Devils Den: The War Ain't Over - Page 70

It was late into the night and I lay awake. I was scared. I
don't know why. It was not that we had fought for the first time but today I
felt as though all my bonds with him had been severed. I couldn't bring myself
to face it. I could see him lying next to me and sleeping, and here I was
staring at his back turned to me. I tried touching him from behind but he just
shoved my hand away. I was heartbroken.

And then I was giddy the whole world just seemed to be
moving around me.

I tried getting up from the bed but I failed. I wanted to
move from the place but my head wouldn't let me. There was that nausea which was
eating me up.

I whispered "maan" but I didn't get any response from him I
tried to be louder but my voice failed me.

The only alternative I had was to turn on the lights and I
did.

He looked at me immediately. And his expressions changed
from anger to worry in a second.

"Geet..tum"…he just looked at me with his eyes wide open.

I could only shake my head. I tried to look at him but the
pain was killing me. I could do nothing. My head..i had never had this bad
headache in my life.

"Geet kya hua hai…" But I couldn't make him understand. I
just couldn't.

I lifted my hand and tried to make it reach my head but the
pain that was blinding me made me hold on to the sheets harder. He looked at my
hands and realized that there was something definitely wrong.

He lifted my hand and I held it tight. He looked at with
confusion and before I could realize my nails were digging into his hands.

And then suddenly the pain became worse and I couldn't
control myself I shouted as loud as I could.."maannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn"

And then started the fidgeting that I couldn't control. I
tried my best even he was trying to make me still but all his efforts were in
vain. At last he gave up and walked out of the room.

Before I could realize I saw dadi and annie in my room.

Dadi: geet..aap…

I became more restless than before, I had no clue why but I
didn't like them in my room.

I just wanted him in front of me. I looked at the door.

Dadi looked at me and said " who phone pe hain..abhi aa
rahein hain.."

But my eyes still didn't leave the door.

And then I saw him coming in. he looked worried.

Dadi" maan doctor ne.."

Maan "geet ko hospital le jaana padega..doctor ko nahi pata
kya hua hai.."

He just came to me and lifted me in his arms and in a minute
all my pain seemed to have disappeared.

I just put my hands around his neck and hid my face in his
shoulder.

He realized what I was doing.

He carried me to the car and tried putting me in the front
seat but I wouldn't unwind my arms from around his neck.

"geet..andar baitho.." I just shook my head and held him
closer.

"geet zidd mat karo…doctor wait kar rahi hai.." but I
wouldn't move I just held him closer to me.

He turned around to take me back into the mansion but again
I shook my head.

He just looked at me with a confused look.

I said "outhouse". He didn't question me but carried me to
the outhouse and all the way up to my bedroom and placed me on the bed. I dropped
my hands from his neck as soon as he placed me there. I knew now he will stay
with me till I was here. He wouldn't leave me alone in the outhouse.

He then turned to his shirt which was wet from the shoulder
by the tears that had been flowing relentlessly since he had taken me in his
arms.

He turned towards the door but I held his hand. He looked at
me and shook his head.

I was confused." Geet darwaza band karno do..'

I nodded my head left his hand and smiled to him. He walked
to the door locked at came back to me on the bed. I didn't my eyes wander from
him even for a second.

He sat on the bed next to me and put my head on his lap.

I just lied there and held his hand.

"sorry..maine jaan pooch kar..woh main kaam kar rahi thi aur
main sach mein bhool gayi thi..doobara aisa nahi hoga..pakka.." I said to him.

I just looked at him and he bent down and kissed my forehead

"jaanti ho geet mujhe gussa kyun aaya tha.."

I nodded my head and he looked at me with those full of
questions.

I bent down my head and said," kyunki main medicine lena
bhool gayi thi..".

He smiled at me and shook his head

I looked at him confused.

"Geet agar un medicines ko na khane se tumhe koi farak nahi
padta na toh main kabhi tumhe kuch nahi kehta par doctor ne kaha tha ki who
tumhare liye aur is nanhi se jaan ke liye bahut zaroori hai.." he said keeping
his hand on the bulge on my stomach.

I just looked at him in awe and buried my head in chest. He
looked at me and said.."ek baat poochonn"

I just nodded my head from the same position. He was now
stroking my hair.

"tumne jhoot kyun bola.."

It was now my turn to be shocked. I looked up at him and he
was looking at me with a mischievous smile and a twinkle in his eyes.

'main kuch samjhi nahi.."

He smiled his favourite lopsided smile to me. I loved that
smile but I still comprehend what he meant.

"abhi thodi der pehle tum kya kar rahi thi…pata hai mian
kitna dar gaya tha.."

It took me some time to realize what he was saying. I looked
at him and shook my head.

"main jhoot nahi bol rahi thi..' and I looked down..

"Geet.."his eyes full of concern.

I looked at him and smiled "main theek hoon ab.."

