body.
Without even giving it a thought he
holds onto geet's hand and doesn't let her go. Doesn't let her feel alone.
He totally forgets about reading more
of the journal. The only thing running through his mind was to comfort geet'was
to care for geet.
Little did he knew that if he
continued reading that poem he may have found out that geet has feelings for
maan and feels hurt and used from maan because of the dare. And he even could
of have found out what geet meant by "I wont give in". but I guess fate has its own plans.
rest of the poem was
help me,?I'm drowning..?But no one was there,?Until he found me
in a Sea,?The most dreadful sea of all.?The Sea of Insanity,?One of which we
all have evolved.??I was drowning,?Deeper and deeper.?But then he found
Feels like ecstacy,
saved me even though you were a stranger. How could you use me like this??How
could you abuse my heart??How could you chose to tear it apart.??You used me
for your pleasure.?You used me for personal gain.?You ended it with no
reason,?You left me with a stain.??How could you use me like this??How could
you kiss me like you cared??Why can't you give me a reason??You fooled me with
the way you stared.??Not again though, Not again will I give in to the name of
found these poems online so I don't want to take credit for them).
Both geet and maan body's go on full alert as they started
to feel aroused with each other with just a small peck on the lips and not to
mention the proximity of their bodies.
(i hope i didn't confuse anybody with the poems about what happened to geet. i just wanted to show how geet expresses herself through poems...if you guys have any questions then let me know and i will answer them).
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Edited by zeynab111 - 13 March 2011 at 3:57pm