Why courier services lead to heartache

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Yup the Ridz defender is back..I must admit yesterday when I watched the episode I was convinced that the defender of Ridz in me was forever lost. Especially when she had that conversation with Armaan where he told her that Sid told him that she still loved him.  Instead of doing what any sane or even angry person would do and go confront the man that made up such things and ask why he said the things he did, she goes ahead and runs away (wow she must have more mileage on her then my dad's '89 accord) and takes out her anger on her Dp and signs them.  I mean really??? Sid was three steps away having a heart to heart with her father, and she had to stop at the locker room see Armaan have a confrontation and run away in the OTHER direction.  I love how when Armaan held the match of Sid towards Ridz her fuse lit sooo fast that she completely forgot all her intetions of talking to her husband, the promise she made her dad and ran.  Lol.  Man the Chudail is back in full force and anyone in her path better be ware.

Please do comment, but try to be civil'this is simply my view of whts going on and I thought I'd share it'

There is no need to bring in the SR AR wars'

So yesterday, finally she made a decision to talk to Sid she was so close before Armaan's words shattered her world, she was hoping to fix things and Armaan's words made her question everything she was thinking and feeling. She wanted to talk to Sid but Sid's thinking broke her heart, she went from there, shocked at a loss for words. Then came the decision she signed the papers, it questioned everything in her life, it made the last two months a lie, her marriage a lie everything she saw as a truth had gone shattered, she always thought she could lose everything but never lose Sid when everything went backwards, she held her will to sign it because she was sick and tired of everything happening around her. She didn't want freedom from the relationship but she couldn't stay in the relationship because it was causing her so much pain.

The pain was so evident in her eyes today, she wanted Siddihant Modi to know he had broken her heart!! With even more pain than Armaan had, when she was leaving him she wanted him to say Mat Jao she even looked at him saying please stop me, but he didn't, she had to walk away. She wanted him to tell him everything that has happened in the last 48 hours is a lie, tell her that it is going to be alright. He came in when she was crying that was important because he has always been there for her even when she was at her lost, he picked her up and then just wants to let her go without knowing her, or understanding what she is thinking.

She ran to her dad because he was the only one she can talk to he is the only one that knows what she wanted she told him today it was the hardest thing she had to do was sign the papers and on Monday she told him she wants Sid to take the divorce back. The only source of comfort she has now that Sid is not by her side to her he has left her in the middle of the road where she has nowhere to turn. 

Now why is Riddhima saying one thing and doing another one might say? But for Riddhima all the signs are saying Sid but whenever she is on her way to Sid he keeps pushing her away not wanting her to get close to him, he is not allowing her in and she all she has since is Sid supporting Armaan. She is seeing Sid deny the marriage, she has done what Sid has asked a number of times the hardest being acting as Armaan's wife. This shows she doesn't want out but Sid is leaving her with no choice, he is not understanding her. Today when she bumped into Armaan she was not effected by him, the same way she was effected by Sid when he held her hand and then let go, the anger was there in Riddhima but the pain was more so, she hid her pain in her anger and Sid hid his pain in silence.