"par.."

"mujhe nahi pata un kuch palon ke liye mujhe bahut dard ho
raha tha..maine bahut koshish ki main khud be kaboo kar sakoon par..aur phir.."

"phir kya GEET.."

"phir main aapke paas thi aur main theek ho gayi.." I smiled
at him.

He looked at me with anger and confusion. This time I was
bemused by his anger. What have I done
that he is so angry.

"Geet..matlab tumhe sach mein dard ho raha tha.."

"haan"

"aur isiliye tum ro rahi thi.."

"Nahi.."

He again stared at me as if trying to fathom what I had
said.

"chalo doctor ke paas.."

Ji..

Tumne theek suna..tumhe doctorki zaroorat hai..woh bhi
dimaag ke…tumhare sir mein dard tha..tum chilati ho..meri jaan nikal jaati
hai..uske baad mein tumhe doctor ke paas le jaane lagta hoon to tum rone lagti
ho aur mujhe yahaan le aati ho aur phir mujhe kehti ho ke tumhara dard mujhe
dekhte he theek ho gaya hai aur tum na jaane kis wajah se ro rahi thi..and he
rolled his eyes at me..

I looked at him and burst out laughing.

He shot me an angry glare.

Tumhe badi hasi aa rahi hai..mujhe samjhaogi yeh kya ho raha
hai..

Dekhiye..and I burst out laughing again.

He just sat there waiting for me to stop laughing.

I looked at him and composed myself.

Mujhe nahi pata ki mere sir mein itna dard kyun ho raha
tha..par sach mein aapki paaas aate he main bilkul theek ho gayi…aur main ro
dard ke wajah se nahi aapki wajah se thi.

Chalo doctor ke paas abhi..geet koi zidd nahi..

Par..

Dekho geet is halat mein aise dard hona theek nahi
hai..chalo..

Main theek hoon sacchi..aap meri baat maaniye..agar subah
tak dubara aisa hua toh main pakka zidd nahi karoongi..jo aap kehnege wahi
karoongi…

But he was stubborn.I had to convince him a lot to stay back
home. Had I known that staying back home meant inviting a lot of trouble I
would have gone to the doctor.

Tum ro kyun rahi thi..tumne kaha meri wajah se..samjhoge..

I looked at him.

"aapko khone ke dar se..

Kya..

I nodded my head, but he still seemed to be perplexed by
what I had just said.

Aapne jab raat ko mujse baat nahi ki aur mujhe apne se door
kar diya toh mujhe laga ki app..

I couldn't bear to look into those eyes which reflected only
love for me.

Main tumhe chod kar chala jaoonga ya tumhe khud se door kar
doona..

I nodded my head still bent

He took my hand and placed it on his heart.

I looked at him into those unfathomable eyes which showed
only care for me and hurt by what I had said.

Geet tumhe kya sunayi de raha hai..

I really didn't understand what he meant by that but I
answered Dil ke dhadkene..

Aur dil ke dhadkan mein..

Ji..

I shook my head.

He looked at me and said jaanti ho Geet tum is dil ki
dhadkan ho agar tum nahi rahogi to is dil ki dhadkan bhi nahi rehengi..  

Aap..

Geet dubara kabhi aisa mat sochna ki main tumse kabhi bhi
door chala jaoonga..jaanti ho geet tumse door reh kar toh main jee hi nahi
paaonga to kya karoonga tumse door jaake..

I had tears in my eyes.
Why this man in front of me loved me so much. Why did his life seem to revolve
around me only. Why could he only think of my happiness and not his own pride. Why
did he always forgive me in a matter of seconds. I could only wonder at his
selfless love and my foolishness to doubt his love even for a second.

Geet ab tum..

I shook my head and snuggled more closer to him. "I am
sorry.."

shhh ab so jaao..

I smiled at him and said.."jaante hain yeh nanha shaitan
aapse bhi bura hai.."

Kya..

Aur kya nahi toh jab se main aap se ladi hoon tab se mujhe
tang nahi karta..and I placed my hand on my stomach to make him feel the
moments of the baby that I could feel. His face lit up with a smile immediately
and I went closer to his ear and said Thank you..

He looked at me confused..

Agar aap mujse itna pyaar nahi karte toh shayad main kab ki
haar chuki hoti..aap ek nahi do zindgaiyon ke jeene ke wajah hai..

He just smiled at me and took me in his strong embrace.

I bent down and covered ourselves with a blanket and drifted
off to sleep with his arms comforting me throughout the night.

 It was early hours in
the morning and I was still in bed but he was nowhere to be seen.

I turned and saw him talking on the phone.

I just waited for him to come back to me

He looked at me and asked "geet tumne khana khaya tha.."

Geet u are in for
trouble now.. who asked u to skip dinner just because he was angry with you. Now
he will give u an early breakfast. Babaji save me..