He sighned with a feeling of solace and happiness as he held his soulmate in his arms close to his heart. he couldn't believe his luck, that he has found his true love, the one who could love him unconditionally and irrevocably overlooking all his flaws. His turmoil of a year and half has ended and he has moved on in his life with his love beside him for two years now.
it all started with him all heart broken when he found out that the girl who he thought was his love ended up marrying in his absence, his riddhima was of someone else's now. he was hurt, pain shooted out of his heart as he learnt of it, his mind couldn't wrap the fact,he was in denial initially. he couldn't believe she moved on. she promised for togetherness forever. she said she loved him, then how could she move on without him in her life. he lived with a knowledge that she still loved him and was still stuck like him but as days passed he realised she wasn't , she has moved on. it stung hard. it pained him, he wanted a way to numb it, he took external pain to numb his hurt heart. he hurt himself in everyway possible.
in all this time of him hurting himself he didn't notice that there was a girl who has fallen for him, with him all broken too she has fallen, fallen hard that too. she tried to stop him hurting himself. she stood there cathching every time he fell, healing him everytime he hurt. she stood there for him knowing he was doing all this for a girl he loved. and that wasn't her. she never left him even he pushed her away, she loved him her way, which needed no words, she cared for him, nurtured his broken heart once again, amended it without him knowing. she healed him with her antics.
he still remeber what she did for him, how she made him whole. though he pushed her away, she would comeback everytime. she made him feel him angry, provoked him to react, to feel something else besides pain. she challenged him to divert his mind from the hurt, the pain in his heart. she made him laugh imitating him, falling for every prank he made on her. he pushed her a lot of time, he didn't want to be healed, he wanted to be left alone, he wanted to rot in his pain, but she never let him,she always came back, finally making him weak. he couldn't push away any longer and broke down before her. she sewed his broken heart back slowly, eventually.
she brought out a new hope for him. he lived once again. he was alive once again. there were things he could feel once again apart from pain. he no longer needed any distraction as he felt no pain. it wasn't her idea to make him fall in love with her,but her idea was to relieve him of his pain, to let him forgive himself for leaving riddhima, to forgive riddhima for marrying as it wasn't her fault either. to let go the pain he was building in himself. she achieved it and she was content.
but you never know when you fall for a person and that's what happened, he fell for shilpa, the person who brought him back to life, how and when he fell for her, he doesn't know, but he knew he was in love with her and wanted her for life. he didn't want to let go his love.
one may ask how he fell for another girl again. and that's what he has asked himself a lot of times. everytime he wuld get a answer yes he loved riddhima but it was different from what he had with shilpa. when he lost riddhima he was hurt. he has lost something that he believed was his. he wanted to win always, and when he lost riddhima he felt he has lost a game, a challenge he has lost. he didn't like the feeling of losing something. for someone who always one,it was worst to lose. and he took this losing feeling in a strong way, her hurt himself, but thankfully had a person to hold him and that was shilpa.
with shilpa everything came out naturally, he need not try hard to please her. simple things and words were simple for them. there was nothing to prove each other. they fit together like pieces of puzzle. the feeling was surreal. the emotion flowed between them naturally and no pretenses at any time. a visible tension flows between them, an electric pulses flows everytime they touch each other. being with her made him complete.he couldn't believe such things existed it felt so unreal. but it became more real when he realized that she was his soulmate, his true love.
Just felt like writing some thing. so here it is. Do comment.
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Edited by ramani - 13 August 2013 at 5:02am