much delayed, but i wanted to sit at doing this once and for all, and honestly, no better excuse... just cut me some kind slack - being nice, civil people call it Prologue
: Lovely was cliche? aha! seriously, i'd have thought a nikki/anj/muski would fetch me that... lovely seemed most unlikely! either way, no the intention was only to arrive at the character i wanted her to be, couldn't think of anyone to fit... in retrospection i suspect i should have had an entirely new name... oh well!Part 1:
Psyche and art seemed interesting to me as much... more than anything, they were fields i could A) combine, B) explain, C) fit the bill with... u know what i mean, now that the story has been read... as for a missing organ - do u think lack of possession or underachievement can overshadow that? and the exact opposite make up for more than it? ques, ques, ques! Part 2
: i like your analysis into stuff. G and R being charming felt like a personal compliment (*smiles*) as for the unknown, lack of expressing, lack of seeking... i figure, nope i believe, its the greatest barrier in most relations ... and obv this is fiction i'm giving them the second chances, literally... can't say the same about life always, eh? communication, is a tremendous link - the do or die kind... writing unleashing got me closer to believing, that confrontations are the hardest resolves and easiest resolutions... it seems escaping is convenient, but forget the consequences, the entire dead weight of it alone... is something that should fall small before confronting... easier said! ... again, confrontations can't always go right, this is 'just' fiction!Part 3:
You're bang on! his decision finds no more consent with me than with you, sympathy in the least. we create our situations, more than anyone and anything else, and then... well, mostly we try to escape... thats two big blunders, right there! ... but you see, my protagonists, as i intended for them, are not always right... so often you don't need bad people around, only bad decisions... and when bad people are around, its all the more reason that decisions would not follow suit... btw to answer u about ridhima left hanging... the most unfair of his deal in regards to her is the fact that he never expressed what she is to him, but he also did by no means conceal it well enough, eh?! Part 4:
ahah! now you're talking cliche! done it without the guy, and become the hard heart harder headed strong (detached) career girl eh? too hurt or bruised to figure it all out? no... the point was not her wait for him to resume normalcy, but the person she is... with all her independence, she isn't denying logic, and shes definitely not running away from facts.... well she is, but she can't eternally... its exactly her dilemma, she would rather be past and done, but shes not the kind to move on without answers, and in seeking them she doubts herself, loses perspective and direction several times, thats elementary, ain't it? and team ridhima! :D not that i'd expect any else from you! Part 5
: yeh, there's no point bringing flowers for the heck of flowers, they're too whimsical, i might as well use the florist! :D and yes again, the entire idea was to start narrating somewhere in the middle of what has happened and what will... it keeps the pace on! ... about ridhima's regular wish... too bad we keep forgetting the basics make us most happy... the dreams we seek become not too impossible, but too vast for us to enjoy weaving and processing them... the whole idea is lost... i think... Part 6
: and you're talking of armaan over thinking! :D i hate falling out of char when going for the char... hes, lets say, wired like that... and somehow, so is ridhima... they thoughts are triggered by the same and different things... chirag and ritu were for me the cliche definition of ideal friends, i only tried to undo the regularity in them by truly sticking to it! :D as for armaan accepting things just like that... really, like ridhima he can't.. much as he'd like to! or i wont let him... i couldn't not just to progress the story, but to stick to what i thought i wanted him to be! and yeh, shes a complex girl... the kind made complex by standing contradictions!Part 7
: I was considering making her understand or guess the lovely connection too, when i first wrote it... but then i tried to re think... it is what you say, the teen girl trying to mature... somewhere she has grown out of her adolescence in every respect except the obvious, cause the lessons and experience which should have aided her learning have remained highly incomplete and she has not given them alternate chances... she has hence, the trite way, neither been there nor done that... u know? and armaan isn't always helping her understand, sometimes voluntarily, sometimes not... and premonition was rather pointed out, you shouldn't have missed, of course... btw gogol? :S yeh, whatever!Part 8:
heard this one?
