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Overwhelming Love & Pain

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Overwhelming Love & Pain



A love that consumes me,
A love so powerful,
And so overwhelming,
That I fear if I were without it,
My heart would no longer have a meaning
To its existence,



'Love has to be an expression of your being, not an emotion. Emotion is very fragile, very changing. One moment it seems that is all. Another moment you are simply empty. But that kind of love rarely exists, because very few people ever reach to their being.'


Maan's love for Geet is not a emotion but a reflection of his whole being ... his soul.



Rejoicing in the air filled with sweetness of the upcoming celebration ...the moment his dreams will come true , he will bring his bride home , make his Geet for forever His...
Cherished as much as this moment was for him , he had his own fears too ... fear of the unknown , fear of destiny that has always been cruel to them..though as always he is ready to battle with it ..but on stake this time is so much to loose that the thought itself was overbearing to him


Having voiced his fears to the Divine power & prayed to bless them of togetherness ..he reaches Geet to tie the 'taveez' that he brought for her safety..And the site that greets him freezes him to death...he finds Geet battling with life.


Baffled at her state he rushes to help her &  gets  her to the hospital in mad rush .

Love, the strongest and deepest of all, the harbinger of hope, of joy, of power.....right now made him feel weak like never before , lost like never before & helpless like never before .


Consumed by a sense of defeat he seeks refuge in 'Faith' in the 'taveez' , in  Geet's faith that Lord will make everything alright if we with pure heart unburden our fears to Him.

Maan does it for her, their baby & their life that now was all in the hands of the Lord ..the Doctor having declared to him that only one of the two...his heart or his soul could be saved....


Decision to choose between Love & Trust ...Love that he has for Geet & the Trust that she has in him.


The dreaded 'moment' he prayed to evade ..arrives ...

'Baby or Geet?'


GEET he instantaneously replied.


The 'moment' having passed ... nothing flows after that , everything comes to a stop, dead still.


Like a phantom he walks alone through the hospital's corridor towards darkness ...


His love for her that is past the mind , beyond the heart  & into is soul....engulfs him in a dark shadow of guilt ... a guilt to have chosen to save Geet's life  over the Baby's ..he feels he has broken Geet's trust in him & the thought itself bleeds his soul.

Trust that he had earned as both a witness, fellow warrior  & Saviour of Geet's & baby's life at the hands of her family, society & destiny.


Maan Singh Khurana for the first time felt something that  can't  be describe but it filled his heart & whole being. His deep love which now evoked feelings of fear, anguish, pain, helplessness and frustration  at the choice  that he had to voice ..a choice that infact was never in his hand.





Hugging itself in the darkness
Crying in the shadows
Whispering words that can never be heard
In the darkest hollows of this world
There stood a  lost broken soul



A hollow feeling that takes over him , that does not go away at the news that 'his faith won, he won' ...that both Geet & the Baby are fine ..does not go away with Dadi's comforting hug & warm smile ...


He is all cold inside, something in him has died....


Though he feels its Geet's trust that he killed ... but its his own trust in himself that was dying, trust that he could never ever wrong Geet ...

He feels disgusted in himself that he had voiced to end Geet's dream....A dream that  now to her is  life in itself , life that is now breathing in her womb.

His conscious having traveled through uncounted time & space makes him fall more more in his own eyes ...





There's a hole in my heart- A sharp pain in my head.
Something is missing inside; I feel like I'm dead.
My whole life seems like it's crashing down,
How can someone live with their heart torn?



Days back when they together had seen the baby for the first time , in awe, love & blessing his eyes had refused to look away from the monitor .... even the tears that made its appearance first time had no power to get him to move his eyes from the bundle of joy ....


But now..


Overridden by the guilt levied on him by his cruel fate he finds it impossible to look at the baby or meet Geet's expectant eyes ..that were seeking assurance from him,
 him of all the people to tell her if her baby was fine ...

The baby's sweetly mild heart beats & Geet's motherly concern were deafening him..grounding him to death.





I try to hide
But you just keep finding me
I try to run
But you are the one I bump
I try to forget
But you just smile and say

'Trying to run from yourself
Isn't going to get you anywhere'



Wedding preparations having began....the fairytale dream of hers coming true but one thing she misses seeing is the same joy in his eyes  that now sings in her soul


He is sad, unhappy , breaking down is all she can see when he attempts to smile at her, smile that fails to reach his eyes


His eyes that are mirror to his soul now revealed nothing to her but darkness & gloom...unable to get an answer to what is bothering him so much she makes him promise to her that he will smile & rejoice in sweet moments of bliss that life is now offering to them.


He promises to her with a heavy heart that like always he will make this experience to memorable for her, but within him he knows this time he wont be able to be true to his words, his promise to her & this further heaps the burden of guilt in him....





