The Double life.
How would it be if u have two lives to live, would it be fun or troublesome. Well for me it was both,let's see how u find it.
"What the Heck is this?"She asked throwing the newspapers on the table before me while I was busy doing my makeup for the next shot of the ad. "Sapna,it's the truth.I am leaving the show."I answered casually doing my makeup again. My name is Riddhima Gupta,I am a model turned actress. I tried my hand on movies but they were the worst flops of the year,I don't mind saying that my movies are flop,it's the truth, I can't change the fact. Then I entered the TV And was lucky that my first show has become a hit,people liked my character n me too.Lucky I got some appreciation n fans too. "What? It's true n you didn't even think of telling me this? I am your manager,Riddhima.How can you do this without telling me? Leaving the show n this press statement." She spat at me. "Sorry,Sapna. It wasn't my idea of not telling you abt it,I wanted to tell you that I am leaving the show but I don't know where the media people came to know abt it n they were pestering me so horribly that I had to spit it out.sorry" I said holding my ears. Sapna,sorry Sapna Sharma, is my manager but first she is my friend from college. We studied together n then I joined modeling, n when I joined movies she volunteered to be my manager. I accepted readily as she is my best friend n I would surely want her to be my side forever,u see it's very rare opportunity to be by your friend's side always. She supported me when I had flops n when I decided to do TV she encouraged me. When I got the offer she was the first to read it,n she was very excited as the story was a youthful one. She felt that people would surely like it. N she was right,people liked the show, the characters, the lead pair that's me n Sumit, I really enjoyed doing the show,I was very comfortable with the cast,I liked them all but then the producers were too much abusive,they credited themselves n their lead actor for all the success of the show,that's nothing I mind,I don't care what they think abt themselves but they treated others like nothing. I didn't like it,prejudice was something I never learned, n I can't let someone hurt me, my self respect was my everything,that's when I decided to leave the show. The producers seemed unaffected,they readily showed me the door,n I left with my self respect n dignity the essential jewels of oneself. "Riddhima,this is no excuse,you have dealt with media before too,this is not something new for you"she gave me look of "I am disappointed"."Yeah,I understand that,sapna but I couldn't handle them anymore. I mean?I mean.. I am fed up with this media,the producer, everything.You know how the producers were,they are mean n abusive, I can't listen, it just irritates me. N then the press it has been pestering me saying,mam why did you opt to be out of the show,do u have any problem with the producers or with the cast,or did u get anyother offer" "aaaaah,it's eating my head n it just slipped out of my mouth" "u know riddhima,because of u leaving the show how much ur fans will be hurt,they will hate u for doing it." "Sapna,i have thought abt it too,but they are my fans,my well wishers they will surely understand me. I am tired now sapna,these many years I worked hard to gain this,criticism from some people,seeing myself as someone self else as potrayed by the press, I am tired listening things abt myself which I don't know my self. It was one's my passion to be a model n actress but now that passion has left me n it is replaced by distress,uneasiness. I am suffocating in this world Sapna. I want to leave it once for all n be normal again,like we were. I want us to enjoy the world as we did before, not thinking abt what other's think abt us.Here in this world everyone's eyes are on us,what ever we do becomes a news,nothing is private here sapna, I don't want it. I want to leave it all. Atleast for once I want to go back to that normal life, be the true riddhima once again."I said looking at her whose expression has softened a little bit. She is my friend, n wanted the best for me,n that is what she is worried abt,abt me. I understand that but I am really tired of the thing I am doing.I needed a break,I surely needed one,one big break.
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