i was again sitting on the bench same palce where i share my happiness my sorrows ,but today this place is looking so different not giving me the same soothness same felling which i feel whenever i feel broken, i just watching the sky the gleetring star ,the shiny moon .........my chanda mama
the moon is glowing with happiness ,alwys moon;s glow made me happy ,but today it does not effect me ..
i was just saw my palm's watching the lines which was made made by god, in my childhood i was listen that their is one chand in our hand too ,today i was searching the chand trying to make the chand on my palms " mein dekna chati thi ke meri lakrio mein bhi vo chand hein ya nahi " but i can't see my palm properly due to my tears ...
i believe god made everybody special ,by presenting us this life ,by making us human ,but why god made different regions,why he bring difference between people , usne kyo ye color or khubsurti banyi .....mein usse naraz hoon ya un logo se jo dil ke khoobsurti ko na dekh ker bus body ke beauty ko importance dete hein ....
mein jab bhi trouble mein thi muje apne room mein lage us poster se courage mila "footprint "jiske last lines muje aaj bhi yaad hein " the lord said "my precious precious child i will never leave you during your ttime of suffer , the time when you saw only one foot print it was mine i carried you in my arms "
but today i can't see any footprint why i was crying bitterly ,
you are no where no where ,i hate you ,i want to tell this to god , if he listen .......
suddnely i feel someone 's hand on my shoulder ,,,,i turned and saw someone smiling.
boy- why are you crying ?
girl-it's none your business , plz leave me alone ?
boy- well i will not trouble you but i want to know why are you angry with god ?well i don't know you but i think if you tell me your problem may be i can help you ?
girl- well why you want to help me ?when he does not want to help me ? every body who help me just end up in trouble .
boy- ok , don't get angry ,ok why you think so he doesn't want to help you ?
girl- meine kabhi kissi ko hurt nahi kiya phie koi muje kassi hurt ker sakta hein ,kisski ko ye rite kasie hein ke vo muje chot de,meri insult kare ,muje bhi dard hota hain .......i also have some feelings ....but why they don't care my feelings.
boy- well if you tell me everything i will know exatly what happen don't worry i will not tell this to anyone ? kabhi kabhi kuch anjaan bhi hamari vo help ker saktein hein jo kabhi apne nahi ker pati.or phir bhi tum anhi batna chati to it's ok .i am fine with this?
gir- mein un ladki mein se nahi jisne kabhi kuch khass demand ki ho ,meri life bahut simple ,mere parents or one sweet bro , mein apni life mein hamesha bus kuch pana chati thi ,jis age mein girls boyfriend banti thi ,mein books ko apna friend banya ,mein janti hoon ke mein overweight hoon ,even spectacles too , or vo bhi 5 number but i don't care for this ,i alwys thought ke beauty sab kuch nahi hoti ,insaan hamesha apne morals se values se pechnan jata hein ..... kabhi apne color se nahi lakin shayd mein galat thi ....aaj bhi log sirf do tarah ke logo ko pechante hein ek black or ek white ,sab ne bus ye two categroy mention ker li hein.......
muje aaj tak kabhi is baat ka koi gam nahi tha ke mera color fair nahi hein ,my spectacles or my weight but today i face the true word where only your skin ,your body is matter not your soul.......
you know do din pehle muje ladke wali dekne aaye ,meri sanp vo pehle he dekh chuke they or us ke baad vo mujse milne aaye mere mom dad chat thay ke ye baat pakki ho jaye .....
us ladke or us ke friend ne mujse meri qualfication pochi or phir they said me ke mein apna spectacles uttar ker door khadi car ka number read karo ....
mene apni life mein aaj tak kabhi itni insult nahi feel ke ,ye janti hue ke mein vo number nahi read ker sakti they insult me agar vo is rishte se mann karna chat they to vo pehle he kah sakti they ,why they insult my parents ,my self respect......
aaj jo boy 10 pass he usse be m.c.a ,m.b.a girl chayia they all wish for karenna kapoor even they are not like shaid kapor ....
