After Lodi Party
Earlier I had to told you all about Channi and what Brij paaji did to him...but eventually things calmed down. Daaji told Devji's family that Channi's mother had lost it and she was just acting up. I don't know how much truth was in that...was she just assuming that Brij paaji hurted Channi? I really do hope so!
Just few seconds ago, I was blushing like I haven't blushed before...but now that I think about it, am I that insensitive? But Channi...wherever she is...I hope she is alive...would have wanted me to be happy. She would have been really happy for Devji and me....Devji and me...doesn't that sound like heaven?
He is really unlike any other men that I have come across in my life...well any men that weren't part of my family and believe me there weren't much. Though Gajender is sweet...you know Lajjo I used to be jealous of Channi whenever I saw her with him...they seem to be so in love and perfect. But not anymore...I don't think there is anyone more perfect than Devji!
He wanted to take my picture...photo Lajjo...but I was terrified...Brij paaji ya phir kisi aur ne dekhliya hota...toh I would have been dead. But he is my hone wale pati na...so why can't he take a picture of me? Or maybe I was just thinking too much...maybe I am just too shy! You know something Lajjo...he didn't even tell his family about what I told him...and said that it's our little secret! Can you believe we have something common between us!!?
I was really terrified thinking about going to Canada...but not anymore...he is too sweet...you know what he told me that he would make Canada like India for me. I can't stop thinking about him...am I in love? Is this what it feels like to be in love? Main kah rahi hoon Lajjo, Devji jaise koi aur nahi hai!
I hope everything will work out fine for us...I am going to miss my family but I know that everything would work out fine...right? I don't know why but I have this feeling...an uneasy feeling...as if kuch bura hone wala hai! Wahi Guru please kuch bura na ho...maine toh mar hi jaana hai!