I stand alone unnoticed from a world sheltered around me vulnerable within my circumstances beyond me,
regrettable situation and time knows not of me
unforeseen changes as my life leaves me,
lost within it's supplication bound unto me,
I stand alone with my face hidden by shame for it consumes the life I breath within me



His anger towards himself makes him self-judgmental & he feels the happiness that now he is blessed with he does not deserve it , his fear tells him that  he does not deserve Geet's trust and the greatest gift she bringing home to him, being responsible for that li'l life ...


He does not feel the joy that he should as the guilt creeps in , all he feels is immense pain..pain that he must have cost Geet if owing to his one decision she could have lost her dream, now their dream.





Your fragile heart has been broken
I stand there with hatred to the source of your grief

My heart's pain, and my soul's torture
Unbearable are your tears to see
They fall from your eyes, they come from your heart
It burns with unforgiving despair



Faceless to the world  he walks around like a living corpse & unable to bear his silence , unable to stand his eyes filled with a great surge of sentiments piled in for release  &  the site of him shattering within himself

 Geet forces him to share with her the grief that is killing him slowly ,


'Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.'


The moment he dreaded , the moment he waited for & moment that will either kill him or mark his salvation comes.

Tears welled up in his eyes & like to make an confession to God he goes down on his knees  & for the first time addresses the Baby.

He introduces himself as a stranger, a name not as his father coz he feels he has lost that right.

I'm Sorry
he cries .....


Geet who was at first troubled by his having stoned his emotions gets rooted by his gesture ..to which he continues


He recollects to them the decision that he was forced to make that day & accuses himself that by making the 'selfish' choice he proved it that he is not deserving enough for their trust , their love.

He curses himself to have lived through that day.

He does not seek forgiveness as in his eyes his sin is so big that he himself will never be able to let go of this hatred for self.





'I see a reflection that I have never seen before, I see myself in Your armor.'

Geet moved with emotions both for the Baby & its Papa.... gets down infront of him as he breaks down now totally &  refuses to look in her eyes ............ tear in his eyes that made the most joyful most sight to her once ..now burns her soul...coz these tears are but flames that are emitting from the fire in which he is burning himself


'Your love is like a fire that burns for all to see'.


She holds in her hands his pain-stricken face that was now waiting for her verdict, his punishment...she wipes his tears as hers begin to flow at his plight & questions him why was he suffering this all alone when he was not the culprit but  only victim in the hands of destiny who alone stood on the verge  to lose everything at the moment & yet he blames himself ...she is in awe of his love & responsibility towards their baby.

She knows he will never forgive himself for that moment but assures him that her trust has not at all diminished but has grown by his admittance of the truth that if he choose to keep away from her she never could have known.....

She tells him that both Baby & Baby's Mummy know that he , Baby's Papa could have made the same decision if the child was his own , nothing could have changed it....

His unconditional love for her can never make him do anything that is not right for her ...as she always comes 'First' for him....she also tells him meeting his eyes for the very first time since that day , that their child could never find any better father than him in this whole world.


He kisses her hand at having not been misunderstood & still loved, trusted.


Maan who has never let her voice her gratitude or apology to him as he never felt the need for her to do it  .... says
 'Thank you'.





'You won't realize the distance you've walked until you take a look around and realize how far you've been.'


Now having re-lived the fear, grief , helplessness & pain they hold each other to their heart  with a content smile playing on their now peaceful faces  they  cherished in what they are blessed to share today, their love, their togetherness.


There came a time
When you face the toughest of fights
Searching for a light
We are lost in the darkest of nights

But deep in our soul
The future unfolds
Is bright as the rays of the sun
You have to believe in the power of love






I'm still in trance of the overwhelming  love & pain that Maan expressed through his eyes, his soul ..his whole being for Geet & their Baby ...
My trust, respect , pride & love for this man, Maan never ceases to grow...
Epitome of Love indeed He is.



love
Nandita


Edited by nanditasingh - 09 January 2011 at 4:04am

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Sorry Nandita tried posting my reply here but didn't work so made a new post (was at work must be a firewall). I've been scanning GF looking for your posts and when I got your PM wanted to be the first one to reply.

Loved it, you can see my comments in the post below


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Awesome .........Awesome n Awesome analysis nandita.....
You have captured the whole journey from her being admitted to the hospital n his heart wrenching convo with the unborn baby! Brilliantly expressed his feelings thru out this fateful event of his life !
 
I'll update my take later.

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@ Daisy & Ritu - Looking forward to read your comments..this i guess is the only post that has me so so nervous .... its as if i'm appearing for some examination ....

@Ritu - Ya! remember i told i lost the post i was to make that day owing to my erring net connection, though i could not reframe it i tried my level best.....& the whole incident was a mini-tragic play in itself, nice heart wrenching track that had the power to make or break their relationship.
me rushing to read yours....