Oh, what a tangled web we weave
When first we practise to deceive!
the worst among such webs is the one we weave for ourselves, we allow ourselves, 'time to think-solace-solitude' but the thin line between that and escapism is so easily crossed, it is what eventually makes his stay in calcutta something semi permanent... and he may have really wanted to be told it was alright, maybe he had wanted that exactly not, hence his previous silence over the issue... but he definitely did not need that... ain't it good in her own turmoil ridhima still managed to assure he didn't get what would do him no good? he was in error, not as he blamed himself, but as u did, and somewhere in keeping lovely with himself he was keeping his shield alive not hers... somewhere, then, all along he knew his decision had just been incorrect... he was after all only early 20's, with too much too tackle! and no, that still doesn't justify... personally as i writer, i never sough to justify this armaan, right upto the end... u can't undo ur wrongs, u can only hope to achieve redemption as far as possible... Part 9
: Gappu in creation as a character was least planned and something like 'serendipity' it was only after i saw the ridhima-gappu bond chape that i knew what it was i had to do there... and it was accidental that the former even happened... secondly, he wasn't, a shadow to armaan really, but he was on the same plane in a different dimension! :) armaan's anonymity is more his lack of trust on self than chirag, and his giving in to call chirag, not ridhima is a sign of who he thinks he needs to escape more, or paraphrased, who he thinks he has caused to suffer most... ironically he is not undoing it, only furthering the process! Part 10:
so, when i read vikram seth, a suitable boy, i fell in love with a few things... calcutta was one, and i had never been to the city before that... when i saw the city, it was what it had been for gappu, for different reasons... for gappu the shock was more from lack of knowing what to expect... for me it stood in contradiction... i was (And im widely travelled as far as the country goes) just simply shocked with the state of affairs, especially with the most basic dealings... but it surprised me, how the dream of an image i had formed of the city the image in my head from reaind still seemed to dominate... guess i can't explain... there is a charm about the city, seth's words instilled, more than anything else, it was like i could see everything in a different light... and well... i reckon in that sense i hold Gappu's letter dear! if i met that man, i'd tell him this one's for him and his work! .. and his city! i could have done something from armaan's view, but gappu was the easiest, i had been him! ... also, lol this may amuse u, i actually got facts in place during a chat with my brother before getting to this stuff, just you know! if there is one link in unleashing i have been heavily in debate about in my head post its completion, its vivek... some day on some impulse, when i think of a whole better alternate track, i shall undo it i suppose... or maybe i will continue being lazy... still, for now, it fits!
Part 11: the
glimpse happened, as i still recall, from what happened at the house
that night i was writing this part, i scraped what i had done before
and re did this... one of my house mates made us talk to her 3 year old
niece on the web cam... showed her our entire house... bla... not like
i'd never had web cam conversations before, but... well something just
struck! and acceptance, really was the whole issue all along... all they needed kind!
Part 12: for this i can only say, i'm flattered, literally... you actually
seemed to have liked a confession... they seem to matter, and i seem to
believe i suck at them many times... more than much else, i'm glad, and
relieved, you think it was real! that matters for certain!
Part 13: reminded
of infinity, hmm... i reckon then we must have a common grey cell, at
least one, neither had read the other piece when we wrote, eh? an d
redundant words, i can deal with, brevity isn't mine, but redundant
characters are plague like... as for gaurav's influence on armaan,
somewhere even as he does not know or think, it is for him seeing a
different person he could have been himself... more than ever it makes
him realize what he needs to take control of and fix in his life...
vivek, shall be back, sigh!
if you didn't think or guess while reading, i was getting rather tired
of gathering the multiple lose ends i had created myself... to be
honest i was so exhausted it was a strain to maintain accuracy and
still answer it all :D but yeh, together is the conclusive word,
Part 15 : yeh,
the light vein of this part was a break i gave myself, for the most,
leaving scope to continue on the treachery of plotting again, next part
Part 16: Ridhima's
wariness of vivek is from the feminine instinct that he likes her, just
that. her carelessness in being suspicious is from her knowledge that
she has nothing for him... its like an i dont care call you would
make... and armaan's presence in her life seems to have eased her tense
nerves n responses to what she would otherwise snap at... u know?!
gaurav armaan :) i like doing those bits too, anything with gaurav in
fact! hes a score over armaan for me, for obv prejudiced reasons!