kissi ko kuch pasan nahi kissi ko kuch ,,,,,,,,mein thak gayi hoon vo chai ka cup le jakar apni numyish se lagti ha muje ye .......
aap ne maa papa se kya kaho ke mein ab haar chuki hoon mein maan liya hein ke meri life mein shaddi ka chapter close hein ........kassi apni mom se kaho ke vo saaar luggage ,vo bahut sari bedshets jo meri shaddi ke liye meri mom ne collect ker rakhi hein vo sab bekar hein ......vo jewellry ,kya fayda meri mom dad ko aisa sapne dekna ka jinka koi fyda nahi hain.kya fayda jab vo ya sab soctein hein ke muje ye tv denge ,vo car......
jab her koi bus sundarta he chata hein..........
log shayd kissi ka dard anhi samjati meri mom se pocht hein ke kab beti ke shadi ke kabar de rahi ho ,or kitna padegi ,
kya muje taklaf nahi hoti jab mein kissi ke barat dekti hoon mana mein kabhi us barat ka sapna nahi dekha lakin ek sapna to tha ke ek din mera vo jodi dar aayga lakin ab muje ye bhi jhoot lagta hein.......
ab muje god se bhi koi umeed nahi hein kyoki aakhir mistake bhi to uski hein.....
boy was looking at girls face after listening her whole story ,he broke his silence
boy- kya tum is baat se pershaan ho .
girl-ya .
boy- dekho mein manta hoon ke tum kahin na kahin sahi ho lakin tell me one thing.
gi- as
boy- kya tumne us bache ko dekha he jo beech per sand se castle bana rahaa hota hein .......tum janti ho us bache ko pata hota hein ke abhi thodi der mein pani ke lehre usse baha le jaygi lakin vo phir bhi us ghar ko sajata hein usse or sawrta hein ....... usse or nikarta hein........
kitni he lehre aaye vo phir se naya castle banta hein kahi udas nahi hota.........
kabhi tej pani mein kisti chalta hein or jab vo doob jati hein to phir ek anyi boat banta hein........
life aise he hein ,,tum kassien ek choti se dard se ruk sakti ho manaa ki ye baat choti nahi hein lakin kya tum is ke liye jeena chod doge...... tum socha kya tumhar parents ko pain nahi hota ,jitni taklef tumhe hoti hein vo bhi feel kartin hein....... tumhe to unke himmat bana chayia ,or tum yaha khud himmat chod ker beti ho.
or rahi baat god ke to ,mein janta hoon ke vo jiska naam tumhare haat ke lakeiro mein hein vo khud ko tumhare liye better bana raha hein ,vo chata hein ke jab tum uski life mein aao to vo tumhe her khusi de, tum janti ho vo jo bhi they jinhone tumhe reject kiya vo tumhare liye nahi bane they ,kyoki vo sab stupid they jo tumhari sachyi ko nahi dekh sake ,lakin vo jo tumhari in eyes se tumahri khubsurti dekh sakta hein vo to bahut special hein vo bus ye keh raha hein ke thoda sa intezaar karo .mein tumhari ratein se her kanta nikal raha hoon ,or bus apni pyar ke phoolbicha raha hoon.....
shayd tum meri baat per viswas na ho lakin ye sach hein ,humme hamsha vahi cheez milti hein jo hamera liye best hoti hein .......
god sab ko equal rakta hein ,us ke liye to her koi equal hein ,is liye don't cry becoz doing this you hurting alot of person .......and more you too.......
girl-kya vo sach mein hein .
boy- ha her kissi ke liye koi na koi hein......or vo hume jaror milega....
girl-she was smiling the word of boy give her her strength abck her thoughts . sorry i don't ask your name ....
boy- aap ne apna naam bhi to nahi batya .....
girl- hi i am nupur.
boy- hi ,i am maynk.
Edited by adi_gupta - 14 years ago
comment:
p_commentcount