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it was awesome nandita..................

 
each and everyword perfectly enhanced the gamut of emotions shown by maan......the blend of poetry with it added the extra something...........
 
u writing reaally toached my heart....the fluidity n clarity of thots u portrayed............was amazing.............
maans journey was so aptly described by u that i am speechless............
 
and i agree with dee..........u trylay have the gift................to toach someones soul thru ur writing.keep it up...
 
i am still getting emotional just reading abouyt this..............
 
 


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Nandita, I've been trying to like, or quote your post but it wouldn't let me, tried to reply earlier but also wouldn't go through so trying again hoping it works
 
There was a gamut of emotions running through me as I read your post. I relieved every moment, I could actually visualize everything and felt every emotion that Maan & Geet felt.
 
How can you do this girl, how can someone's writing manage to pierce someone soul; I have no words to express the magic of your words.
 
You know over the last couple of days we've relived every painful moment, discussed it, argued about it and then I read your post and all the emotions felt so new so raw. I'm overwhelmed.
 
You my dear are really something, your writing is so powerful & I'm not just saying that lightly. You've been given a gift my dear please don't let it go to waste please take up writing seriously, I'll keep saying that to you till I convince you. You have to publish your articles.
 
You know people can entertain, enthrall or take someone to an adventure or fantasy world with their writing but very few people can touch someone's soul & trust me my dear when I say that's exactly what your writing does.
 
You can feel and write about emotion that's so complex at your young age; that's truly amazing. I love you dear love you writing even more. God BlessSmile

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This man..this man who will do everything in his power to fulfil even the smallest of wish of his beloved in such a dilema..i simplty cannot even put into words what your take made me feel..all the emotions which were built up in the heart after seen the sequences right from the time he said GEET and fell into the abyss of darkness..the darkness which could have eaten him alive...He just could not get over the fact that geet would never forgive him...BUT THIS SEEKER OF PERFECTION IS THE HARDEST ON HIMSLEF...HE JUST EXPECTS PERFECTION FROM HIS OWN SELF...TO ERR IS HUMAN...and according to himself he erred..thank God...HE IS HUMAN..a sensitive man who just cannot even comprehend being away from his Geet for a day...how would he survive Geet being unforgiving...

Thank god that Gete again askes maan what is bothering him and gives het pyar ka vasta..which makes him vulnerable and he can't help himself and breaks down..

Loved that he spoke to the baby directly...His love for geet the uncnditional love for geet..so at loss..and yet this man for whom truth is predominant and yet is hiding an important fact which can break him completely...
He has always said that he is matlabi..he is the dusht danav....and this time he was a dusht danav for his love for Geet..he became selfish in his love for Geet and ..gave the baby the 2nd position and tried to "kill" the baby..because it was not his biologically...
This was something even he know sis not true coz he had tears in his eyes when he first saw the ultrasound on christmas...this guilt he was feeling for choosing Geet over her own happiness her child for whom she fought and even at one point had decided to give up her love for Maan...
This illusion of Maan of  not being the true father...was killing him and making him so remoresful that he had gone into a mental trauma coz of this..
 
Geet understood him and how...she also reinterates the fact that even if the child was maan's biologically he would still have made the same choice..coz he just loves her so much...The magnitude of his love for Geet simply cannot be put into words it is that BIG...
It is so true...maan's love came second in life for Geet...and the feeling of oneness with her child came 1st...
Now if the situaltion is reversed..If at all Geet has to make a choice between Maan n her child..who will she choose..I would like to see the magnitude of Geet's love for Maan.......
Earlier phase of GHSP...we have always seen Maan taking care and wiping Geet's tears...yesterday we saw the reversal..geet wiping Maan's tears...This understanding of Geet where Maan and his emotions are concerned may play a very big role where Maan's past is concerned..of which nothing except the darkroom is shown and a few pointers from Daadi..
 
after the MC scare..The dialogues given by Maan clearly points out to the fact that this is what is staring at us..
Somehow i do not know...i have a feeling that the talks of Maan yesterday abt not being the biologial father..and his emotions there somehow pointed out to the fact that this is an issue which could be related to Maan's past too...just a theory
 
Every time maan makes a promise to Geet gets me worried..Now what will he give up for that promise...This time too Geet makes him promise the impossible......HOW WILL HE SURVIVE WITHOUT GEET...if he chooses their child...hope the situalion never  arisis...But looks like we are staring into this one .next......
 
I am in awe of your writing....It inspires me to understand the characters which i so love in so much more depth....Thank U nandu for writing as u write....
 
chalo nandu..bahut likh diya..pata nahi kaisa hai..this are just somethings kept in my heart after seeing th eepisode and just said what i felt...
chalo bye for now...
lotsa love Mags

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