Part 17: you
weren't getting brief at all, go scroll back up and check you will
agree! however, i agree, there is nothing to write or ponder about
happy peaceful parts.. funny enough, cause my brother asked me after
reading this thing why i had to mess so much in something that could be
plainly resolved by being honest in words... and i had answered then,
that i had a story to tell... what could be told in two lines as once
upon a time and happily ever after, needs a content, after all?!!
Part 18 :
Right this moment i like the author more than any of the characters...
i promise you, my smile touched my eyes :D as for the rest, im glad u
enjoy the lighter vein of resolving issues for the bit... they are
slowly undoing the knots, in relations, in character complications, and
as u say evolving... chirag was ALWAYS the honest one... in his words,
hes only, thankfully, sensible enough to await his moment to express
thoughts in real words... its the one way you can be a best friend, and
the only one perhaps...
yes?.. yeh, i reckon! i dunno how many were out for my blood in the
writing of unleashing, for the 'lack of AR' as they called it... for
me, they were all over... they were always, in all ways responsible for
everything and everyone who shaped into the story, wont u agree?! onto
next, me too! :)
Part 20: You
read a CF in between? wow! some honor that bestows me with (yes kiran,
that was horribly back stabbing on our part, *pouts*) as for G-M, the
are just teens... i think in some way, the teens believe more than most
lovers other ages, that they are meant to be for life! idealistic
thinking, or what! when i was writing the chars, i was pleased with
myself in how much similarity i could show between chirag and armaan,
and ritu and ridhima, as pairs... of individuals who could and would
bond as friends... and yet i think i managed to keep that difference
alive, where, not just for names, but for chars, one would see why RC
and AR are paired as lovers as they are... do you agree? May the force be with you?!!! ahahaha! okay, just a traditional version of it, i used, really... ignore me being 'backward' :D
Part 21: i dunno what to reply with here... it was just a random part i
had to write... u know? the filler? but necessary kind? RM were sort of
prime, cause well, underlying the entire story, is what armaan muskaan
Part 22: Did you really think that was cool? i did mention, im not
convinced about the vivek segemnt to unleashing... and yet! if only i
knew a smarter way of creating the scenario without a human villain...
i told nij, i think i suck at creating them, i just don't get entirely
Part 23N - J:
RM was that part of the story wherein i somehow wanted to stamp the
fact that i wasn't going to make it all right... i think i tired of
'ideal' happy endings... the hopeful, look forward to newer horizons
seem more appealing, and hold greater intrigue... btw u said something about ridhima having held back slightly post confession, u did have that one answered eventually, eh?!
Anjali in their own rights to me were elders, not aged, who can be, and
are real... i thought i could identify with some in my own life... and
gappu treating ridhima as his dump, oh yes indeed! a bonding with the
elder sibling (Which she wasn't technically) is such a thing... it
amazes me sometimes, flatters me too, and at very rare occasions leaves
me guilty as how my parents can be a second for my brother, second to
me... ! as for the closure... i was also hoping, yet again, that AR
would not be the 'we kiss and make up couple' ... although literally
that may sound it... but you know, all that scope... like a long way to
go no matter how long you've come... i kind of like the ending... the
only one i like 'like' in most stuff i've written...
thanks for the effort in commenting sookie, thanks because i mean it. i
don't know if i can say the same about my persistence... ! but here i
am, and it was very gladdening to have all this feedback!
Edited by spln - 05 January 2010 at 12:34am