SR - Ligature Of Love

Ridzy:

What have I done? How on earth could I do such a thing? Sid please try to understand that what Ammy did was simply platonic, I was not trying to be deceitful, I will admit my thoughts had faltered for a few moments and was drawn back to the past, but my bond with you is what kept me from being immersed by those memories. I hate what I have done to you, the look of pure pain on your features tore me apart, all I wished to do was ease your worries away, but when I attempted to explain the truth, you exploded, you told me that you'd never expected me to sign those DP, that you had came to lonavla with high hopes of trying to restore our relationship only to find me in the arms of my ex. But sid although the situation may have seemed compromising, I assure you nothing of that sort happened, Ammy was only trying to aid me, but trying to explain this was futile, you were convinced that all of this was an act, that I had made my choice, but sid this is not so, how can I possibly deny the ligature of love I have towards you? How can I fight the pull of adoration that I have for you?

Then when you drove off in a fit of anger, I became insanely distressed, whenever you were angry like this you caused pain on yourself, as I very well remembered from the aftermath of holi. Not caring for the state of my health I begged Ammy to help me find you, I did not care for my ankle so long as I found you, talked to you, knew that you were safe, It wasn't simply that I wanted to find you, more like I NEEDED to find you, you are a part of me sid, and when you are hurt then I feel that pain and bleed for you. When I found the car, and you unconscious and bleeding inside, I almost lost all senses, I was disgusted at myself for driving you to this state! All I could utter was "Please Sid wake up, please, nothing will happen to you Sid" I had to try and revive you somehow, thankfully Ammy knocked some sense into me before I dissolved into a reckless caprice, we had to get you back to the orphanage and help you recover.

Once you finally awoke though, you attempted to leave in-spite of your obvious contingency, this is when I lost it, I could not just let you leave, I knew if I did then it may be the last I ever saw of you, and that is something I would never want. So before you could even get past me, I went towards the door and firmly shut it, deterring your route of escape, than standing before you, with fire raging in me I shouted "I am not doing this out of sympathy for you, I am doing this as a duty of being your wife, now if you choose to leave then remember this, you will always find me there beside you" I hope this sunk in sid, I hope that you now know that despite all the pain I have caused you, now I will try to make amends, I will try and understand you.

By Tazzy